Finally 100

OK, this will be a multi-faceted post. I've got a quiz to post, and a mental download to do. 1st the easy part.
You are a PHOENIX in your soul and your
wings make a statement. Huge and born of flame,
they burn with light and power and rebirth.
Ashes fall from your wingtips. You are an
amazingly strong person. You survive, even
flourish in adversity and hardship. A firm
believer in the phrase, 'Whatever doesn't kill
you only makes you stronger,' you rarely fear
failure. You know that any mistake you make
will teach you more about yourself and allow
you to 'rise from the ashes' as a still greater
being. Because of this, you rarely make the
same mistake twice, and are not among the most
forgiving people. You're extremely powerful and
wise, and are capable of fierce pride, passion,
and anger. Perhaps you're this way because you
were forced to survive a rough childhood. Or
maybe you just have a strong grasp on reality
and know that life is tough and the world is
cruel, and it takes strength and independence
to survive it. And independence is your
strongest point - you may care for others, and
even depend on them...but when it comes right
down to it, the only one you need is yourself.
Thus you trust your own intuition, and rely on
a mind almost as brilliant as the fire of your
wings to guide you.You are eternal and because
you have a strong sense of who and what you
are, no one can control your heart or mind, or
even really influence your thinking. A symbol
of rebirth and renewal, you tend to be a very
spiritual person with a serious mind - never
acting immature and harboring a superior
disgust of those who do. Likewise, humanity's
stupidity and tendency to want others to solve
their problems for them frustrates you
endlessly. Though you can be stubborn,
outspoken, and haughty, I admire you greatly.

*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
brought to you by Quizilla This has some close truths....and some not so close. I *do* fear failure. It's something I think about often. I can't cope with the idea of not being successful in all aspects of my life. Fame & fortune aren't necessarily what I seek, but I want to know that I didn't waste my life & my love. Yes, life is tough & the world is cruel. I've definately faced this reality more often than not. I *am* independent, but I also *do* need others. I'm not good at being alone, I'm not good at *not* being romantically involved with another human being. I don't *need* a lover to *be* complete. I am complete with or without that, but I *do* need love in my life to make my life feel complete. I wouldn't say I'm never immature....I'm sure I exhibit my fair share of childish behaviour, but I do have to agree, I sometimes do feel superior to those who I perceive to be more immature than I. Stubborn, outspoke, haughty.....all definately fitting descriptions of facets of my personality.....but not a picture of the diamond as a whole. :) Now, on to the dump. :) I'm having what I believe to be a major dilemma....and it's really tough for me to take a step back and view it from an unbiased & rational perspective. Rik's company is based in Reno, with a division in Concord. They've been talking about closing the Concord office for about a year now, and moving the employees to Reno if they want to take the offer. Well the talk is no longer talk. It's a reality. July 1, 2004 - the Concord office will officially be closed. Our options are - 1. If we move, Rik keeps his current salary/title/position & gets a $15,000.00 moving allowance, which can be used for the move itself, as well as the expenses of home hunting, and defraying the costs of buying a home in the Reno area. 2. If we decide to not move, but Rik stays until the last day, he will get 3 months severance pay. Codicile to #1 - Several of the management-types *want* desperately for Rik to stay with the company & move to Reno. There has been talk of "what will it take" to get him to make the move. An income of a least $100,000.00 has been mentioned as a 'prerequisite'....and somewhat jokingly .... he said "get my wife a job." Well, last night, we went to dinner with 1 of the management-types, and he started pitching things to me. He thinks I'm the hang-up here, and that if he can make me happy....Rik will make the move. He pretty much promised that he was working on getting Rik his $100K, and then he ask if *I* would consider coming if he could get me a job in HR, making at least $40K (which is about $5K more than I make now). We agreed to hold off on making a decision until he comes back and lays all his cards on the table. So - Pros & Cons Going to Reno - Pros - Guaranteed job (Rik's anyway), cheaper living expenses, opportunity to get a bigger house with land. Going to Reno - Cons - Rik's company is *not* completely stable. They have the possibility to be wildly successful, but they've been wavering between success & failure for a while now. If the company goes under....we're screwed. There's no real tech industry in Reno, and it would be highly unlikely that Rik would find another job making anything close to what he's getting now. We could save money and try to have a bank roll to move back to California on...but that's no guarantee. Being financially intelligent is not our strong point. We have excellent credit, and are very responsible....but if there's money left over...we go shopping. Another major con is making the move in and of itself. We have *a lot* of stuff, and it's not a simple process to pack up and move. When we moved to Fairfield 5 years ago, it was done by professionals. According to them, we had 17 THOUSAND pounds of stuff. I'm sure now, it's 20 if not 25. Plus, we need to do some cosmetic work on our house. We could probably sell it as is, but we'd get more for it if we did some drywall work, new carpet, and new paint. Frankly, we don't have the money for that. Another consideration - my job. According to my boss (Asst VP of HR), the Exec. VP, and the CEO, I've got a real future with my company. They value me & need me, as much as Rik's company values & needs him. It has been mentioned, more than once, that when my boss retires in a year, I would be a strong candidate to replace her. It wouldn't be the same position, as my boss has been there 18 years, and no one could really replace her, or have the knowledge that she does....but I am definately being looked at as a HR Manager/Supervisor....taking over the administrative aspects of the position. The final consideration - my slave & best friend Vicki, my submissive & lover Dana, and a few *very* good friends. Reno is about 5 hours from everyone (besides Rik) that I genuinely love & care about. I already have a tough time making drives that are 50, 75, & 100 miles to be with my friends......I bitch & whine about it constantly. Reno would just be worse. Instead of my seeing everyone on the weekends, like I do now....I *might* be able to make it to the Bay Area a few times a year.....and I *highly* doubt that many (any) of the people in my life would want to make the trek to Reno to spend time with me. Staying here - Pros - We keep our house, I keep my job, I keep my loved ones closer to me, we don't have to deal with the hassles of fixing this place up, selling it, moving, & looking for a new home. Staying here - Cons - Only 1. What if Rik can't find a job? We're willing & able to take a $10-15K pay cut...but what if there's just nothing out there? There's hundreds (thousands?) of tech-types in the Bay Area who are looking for work. What makes me think we'd be one of the lucky ones to land one of the few decent paying jobs that are available? We have until February 29....1 MONTH....to make our decision. Do I stay, or do I go now. If I go there may be trouble, if I stay it may be double.

Post 99, another personality quiz

Before we get to the quiz - anyone have any ideas of something special I can do for my 100th journal post? http://www.auracolors.com/test.htm GREENS - 10 points Greens are some of the most powerful and intelligent people in the aura spectrum. Greens are extremely bright. They process information and ideas quickly; jumping from steps one to ten. They do not like dealing with all the steps and details in between. A project that is too detailed is tedious and boring for Greens. They prefer to develop an idea, organize a plan, and then delegate someone else to take care of the details. Greens are very drawn to money, power, and business. These quick-thinkers are very organized and efficient. They write lists and efficiently check off the items on the list as they are completed. Greens recognize patterns and discover solutions very quickly. When Greens are in their power, they can accomplish anything. They love to set goals and are determined to achieve them. Greens are “movers and shakers” when it comes to taking action. They are also typically the workaholics on the planet. Greens are highly competitive and enjoy challenges. They thrive on taking risks. Gambling is common for Greens, especially if there is a potential for large winnings. Being strong-willed, these powerful personalities are determined to have their own way, which they usually feel is the right way. A person is rarely able to win an argument with Greens . BLUES - 9 points Blues are some of the most loving, nurturing and supportive personalities of the Life Colors. They live from their heart and emotions. Their purpose for being on the planet is to give love, to teach love and to learn that they are loved. Their priorities are love, relationships, and spirituality. Blues are traditionally teachers, counselors, and nurses---basically the loving, nurturers and caretakers on the planet. Blues are constantly helping others. They want to make sure that everyone feels loved and accepted. People are always turning to Blues for comfort and counsel because Blues will always be there for them. They consistently provide a shoulder for others to cry on. Blues are the most emotional personalities in the aura spectrum. They can cry at the drop of a hat. Blues cry when they are happy, hurt, angry, sad, or for no apparent reason at all. Even watching a sentimental commercial on television can bring on tears. YELLOWS - 8 points Yellows are the most fun-loving, free-spirited, energetic, and childlike personalities in the aura spectrum. Yellows are wonderful, sensitive, optimistic beings, whose life purpose is to bring joy to people, to have fun, and to help heal the planet. Yellows can either be very shy and sensitive, or they can be the life of the party. These playful characters have a great sense of humor. They love to laugh and to make others laugh. Yellows believe life is to be enjoyed. They like to live life freely and spontaneously. With a perpetual smile on their face, they remind people to not take themselves or their problems too seriously. Yellows would prefer not to work at all, unless their work was fun, playful, or creative. They love nature, and often have concerns for the survival of wildlife and the environment. Dogs are very drawn to Yellows and often become their best friends. VIOLETS - 7 Points Violets are the inspirational visionaries, leaders and teachers who are here to help save the planet. Most Violets feel drawn to educate the masses, to inspire higher ideals, to improve the quality of life on the planet, or to help save people, animals and the environment. All Violets have an inner sense that they are here to do something important, that their destiny is greater than that of the average person. Most Violets have felt this way since childhood. As children, many Violets imagined becoming famous, or traveling the planet, possibly joining humanitarian causes such the Peace Corp. Many of these charismatic personalities take on roles as leaders and teachers, while other Violets prefer to reach people through music, film or other art form. Because this era is currently the "Violet Age," any Violets who are not accomplishing what they came here to do are experiencing an inner “push” — even an inner “earthquake.” Inner forces seem to be shaking them up and pushing them to move into action, to fulfill their life purpose. Violets know they are here to do something significant. However, they aren't always sure what that something is or how to accomplish it. Many Violets were taught as children that their dreams and aspirations were unrealistic, so they have lost touch with their original visions. It's important for Violets to reconnect with their life purpose and vision, and to take action. Otherwise they will always feel unfulfilled. They will always sense something is missing from their lives. Violets need to learn to slow down long enough to listen to their inner voice and to connect with their higher vision. Abstract Tans - 6 points The bright and curious Abstract Tans are unique characters in the mental family. They are the most childlike of all the Tans. Abstract Tans are open, friendly and outgoing. They have incredibly optimistic personalities. Though they frequently have high energy, it is also usually scattered. They tend to go in many directions at once. All the other Tan personalities process information in a very logical and sequential manner. They process every step in a linear fashion, from one to ten. While Abstract Tans see all the details and steps which need to be handled, they do not proceed in an orderly fashion. Abstract Tans have random thought processes. Rather than proceeding step by step, they attempt to work on all of the steps simultaneously. They do not sense that any one step is a priority — the first step is just another piece in the project, as is the last one. These sensitive individuals often appear to be scatterbrained to others. Abstract Tans are consistently misplacing or losing their possessions and they usually can’t remember where they put things last. Their lives seem to be in a constant state of confusion and disorder. Abstract Tans energy is so unfocused that people around them can become agitated trying to pin them down. Abstract Tans have energy similar to that of fireflies or hummingbirds. Their rapidly vibrating wings move a hundred times a second as they constantly change course in mid-air. REDS - 5 points Reds are physical and sexual. They love expressing themselves through their sensuality and their physical bodies. They live their lives in the here-and-now with zest, strength, courage and self-confidence. Reds love to live in physical reality, to manipulate their environment. Reality must be tangible to them. They must be able to see, touch, hear, taste and smell it. Reds are not abstract thinkers. A wall is a wall and there is no need for further discussion or speculation. Reality is literal, not ethereal or complicated. Reds require proof that something exists. It must have a concrete and tangible substance. Reds remind us that we have bodies, that we are matter — flesh and blood. These robust personalities enjoy the physical aspect of life. They don’t try to see life as an illusion or try to escape from it into a fantasy world. MAGENTAS - 5 points Magentas are rare and not commonly found on the planet these days. Magentas are the nonconformists in the aura spectrum. They are usually seen as bizarre loners. They see life from a different and unusual perspective. They don’t choose to abide by society’s mores, expectations or standards. They follow the beat of their own drummers. Magentas love to shock people, to shake them from their ordinary, humdrum existence. For example, Magentas will walk down the street donning wild clothes and purple Mohawk hair cuts. Other people don’t usually have the nerve or the desire to live the lifestyle of the Magentas. Because of their outrageous behavior, Magentas prefer to live in large, crowded cities where they don’t stand out as much and aren’t pressured to conform. These free spirits aren’t usually concerned about what others think, but in large cities they are more apt to have the freedom to express themselves. Sensitive Tans - 5 points The Sensitive Tan is the bridge between the mental colors and the emotional colors. Their auras are a combination of a light tan color with a light blue band next to it that encircles the body. Their personalities are a subtle combination of the mental Tan qualities and the emotional Blue qualities. Sensitive Tans incorporate the characteristics of mental, analytical logic with loving and intuitive compassion. These gentle personalities are quiet, sensitive and supportive. They prefer, like Logical Tans, to maintain a rational, intellectual foundation while they analytically process data. Sensitive Tans are more emotional and intuitive than Logical Tans, but they tend to keep their feelings to themselves. When a problem arises, Sensitive Tans will retreat inside to figure out the most practical solution. Indigos - 5 points Indigo is the most recent aura color to arrive on the planet. Indigos are ushering in a new energy, a new consciousness, and a new age of peace and harmony. Whereas Violets feel driven to help save the planet, to educate the masses, and to improve life here, Indigos are here to live as examples of a new higher awareness. At this writing, most of the Indigos are children, although there are a few Indigos who came as forerunners years ago. The words used to describe Indigos include honest, aware, highly intuitive, psychic, independent, fearless, strong-willed, and sensitive. Indigos are old souls who know who they are and where they've come from. Some consider Indigos to be bizarre. These assertive individuals are born with their spiritual memories intact. Many parents report that their Indigo children regale them with vivid details of past lives or recent encounters with spiritual beings. Parents also report that these children can read their minds and seem to have amazing psychic abilities. Parents are often at a loss as to how to raise these amazing little beings. An unusual characteristic of Indigos is that they frequently appear androgynous. It is often difficult to tell if Indigos are male or female, homosexual, heterosexual, bisexual, or asexual. It's as if Indigos have both the yin and yang, male and female qualities within them. Their sexuality is not their primary concern however; it is their spirituality.

Stolen from Courtney

Coke or Pepsi?: Vanilla Coke, Cherry Coke Love or Lust?: I deeply love 3 people, and lust after too many to count. TV or movies?: Depends on the content, usually movies. Cats or dogs?: Neither, I prefer human pets. Meal or dessert?: Dessert East coast or West coast?: West to live, but I'd like to visit the East. Tall or short?: Between 5'3" - 6'2" is good. Football or baseball?: Professional Wrestling Soccer or basketball?: Still Professional Wrestling Outside or indoors?: Depends on the weather. blonde or brunette?: I like all shades, but I'm a red-head (bottled). Apples or oranges?: Green-Yellow Apples & Blood Oranges Aol or yahoo?: Yahoo Stars or moons?: Stars Commandments have you broken?: 9 of 10. I haven't killed someone yet. People have you kissed?: Too many to count. More than 500, if you count simple kisses you give friends & relatives. Places have you lived in (for over 3 months)?: Roscommon, Lansing, Beaver Island MI, Fort Wayne IN, Champaign IL, Moore OK, Olathe KS, Sioux Falls SD, Phoenix, AZ, Berkeley, San Jose, Los Gatos, Campbell, Fairfield CA Countries have you been to?: None Languages can you speak fluently?: English. Times have you been in a car today?: Twice. Different kinds of meat have you eaten?: Beef, chicken, turkey, lamb, pork, venison, duck, ostrich, alligator, frog. Different kinds of liquor have you tasted?: If it's sold at a bar, I've probably drank it at least once. Jobs you have held?: Teacher at Daycare, Bookseller, Yogurt shop manager, waitress, hostess, cocktail waitress, accounts payable, sales, human resources Years of school have you attended?: 17 Shows have you been to this month?: If you mean movies, Lord of the Rings 3 What's a weird fear you have that no one else probably does?: That no one else has? Probably nothing. I have all the typical fears....dark streets alone, rejection, robbery, fatal accidents..... Is not Jon Stewart great?: Shrug. What song are you listening to?: At the moment, nothing. Last song I heard today was Blink 182 - Miss You How loud do you sneeze?: Pretty loud Do you like your handwriting?: I should be a doctor. Ugliest color you've ever seen?: Pea-Green. Does having matching socks matter to you?: Matching socks, undies, bra, makeup, jewelery....I'm accessory obsessive-compulsive. If you were in band, what would you call it?: Stone Deaf Punks Last time you were on a plane?: July 2003 round trip from California to Michigan. Have a digital camera?: Yes, but want a new one. How big is your TV?: 36" Have you ever heard of Mystery Science Theater 3000?: Yeah, but I don't much care for it. How many pillows do you sleep with?: 3 plus body pillow. Sex..good or bad?: Depends on the skill? :) Most annoying commercial ever?: "Can you hear me now?" Lamest pick-up line ever?: "I have a 12" tongue & I can breathe through my ears." Dumbest song ever?: Conway Twitty "There's a Tear in my Beer" Worst way to die?: Wracked with pain Who's the funniest comedian?: Bill Cosby, Robin Williams, George Carlin, Eddie Murphy Ever been in a car accident?: several Ever had braces?: 7 years with 4 teeth pulled, rubber bands & head gear. Do you know HTML?: No. Best Jones Soda flavor?: Bubblegum. Something you collect?: Fantasy Artwork Something you wish would die?: Puritan morality.