BYY Goal 6

6. Keep trying to speak my mind, even if it's going to hurt. I think I'm getting more than a bit better at this. In the last couple of weeks, I've had some (for me) tough conversations with a few people who are important to me. In 1 case, I can already see where my words have made a difference. I told the person about some things they were doing that really bothered me, and they are making an effort to not do those things. With another person...I'm not sure whether my words had an impact. It'll definitely be a case where only time will tell. It's still very hard for me to speak up. I'm so worried about hurting someone, starting a fight, or causing long-term animosity. I know it's for the best in the long run (for me if nothing else), so I just screw up my courage and say what I need to say. Sometimes I feel like this is just coming out of the blue & I'm doing nothing but point out a bunch of negative things about someone. It's not though, not for me. If I'm finally talking about something, I'm talking about it because it's something that has been bothering me (hurting me, angering me) for a long time...months, sometimes even years. I still have other topics I need to address...but I'm saving it for another time. Right now, it's all about baby steps for me. I'm addressing tough stuff (from my point of view). When I'm ready to move on to bigger problems/complications...when I feel I can deal with the potential fall-out of the conversations...then I'll broach the subjects. So, that's Goal 6 is a not so small nutshell.

So Going to Hell

Re-Evaluation Redux

Something happened at work today that made me take another hard look at things. There's been a lot of things going on there, that while they do not directly affect me...do make me unhappy. Things I don't support and/or don't agree with. My issue today brought that back to the front of my mind. I thought I could just ignore everything, since it didn't directly deal with my little world there. I can't. I'm just not able to pretend that everything is OK, and that I completely support the company & everyone/everything in it. I'm updating my resume tonight & getting help from Rik to write an acceptable cover letter. Those of you that I've spoken to over the last few months...who've told me that their companies might be looking for a HR person who specializes in Payroll & Benefits (or if there's an entry level HRIS position)...if you are still interested, can you please email me & let me know what the best way to submit my resume to your company is. valiaderekin@yahoo.com Thanking you in advance!

Snerk Jr.

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Sadomasochism in action

I went skating for the first time in 12 years. Rik came with me & we met a friend there. I was skating with brand new (and fairly low quality) skates, but they were quite comfortable. Alas...the toe stops were useless. I angled my foot to stop & the stop just slipped right out from under me. I fell a total of 3 times (all 3 whilst trying to stop). My right knee, right elbow, ass & the back of my head are going to have lovely bruises tomorrow. The knee is already a bit puffy & turning purple. So...those of you who have a sadistic bent...enjoy my pain vicariously. :)

LJ Question

My journal & friend's page have been having all the text/pictures go right-justified for the last few days now. Anyone else have this problem? Anyone know how to fix it?

For Courtney

I'd bat my eyes at you...but they don't blink so well.

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But who will give?

Leo Weekly Romance Horoscope from www.tarot.com Forget the take-charge attitude this weekend, Leo. It's time to be a pussycat. The Moon is drifting through your 12th House of Privacy, which brings out your vulnerable side. The good news is that this can make you even more attractive. Allow yourself to receive instead of putting on a show of strength.

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Harsh

I heard this on the radio this afternoon. Never heard of the group before, but the lyrics sure got my attention. Theory of a Deadman - So Happy Put the bottle down, finally got somethin' to say Take another look around and find someone else to play (Needless to say) That you've got problems (There's no fuckin' way) that I'm gonna solve them (It's never the same) Every time you slip, then you fall down, down, down Ever wonder what i been thinkin' about? I been thinkin' bout throwin' you out I'm so happy about you (I'm fed up, so get up and get out) I'm so happy now we're through (I'm fed up, so get up and get out) I was so afraid, now you're gone away Sent you packing, look who's laughin' now I'm so happy that I feel this way I'm so happy that I threw you away Put your problems down and pick up what's left of the pain Take a good look at yourself and see who's really to blame (Needless to say) You got issues (There's no fuckin' way) That I'm gonna fix you (It's never the same) Ever since you went fallin' down, down, down Ever wonder what i been thinkin' about? I been thinkin' bout throwin' you out I'm so happy about you (I'm fed up, so get up and get out) I'm so happy now we're through (I'm fed up, so get up and get out) I was so afraid, now you're gone away Sent you packing, look who's laughin' now I'm so happy that I feel this way I'm so happy that I threw you away I'm so happy about you (I'm fed up, so get up and get out) I'm so happy now we're through (I'm fed up, so get up and get out) I was so afraid, now you're gone away Sent you packing, look who's laughin' now I'm so happy that I feel this way I'm so happy that I threw you away

Well what do you know

Vivi texted me today, telling me that I had been quoted in a book. http://www.amazon.com/Bride-Black-Leather-Looked-Fabulous/dp/1890159174 Pg. 96 Surprised the hell out of me. I know I've talked to Drew a time or 2 in the past...but I can't even think of how I met him or when we spoke about the quote that ended up in his book. Huh....so am I Someone now, that I've been quoted & in print?

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VICKI

Today (3/3) is her birthday. No, I won't tell you how old she is, a lady (cough) doesn't speak of those things. We'll be using her Fusion party (Saturday 3/8) to celebrate. I hope you all can join us. :) There might be spankings....if I'm feeling generous, or if you beg well. >:)