Bursting Bubbles

Our first 'date' several weeks ago was a lovely one. The play at Edges was a combination of getting to know each other more mentally & physically. The evening later at the hotel was lovely too, but I'm not going to share the details on that. :) So...she asked if she could join me last night (a few days ago). I warned her that I was really interested in socializing (because there's people at SCCLA parties that I see so infrequently), and that I couldn't guarantee play, and/or sexual interaction between us. She said she understood. She also had read my last rant & was concerned if I was happy playing with her because she's not a heavy masochist. No, she's not...but she is a fun person to play with. Her reactions are delicious, and I told her that. Dinner was amusing...we both got lost getting to the place (and she was coming from Turlock). My dinner was supposed to be chicken, but it was fish....I sent it back, and they sent it back to me insisting it was chicken. She & I both ate it...it was fish, but tasty all the same. Towards the end of dinner she asked if I was going to be up for play. I was honest & said I didn't know. I had a stomachache earlier & was still feeling that a little. So, we got to Edges & I did what I said I was going to do, socialized. I made sure to introduce her to people. We watched a really fantastic performance/scene. I was close to her most of the night, always touching when we were together. Some sexual teasing, lots of stroking. I gave her a back massage near the end of the evening. Anyways...I think she was very disappointed with me. I warned her. She made the drive from Turlock, fully aware that I might not want to play. I think she had hopes that I would anyways. I wanted to, a little...but not enough to really do it...and I'm not going to go through the motions anymore. I hope she still wants to come around. But, I suppose I'll understand if she decides that I'm not worth the drive again.