Valia's Meandering: August 2003

Sunday, August 31, 2003

I just had to put this in

-Bad- You're the exact opposite of what any guy
wants or needs, unless he happens to need a
quick lay. You're cruel. You toy with people.
You're probably a bitch, and i don't think i'd
like you if i met you. Oh go screw a random
male already.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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Tell Me Something I Don't Know

Lipstick Lesbian: You like to wear make-up and take your time getting
dressed up. You're very femme and so are most
of your friends. You probably like to shop a
lot and paint your nails with your girlfriends
while watching chick flicks.

What Kind Of Lesbian Stereotype Are You???
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Wednesday, August 27, 2003

Following Mzmtnlion

Tuesday, August 26, 2003

This Works Too.

(THUMP) Me Barbarian!

Monday, August 25, 2003

New Sig Line For Me

I found this on MSN of all places. "The end is the beginning of all things, Suppressed and hidden, Awaiting to be released through the rhythm Of pain and pleasure." Jiddu Krishnamurti

Monday, August 18, 2003

Who Me?

Protector

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Sunday, August 17, 2003

One Word

A wartenberg can be erotic & sensual.....this wasn't one of those times. Poke, ow that really hurts, damn, that just sucks, pokepokepoke Prod, rollrollroll, ow ow ow, mother fucker.... Just say one word and this all stops...one simple word...pokepokepoke, 1 square inch on your thigh, that's getting my total attention, pokepokerollrollprodprod ow ow ow STOP STOP PLEASE That's not the word. Pokepokepoke....you're bleeding...one word, that's all it takes, one simple little word and I'll stop. rollrollprodprod...you're bleeding even more...pokepoke I can keep this up for a long time...ow ow ow fucking .... Tears, pain, shriek, blood, anger, please stop, no....that's not the word. Everyone here knows the word, it's such a simple word, just say it and this will end...pokepokepoke more blood, 1 square inch perforated, bleeding, throbbing in pain.... quietly, red

Thursday, August 14, 2003

10 Years of Collecting....GONE

I'm hoping any of you can help me out. My 40 GB hard drive died on me today. This hard drive contained over 15 thousand images.....most of them from either Pro-Wrestling sites or adult sites from the Internet....a collection I've spent 10 years amassing. Recovery is....impractical. I did a lot of mass downloads from the Internet, thousands at a time...and then I'd go through and delete the unwanted stuff....well amongst the drek is *sure* to be illegal kiddie porn (Russian/European) that randomly ends up in the groups I get pictures from. Since I'd rather *not* get arrested for having illegal images (that I didn't want in the 1st place).... data recovery by a professional isn't an option. That's not really the worst of it.... The bad part is that I've lost all my personal photos. Any photos I've had of myself, of my friends, of Folsom, Gay Pride, Baycon, private parties......they are *gone*. I'm hoping that over the years, I've sent you all copies of these personal pictures.....and if you'd be willing to send me copies of them.....or if it's more than say...15 pics, maybe you'd consider putting them on a disk for me?? If you can do either, that would be great!! You'd have my eternal appreciation. :) If you send me pictures, please send them to heathrc@pacbell.net I can get more images via email to that address. Yahoo only lets you get 3 at a time.

Tuesday, August 12, 2003

Your Decision, My Decision

My actions go deeper than you may see. If I do not want you to interact with someone, or I do not want someone to do something to you....believe me, I will make that quite clear. Sometimes though, I want to see what you will do, if left to your own devices. Do you want strangers testing out their new toys on you? Do you like it when people you know, but I don't...come up and swat you, or ask if they can play with you? Do you wonder, what you should do....what would please me.....or do you just do as you want with no thought at all? Even Vicki still asks for permission...and I generally treat her the same as I treat you. If I have no real preference, I tell her to do whatever she is comfortable with. If I don't like the person, or get a bad vibe from them, I will say 'no' to whatever the request is. Free will is an interesting thing. Sometimes you have none at all, and others you may have more than you really want. ***Several times, people wanted to interact with me...to try a flogger out, or to ask if I could do something (in the case of Melissa). Before they acted, they checked with You. I wonder how that feels for You. For me, being connected to You is wonderful! I like that they know I am not free (entirely) to do as I wish. I know You might say that I am...Your response to them is almost always..."it is up to her". Still, there is a synergy that connects us in these transactions that makes me feel good.***

Monday, August 11, 2003

Like this is a Surprise

Your soul came from the Bowels of HELL! You're a
demon preying on the mortals of Earth. BACK TO
HELL WITH YOU!

Where Did Your Soul Originate?
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(snerk)

You must like to spank or be spanked, because your
romance is remeniscent of Secretary. A truly
modern love story, it shows that you don't need
to be conventional to be normal. You're
probably the type that owns a whole lot more
leather than what's upholstering your car or
sofa. Yeah, you know what I mean.

What Romance Movie Best Represents Your Love Life?
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Sunday, August 10, 2003

Interesting

You are Professor X! You are a very effective teacher, and you are very
committed to those who learn from you. You put
your all into everything you do, to some extent
because you fear failure more than anything
else. You are always seeking self-improvement,
even in areas where there is nothing you can do
to improve.

Which X-Men character are you most like?
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Saturday, August 9, 2003

Miss Abernathy's Concise Slave Training Manual

Part I: The Training Program In which we examine the specifics of training an erotic slave Ok, apparently the 1st run of this was too long. At the request of RJ... ATTITUDE While the actual training of a slave encompasses the total person, the sine qua non of a service-oriented submissive is the correct attitude. Different roles may dictate different training techniques, but all slaves-and dominants too for that matter-should cultivate an attitude of mindfulness. For our purposes, mindfulness may be defined as an over-arching awareness of one's person, surroundings, and circumstances. It is a gentle attention, focused but not forced. Many spiritual traditions recommend sitting, chanting, or other forms of meditation to awaken a mindful state. For the slave, it is dharma yoga, the pursuit of one's true vocation, that is the path to mindfulness. A slave's mindfulness should encompass her physical body, her mental awareness, her emotional state and, insofar as it is possible, the physical, mental, and emotional state of the dominant and any other person in the environment. This is not to say that a slave must be clairvoyant or an empath; she must first cultivate self-awareness, and under tutelage, awareness of the dominant's needs and wishes. Experienced slaves do often develop a sort of sixth sense, the ability to anticipate the dominant's needs before she verbalizes them. THE SLAVE JOURNAL Slaves-in-training should be encouraged to keep a written record of their thoughts, fantasies, and experiences. The journal is usually the property of the submissive but is meant to be read by the dominant. Thus, the dominant may requite that the slave address the journal directly to her and that special written forms be followed. For example, it is common for slaves to use the lower case when referring to themselves and to capitalize all references to the dominant: "Mistress, i am writing this journals as You requested. i hope it meets with Your approval." Or, they may be required to omit the first person pronoun all together: "this slave is writing a journal as You requested." Some dominants find the use of the possessive in reference to themselves highly offensive, as the Mistress does not belong to the slave. The feel it is more appropriate for the slave to speak of "the Mistress" than of "my Mistress." Holding on to this pattern can result in some interesting linguistic difficulties, but greatly encourages mindfulness. It is to me used at the dominant's discretion. Entries should me made in the journal on a regular basis (anywhere from once a day to once a week has proved useful). The dominant may wish to respond, verbally or in written form, to the entries. PUNISHMENT It is inevitable that at some point in her training, even the most accomplished slave will make a mistake. The dominant should set clear guidelines for correction of errors. If the point of the punishments is correction, then the rule is, "Let the punishment fit the crime." In general, errors that indicate lack of consideration of the dominant or behavior that runs counter to the agreed-upon code of ethics for the slave should be punished more severely than simple physical mistakes. Errors of the former sort include the following: neglecting proper forms of address, disobeying direct commands, gossiping, arrogance, tardiness, failure to complete a training assignment, disrespect in any form. Punishments should also suit the slave. A slave who is very attached to a token may have that token taken away for a period of time. A slave who consistently forgets honorifics may be put under a discipline of total silence; this technique is also useful for gossips. Arrogant slave may be denied use of furniture or eating utensils. A slave who is unduly proud of her appearance may be dressed in unfashionable or ill-fitting clothes or denied access to the bath. In extreme cases, the dominant may choose to send the slave away for a period of time. In more simple cases, repetition is the key. If a slave cannot remember how to fold the dominant's socks, it may be time for her to empty the entire sock drawer and refold every pair correctly. If a slave forgets to use the lover-case "i" in written assignments, she may be required to write "i must be humble,' one hundred times. Slaves who lose keys, or bus passes may be made to wear them around their necks on a string, like schoolchildren do. Never underestimate the power of humiliation. Physical discipline may prove useful for slaves who are physically and psychically able to withstand it. Often the mere threat of a beating is enough to whip the slave into shape. A petulant, whining slave should be taken over the dominant's knee and spanked like the child she is. A slave who is negligent in the use of her honorifics can be required to count each stroke, thanking the dominant in the appropriate respectful form. Lazy slaves who are caught sitting around may be paddled so that when the next sit down, their bruises will remind them of their obligations. Dominants sometimes find themselves at a loss about how to punish masochistic slaves, for whom physical beatings are the purest pleasure. One method is to deny the slave a beating or administer one with a tool that the slave does not enjoy. Another tactic is to use some other form of punishment, such as memorizing a humiliatingly silly poem, or performing some seemingly endless task, like scrubbing the bathroom grout with bleach and a toothbrush. The slave might also be asked to perform a particularly challenging task, as a chance to turn the punishment into an occasion for reward.

Tuesday, August 5, 2003

Close Enough

You're A Bishoujo (Attractive Young Woman)! You are loved by all, and you know it. You love
the attention you get, because or your sense of
style, and perfect face. Congrats.

What Type Of Anime Character Are You?
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