Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Sensible Goals
I'm not exactly sure what 'sensible career goals' is. I've pretty much let go of my 'pie in the sky' dream of my bookstore. I'm not sure how much more sensible I can get than what I already do.
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Leo (Jul 23 - Aug 22)
You may be thinking about learning something new. It's time to make it happen, whether your education is experiential or academic. Travel is still being encouraged, either in the physical realms or within your mind. Now, however, you'll benefit from applying your ideas toward more sensible career goals. Integrate your desires with common sense and you can't go wrong.
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My true self? Gifts & blessings? The only place I hide anymore is at work, and I do not believe that my current batch of co-workers really need to know my truth. As far as the rest goes, I suppose compared to some, I have had it good. There are times though, (damn my overactive mind) that all I can do is look at all the things that were less than gifted & blessed.
Daily Leo
Let your true self shine. Sometimes you feel you have to apologize because you've had so many gifts and blessings in your life, but keeping your light under a bushel doesn't help anyone, least of all yourself.
In most cases, I think forgiveness is a good thing. However, if I've written someone out of my life, it's for a good reason. I don't let go or give up easily, long after most people would have walked away. But when I'm done, I am done.
Daily Leo Extended
Everyone makes mistakes -- and you should keep that in mind when someone who once wronged you reappears on the scene. You can choose to hold on to a grudge, or you can choose to let go of the past and give this person one more chance. Put yourself in his or her place, and be willing to listen to what he or she has to say. You'd be wise to be a bit cautious with this person, but the stars say that forgiveness is a wise course now.
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Truly Hearing Goes Beyond Listening
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Leo (Jul 23 - Aug 22)
It may be difficult for you to express your feelings today because you're not sure if other people are really listening to you. Chances are, however, they are hearing every word you say; it's probably just your fear of not being heard that makes you think you're being neglected. Go ahead and say what's on your mind without prejudging the situation.
One of the things that the Carnegie book & 1 of my recent webinars on communication discussed was that listening was more involved than people give credit to. It's about genuinely paying attention to and hearing what a person is saying. Many people, during a conversation, are thinking about how they are going to reply before they even hear everything that is said. or worse, they're giving 1/2 an ear or less to the conversation and thinking about something that happened earlier, what's for dinner tonight, how to finish next weeks project...you get my point.
I know I'm guilty of this...and it is something I am going to work on. if someone is taking the time to talk to me, I should at least do them the courtesy of paying full attention to what they are saying.
www.astrology.com
So, I wonder what this is getting at.
Leo Daily Couples Love
Now is the best time for you to open up and discuss previously taboo subjects with your sweetie. You should both have the perspective you need to really deal with them in a mature fashion.
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Personality
What I think would be more telling is to have your friends/loved one take this test, answering how they see you.
How/who you think you are can be quite different from how/who everyone else thinks you are.
Plus, there's also the difference of - when you answer for yourself - are you answering for how you really are, or how you want to be?
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personality tests by similarminds.com Stability results were low which suggests you are very worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious. Orderliness results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun. Extraversion results were high which suggests you are overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense too often of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity. trait snapshot: self revealing, neat, craves attention, prefers organized to unpredictable, needs things to be extremely clean, worrying, perfectionist, emotionally sensitive, respects authority, social, vain, does not like to be alone, likes large parties, controlling, social chameleon, not a thrill seeker, enjoys leadership, takes precautions, puts the needs of others ahead of their own, assertive, rule conscious, makes friends easily, always busy, heart over mind, phobic, aggressive, clingy, compassionate, dominant, outgoing, suspicious, hard working, strong
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personality tests by similarminds.com Stability results were low which suggests you are very worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious. Orderliness results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun. Extraversion results were high which suggests you are overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense too often of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity. trait snapshot: self revealing, neat, craves attention, prefers organized to unpredictable, needs things to be extremely clean, worrying, perfectionist, emotionally sensitive, respects authority, social, vain, does not like to be alone, likes large parties, controlling, social chameleon, not a thrill seeker, enjoys leadership, takes precautions, puts the needs of others ahead of their own, assertive, rule conscious, makes friends easily, always busy, heart over mind, phobic, aggressive, clingy, compassionate, dominant, outgoing, suspicious, hard working, strong
Monday, March 12, 2007
Current Songs that Grab my Attention
Three Days Grace - Pain
Heard this for the 1st time today.
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
You're sick of feeling numb
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go off you will understand
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing
Rather feel pain
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you're wounded
You know (You know you know you know you know)
That I'm here to save you
You know (You know you know you know you know)
I'm always here for you
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you'll thank me later
Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain
Bullet for my Valentine - All These Things I Hate
Once more I'll say goodbye to you
Things happen, but we don't really know why
If it's supposed to be like this
Why do most of us ignore the chance to miss?
Oh yeah
Torn apart at the seams and my dreams turn to tears
I'm not feeling this situation
Run away try to find that safe place you can hide
The best place to be when you're feeling like
Me! (Me)
Yeah! (Yeah)
All these things I hate revolve around
Me (Me)
Yeah! (Yeah)
Just back off before I snap
Once more you tell those lies to me
Why can't you just be straight up with honesty?
When you say those things in my ear
Why do you always tell me what you wanna hear?
Oh yeah (yeah!)
Wear your heart on your sleeve, make things hard to believe
I'm not feeling this situation
Run away try to find that safe place you can hide
It's the best place to be when you're feeling like
Me! (Me!)
Yeah! (Yeah!)
All these things I hate revolve around
Me! (Me!)
Yeah! (Yeah!)
Just back off before I snap and you'll
See! (Me!)
Me! (Me!)
All these things I hate revolve around
Me! (Me!)
Yeah! (Yeah!)
Just back off before I snap
Torn apart at the seams and my dreams turn to tears
I'm not feeling this situation
Run away try to find that safe place you can hide
It's the best place to be when you're feeling like me
(it's the best place to be when you're!)
Me! (Me!)
Yeah! (Yeah!)
All these things I hate revolve around
Me! (Me!)
Yeah! (Yeah!)
Just back off before I snap and you'll
See! (Me!)
Me! (Me!)
All these things I hate revolve around
Me! (Me!)
Yeah! (Yeah!)
Just back off before I snap
My Chemical Romance - I Don't Love You Like I Did Yesterday
Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way
And after all this time that you still owe
You're still the good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can
When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"
Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay
And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whooa
When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"
Well come on, come on
When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"
I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday
I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday
I almost forgot this one. I really like the driving beat...not so sure about the lyrics yet.
Nine Inch Nails - Survivalism
should have listened to her
So hard to keep control
We kept on eating but
Our bloated belly's still not full
She gave us all she had but
We went and took some more
Can't seem to shut her legs
Our mother nature is a whore
I got my propaganda
I got revisionism
I got my violence
In hi-def ultra-realism
All a part of this great nation
I got my fist
I got my plan
I got survivalism
Hypnotic sound of sirens
Echoing through the street
The cocking of the rifles
The marching of the feet
You see your world on fire
Don't try to act surprised
We did just what you told us
Lost our faith along the way and found ourselves believing your lies
I got my propaganda
I got revisionism
I got my violence
In hi-def ultra-realism
All a part of this great nation
I got my fist
I got my plan
I got survivalism
All bruised and broken, bleeding
She asked to take my hand
I turned, just keep on walking
But you'd do the same thing in the circumstance
I'm sure you'll understand
I got my propaganda
I got revisionism
I got my violence
In hi-def ultra-realism
All a part of this great nation
I got my fist
I got my plan
I got survivalism
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Friday, March 9, 2007
Thursday, March 8, 2007
I'm bored, deal.
1. Where were you 1 hour ago?
Around 680 & Crow Canyon on the way home.
2. Who will your next kiss be with?
Rik
3. Do you kiss a lot of people?
Not really. I prefer to kiss those I genuinely like...as opposed to casual acquaintances. 1 sign that a friend has upset me is that I'll stop kissing them in greeting/goodbye.
4. Are you wearing socks right now?
Do pantyhose count?
5. When was the last time you went out of state?
January 19-February 2 Florida & Caribbean
6. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
No.
7. What was the last thing you had to drink?
Water.
8. What are you wearing right now?
Navy skirt & top w/ purple roses
9. What was your last purchase?
Groceries I think.
10. Last food you ate?
Peanut Lovers Chex Mix
11. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
My VP of Lending
12. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
Nope, but I might this weekend.
13. Do you have a pet?
1 dog, 1 cat.
14. What's the last sporting event you watched?
Does pro-wrestling or MMA count?
15. Are you a pirate?
I can dress like one.
16. If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?
Someplace warm, sunny & peaceful.
17. What is the last thing you purchased online?
A pair of earrings from EBAY.
18. One thing you hate about yourself?
Weight, closely followed by lack of self-esteem
19. What's your favorite soup?
Cream of Chicken
20. Do you miss anyone?
Yes
21. Last play you saw?
Shopping the Musical
22. What are your plans for the day?
The day? I worked. This evening, dinner & sleep.
24. Ever go to camp?
A few times, but I'm not a 'roughing it' type.
25. Were you an honor roll student in school?
Yes.
26. What do you know about the future?
That it's probably not going to be what I expect.
27. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
No, Rik's allergic.
28. How is one to classify?
Me? I suppose eclectic would be a good start.
29. Do you have a tan?
Barely.
30. How old do you want to be when you have kids?
I don't want to have kids.
31. Last person who made you cry?
W
2. Do you have any tattoos or piercings?
3 in each ear, 5 tattoos
32. Have you ever drank your soda from a straw?
Yes.
33. How do you like your soda?
Cold
34. Do you like hot sauce?
Depends on how hot. I usually like it, my ulcer doesn't.
35. Next time you'll take a shower?
too tired tonight, tomorrow.
37. What is your mood?
See above.
38. Are you someone's best friend?
I think so.
39. What did you want for Valentine's Day?
Love
40. What are you doing right now?
Contemplating what to do about dinner.
Sassy?
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Wednesday, March 7, 2007
Tuesday, March 6, 2007
Crunch Cruch, What's up Doc?
You scored as Carrot Ironfounderson. You are Captain Carrot Ironfounderson of the City Watch in the greatest city on the Disc Ankh-Morprok! A truly good natured, honest guy, who knows everyone, and is liked by all. Technically a dwarf, but only by adoption. You'd rather not be reminded that you are the true heir to the throne, but that does explain why people naturally follow your orders.
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Scope this
I had a meeting with my boss yesterday. All management types are supposed to have quarterly meeting with their staff (individually) to discuss the process of their annual goals. 1 of the things my boss mentioned was that she is noticing a positive difference in my interactions with others. Unfortunately, my husband isn't seeing much. I'm not sure if that's because he just isn't paying attention, or if I'm not trying hard enough at home to curb things (afterall, I can't get fired from my wife position).
From www.tarot.com
Daily Overview
The pace of life begins to settle down again now that we are past the erratic Sun-Uranus conjunction. The easygoing Libra Moon is a reminder that being pleasant to others can also make us feel better. Libra's key planet Venus is already picking up on the good vibrations of its trine to Jupiter and Saturn later in the week. Additionally today is the last day of Mercury's retrograde phase, so we should clean up any loose ends before moving forward.
Inner diplomat??
Daily Leo
Today you have an opportunity to be a hero by making contact with your inner diplomat. You have the ability now to express opposing points of view without your ego getting in the way. Everyone will be happy once they come closer to a common ground, and your negotiation skills can make all the difference.
From www.astrology.com
What about people who've been in your life for a while (CEO? friends?)
Leo Extended
The confusing behavior of someone you're just getting to know is becoming frustrating -- today it might be time to find out, once and for all, what's really going on. Taking an unexpected action could throw this person for a loop, but it's nothing compared to the uncertainty she or he has been putting you through. In order to feel confident about what you're doing, you have to know more about what's going on; it's as simple as that.
As someone else can attest to, I probably didn't talk enough recently. Long & short of it, is that it's just hard for me to deal with problems...even when they whirl around my head so much as to literally make me sick. I keep thinking, what if the talking just makes things worse?
Leo Couple's Love
Now is a great time for you to sit down with Sweetie and talk about the issues that are most important to you. It doesn't matter if they have nothing to do with your relationship -- just be real with each other.
Monday, March 5, 2007
Halloween
Does anyone who went to my Halloween party mind if Rik posts pictures from the party to his Halloween site, http://www.perfessorevil.com/?
Sunday, March 4, 2007
March Lemming
March is question month.
You can ask any question.
It can be as personal or non-personal as you want and I am screening the questions.
Friday, March 2, 2007
I'm not sure I get it
From www.tarot.com
Playful, but cautious? I do get the last line, and I'm pretty sure I've been guilty of that for a while now...and probably will be more so before the week wraps up.
Daily Overview
We are more playful today as the Leo Moon is past its restrictive conjunction with Saturn. We become more cautious as the Moon enters analytical Virgo at 4:32 pm EST and continues to wax toward tomorrow's Full Moon Eclipse. Additionally, messenger Mercury, nearing the end of its retrograde phase, forms a tense semisquare with sweet Venus. No matter what we say, it seems our words get in the way of love instead of moving us closer toward it.
Oneupmanship? No. Clarity & understanding, always.
Daily Leo
Your problem could stem from the fact that you are so perceptive that you can see what's really happening. Unfortunately, others may not be ready for your brand of realism. Even if they know you're right, they may interpret your intentions incorrectly, perhaps thinking that you are only interested in a game of one-upmanship. It's best to share the role of bringing truth out of the closet.
From www.astrology.com
What about asking your inner child?
Leo Overview
Tackle this issue from a different perspective. In fact, it wouldn't hurt to ask a kid what they think of the situation. While the answer may not have practical applications, it'll make you laugh -- and see the light.
I'm not sure any 1 person is The One for me, after all, I am involved with 3 people. However, it's always good to make sure those people know that they matter.
Leo Couple's Love
Find a new way to tell Sweetie they're the one -- your creative powers are strong now, and you should easily be able to get the message across. Your partner will adore you all the more, if that's possible.
More on the inner child.
Aries Couple's Love
It's a good time for you, and your childlike energy will make it easy for you to make your partner laugh. No matter what you're facing together, it will seem a lot simpler by the end of the day.
Thursday, March 1, 2007
Something I need to understand better
If you love something, set it free.
If it comes back to you, it's yours.
If it doesn't, it never was.
We do not possess anything in this world, least of all other people.
We only imagine that we do.
Our friends, our lovers, our spouses, even our children are not ours; they belong only to themselves.
Possessive and controlling friendships and relationships can be as harmful as neglect.
Later, when I have a hour or 2 to dedicate to a serious post...I've got a few things to say about Dale Carnegie's "How to Win Friends & Influence People."
I wish I had read this a long time ago...there are a lot of simple truths in there...truths that many probably already know, and just push aside in their minds because their main focus is 'me, me, me.'
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- 38 years old, married, bi, poly, pagan, sadistic top. Known to be kind (or bitchy), shy (or a social butterfly), someone to lean on (when I'm not over-loaded with my own crap). Physically....known for my 2 most prominent....tattoos, yeah that's it. I have a large variety of interests....books (sci-fi/fantasy, historical romances, historical fiction, horror, bisexuality, sex ed in general,), music (80's heavy metal, 90's industrial, modern rock of any era, classical, celtic, drumming). Generally classified as a pagan, but I'm definately to the grey side of white, and the eclectic side of anything. I enjoy spending time with friends & loved ones, I go to BDSM parties nearly every weekend. And last but certainly not least...I utterly adore the man who I've spent the last 15 years of my life with.