Anyone Know Who I Fancy?

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Percentage of your friends you've kissed	91.67%
Percentage of your friends you've sexed	8.33%
Percentage of your friends you fancy	58.33%
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Got Ink?

Rik's parents gave me $200 for a holiday present. So I decided to spent part of it on Tattoo #5. The link below will take you to the design I spent a few hours creating in Photoshop. I got it done today, started at about 5, done about 6. Left shoulder/bicep, about as large as the celtic 4-leaf clover on my right arm. http://profiles.yahoo.com/mstrs_valia It was done at Tatt Magiks Tattoo in Fairfield, by Adriel Leddy. http://www.geocities.com/tatt_magiks_tattoos/ if anyone wants to see other examples of his work.

I may *be* Drama, but I Hate having it in my Life

You are Drama. You are extroverted and like to show off, but can
be very subtle and intelligent when you want.
As an expert at story-telling, you love
attention and have developed the skill of
keeping it. You get along well with Literature and Film.

What form of art are you?
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Core Dump

Things have been swirling around in my head for days now. I was advised just to let it be, to not air my dirty laundry...so I'm compromising. Only select people are able to read this. I just need to get it all out, before it festers & creates more trouble than there already has been. She tells me that I must choose between her friendship or my relationship with my lover of 8 months. What friendship? You mean this thing we've had for the last 2 years? This thing where if you don't get your way, you'll try to bulldoze & intimidate me? This thing where you bitch, whine & moan about how horrible your work life is, your home life, your love life.....but heaven forbid if I should want a shoulder to lean on too. Then you rant at me and tell me that you're sick of listening to all my bitching. MY bitching? MY Bitching? Fuck that. I've been listening to you for months now. All I hear is how everything that is wrong...it's not your fault. Never your fault. You're innocent, pristine. How could the world not love you? I heard a saying a long time ago. I don't remember the correct words, but the general gist of it was that if you are the common denominator in all your failures....then maybe it is you that is the problem, not the rest of the world. Own your own shit. Take responsibility for your actions, your mistakes. Apologize once in a while, you expect it from everyone else....but I've never heard you utter the words "I'm sorry." No...what you do is condemn everyone. You spew venom about anyone you think has done you wrong. You claim to work Black Magic on them, hoping that their world will turn into something as miserable as yours. You do your best to ruin their reputation....when it's your own reputation that's actually suffering. You are not the darling of the community. You are not as well liked and respected by other people as you think you are. You're not E.F. Hutton. When you talk, people just let it go in 1 ear and out the other. For the last 8 months, you've been whispering in my ear, telling me all the bad things about my girl. She's needy, she's clingy, she whines, she's demanding, she lies, she'll be perfect for me, and then suddenly change. She'll try to get between me & my husband, and between me & my slave. Hell, I admit that my lover & I haven't had the easiest relationship, but you know...we're working on it. We love each other and we're doing what we can to make things better between us, for us. Couldn't you have just once been happy for me? Or is it that you are just so damned miserable with your own existence, that you can't handle other people being happy & so you have to try to ruin their happiness? My lover was never rude to you. She was polite, period. What the fuck did you expect? Because she was your submissive over a year ago...do you think that entitles you to her submission forever? Was she supposed to fall to her knees and kiss your boots when you walked into the room? Being submissive does not mean that she is submissive to everyone, or anyone for that matter. She submits to who she wants. It's her choice, it's always been her choice. I knew you had issues with her. I did what I could to smooth those over. I insisted that she talk to you and try to work things out. She seemed to think things were on an even keel with you....and up until recently, you acted like they were too. Then, because she doesn't fawn all over you and kiss your ass...she's someone you now have to threaten me about? It's her or me you say. I told you before, if I leave her, it will be because I don't like her, not because you don't. Ya know, this shouldn't even be between you & I, it should be between you & her. She is the one you claim to have a problem with. Yet somehow, I am the one who's getting dragged in. You say that her attitude reflects on me, and that it shows people what a lousy Master I am? Yes, I'm so lousy that my primary slave has had to suffer with me through 7 hellish years, chained to my side & unable to get out of this horrible mess she is in. She tells me that I must choose between her friendship or my relationship with my lover of 8 months. People who are truly close to me know that I do not like ultimatums. Only 1 person in my life has the right to tell me who I can or can not be close to, and that is my husband. You tell me to choose. Well honey, I believe you've already made my choice for me. I sincerely wish you a successful & happy life, but it is high time that my feet take me down a different road & away from you.

To the Pros

I've got 2 questions & I thought I'd put it 'out there' before trying to actually search for the answers. :) #1 - Where are the instructions on how to make locked posts? #2 - Is there a way to see *who* is reading your journal?

My Quiz Answers

So, who got which answers wrong? Question: What is my real name? Correct answer: Heather (10 points) Question: How long have I been married? Correct answer: almost 10 years (10 points) Question: What is my degree in? Correct answer: Psychology (10 points) Question: What is my current career? Correct answer: Human Resources (10 points) Question: What is my future career? Correct answer: Owning a bookstore (10 points) Question: Where did I grow up? Correct answer: All over the US (10 points) Question: When is my birthday? Correct answer: July 27 (10 points) Question: What is my natural hair color? Correct answer: brown (10 points) Question: How many tattoos do I have? Correct answer: 4 (10 points) Question: Where are the tattoos? Correct answer: Chest, back, Arm (10 points)

Limp Bizkit

These are a few of my current faves....don't read anything into my choice, I'm just blathering to be blathering. Although, I do have to admit that they can be insightful sometimes. My Way Special, you think your special. You do, I can see it in your eyes. I can see it when you laugh at me. Look down on me and, you walk around on me. Just one more fight about your leadership. And I will straight up leave your shit. Cause i`ve had enough of this. And now i'm pissed (yeah) This time i'm a let it all come out. This time i'm a stand up and shout. I'm a do things my way, it's my way, My way or the highway. This time i'm a let it all come out. This time i'm a stand up and shout. I'm a do things my way, it's my way, My way or the highway. Just one more fight about a lotta things. And I will give up everything. To be on my own again, Free again. This time i'm a let it all come out. This time i'm a stand up and shout. I'm a do things my way, it's my way, My way or the highway. This time i'm a let it all come out. This time i'm a stand up and shout. I'm a do things my way, it's my way, My way or the highway. Someday you'll see things my way. Cause you never know, no ya never know. When your gonna go. Someday you'll see things my way. Cause you never know, no ya never know. When your gonna go. Just one more fight and i'll be history. Yes I will straight up leave your shit. And you'll be the one who's left. Missing me (yeah). This time i'm a let it all come out. This time i'm a stand up and shout. I'm a do things my way, it's my way, My way or the highway. This time i'm a let it all come out. This time i'm a stand up and shout. I'm a do things my way, it's my way, My way or the highway. Someday you'll see things my way. Cause you never know, when ya never know. When your gonna go. Someday you'll see things my way. Cause you never know, when ya never know. Rearranged Lately I've been skeptical. Silent when I would used to speak. Distance from all around me. Who witness me fail and become weak. Life is overwhelming. Heavy is the head that wears the crown. I'd love to be the one to disappoint you when I don't fall down. But you don't understand when I'm attempting to explain. Because you know it all and I guess things will never change. But you might need my hand when falling in your hole. Your disposition I'll remember when I'm letting go. You and me we're through. And rearranged. It seems that you're not satisfied. There's too much on your mind. So you leave and I can't believe all the bullshit that I find. Life is overwhelming. Heavy is the head that wears the crown. I'd love to be the one to disappoint you when I don't fall down. But you don't understand when I'm attempting to explain. Because you know it all and I guess things will never change. But you might need my hand when falling in your hole. Your disposition I'll remember when I'm letting go. You and me we're through. And rearranged. You're no good. For me. Thank God its over. You make believe. That nothing is wrong until you're cryin'. You make believe. That life is so long until you're dyin'. You make believe. That nothing is wrong until you're cryin'. Cryin' on me. You make believe. That life is so long until you're dyin'. Dyin' on me! You think everybody's the same. You think that everybody's the same. I don't think that anybody's like you (You ruin everything and you kept fuckin' with me until its over and I won't) You think that everybody's the same. I don't think that anybody's like you. Be the same. Just think about it. You'll get it. Almost Over Learned how to rap as a little boy. Took alot of crap as a little boy. Always had to fight back as a little boy. Always under attack as a little boy. Never got good grades as a little boy. I was locked in a cage as a little boy. Still i never was afraid as a little boy. I was feedin' my rage as a little boy. It's time to blow they minds. Learned how to lose as an older man. Sang alot of blues as an older man. But i saw it all through as an older man. Put together my crew as an older man. Felt alot of pain as an older man. I established my name as an older man. People piss on my game as an older man. Ain't nothin' gonna change as an older man. It's time to blow they minds now, baby. It's time to blow they minds now, baby. Come on and cry now, baby. Ya'll know it's my time now, baby. Come on! Who that is? what it say? Who that is? what it say? Who that is? what it say? What it look like? What it look like, baby? Who that is? what it say? Who that is? what it say? Who that is? what it say? What it look like? What it look like, baby? Got treated like a clown as a little boy. Kept my feet on the ground as a little boy. When you're living in a dream as a little boy. Ain't nothing like it seems as a little boy. I was hatin' on the world as a little boy I was lovin' all the girls as a little boy. I was into punk rock as a little boy. I was breakin' non-stop as a little boy. It's time to blow they minds. Got treated like a chump as an older man. Mixin' rock with the funk as an older man. Learned what a girl was as an older man. Now i know how to love as an older man. But i'm still a big kid as an older man. And i'de much rather give as an older man. Still i'm singin' in the rain as an older man. Ain't nothin' gonna change as an older man. It's time to blow they minds now, baby. It's time to blow they minds now, baby. Come on and cry now, baby. Ya'll know it's my time now, baby. Come on! Who that is? what it say? Who that is? what it say? Who that is? what it say? What it look like? What it look like, baby? Who that is? what it say? Who that is? what it say? Who that is? what it say? What it look like? What it look like, baby? My life is one big dream. I'm lost in what it means. Don't wake me up 'cause it's almost over. These voices in my mind. Keep telling me it's time. To wake me up 'cause it's almost over. It's time to blow they minds now, baby. It's time to blow they minds now, baby. Come on and cry now, baby. Ya'll know it's my time now, baby. It's time to blow they minds now, baby. It's time to blow they minds now, baby. Come on and cry now, baby. Ya'll know it's my time now, baby. Come on! Who that is? what it say? Who that is? what it say? Who that is? what it say? What it look like? What it look like, baby? My life is one big dream. I'm lost in what it means. Don't wake me up 'cause it's almost over. These voices in my mind. Keep telling me it's time. To wake me up 'cause it's almost over. Who that is? what it say? Who that is? what it say? Who that is? what it say? What it look like? What it look like, baby? The One I'm dead from all the loneliness. And this is how I feel. Understanding everything. Has never been my deal. Maybe you have crossed my path. To live inside of me. Or maybe you're the reason. Why i'm losing all my decency. But I believe that you and me. We could be so happy and free. Inside a world of misery. And I believe that you and me we could be so... Inside of you inside of me cuz. This could be the one. This could be the one. This could be the one. This could be the one. I've been lookin' lookin, lookin'. I've been lookin' for my Mrs. Right. But she don't exist. Chemistry is everything. And we're anything but this. Maybe I have crossed your path. To sweep you off your feet. Or maybe i'm the reason. Why you cry at night before you sleep. But I believe that you and me. Could be so happy and free. Inside a world of misery. And I believe that you and me we could be so... Inside of you inside of me cuz. This could be the one. This could be the one. This could be the one. This could be the one. What do you think? We could give it a try. 'Cause you never know. Maybe we could be soul mates. But maybe not or maybe so. If you never try then you'll never know. The grass could be greener (could be). And it'll always be greener on the other side. But you just never know. This could be the one. I do believe that you and me. We could be so happy and free. Inside a world of misery. And I believe that you and me, we could be so... Inside of you inside of me `cause. This could be the one. This could be the one. This could be the one. This could be the one. Maybe so. Maybe not. Who knows?

Do you even know me?

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Tis The Season

So, I leave my home around 6PM to go to a BDSM party. What do I find when I get home at 4AM?? A real Xmas tree, with lights & 1 present under it. We've been in this house for 5.5 years and have never had a real tree. 2 years ago, I got one of the 2' tall ones with the fiber optics, and that sits on our entertainment center year-round. Come to think of it, I'm not sure if we've ever had a real tree. This will be the first time since we've been together (July 1993) that we have been in our own home for Xmas. Usually we're in Chico at Rik's brothers' house, or in San Jose at his parents'.....and a few random winter trips to ski cabins with the whole dang family, and 1 trip to Rik's sisters' place in Michigan (snow snow snow, lots of snow). No family....no travelling....no hassle. I think we need to make this a new tradition.

Stolen From MsLuLu

Here's the deal: 1. Copy this whole list into your journal. 2. Bold the things that you have in common with me. 3. Whatever you don't bold, replace with things about you. 01. When I was younger, the person I am now was buried deep inside. 02. I believe people can change in large & small ways if they really want to. 03. I tend to remember the dumbest things - like TV episodes, lyrics to 80's songs and such. 04. I love to dance, but I'm not very good at it. 05. Home is security and stability to me. 06. Sometimes I wonder if anyone understands. 07. I hate when people type in all caps online. 08. I loathe short-hand computer speak with the passion of a billion supernovas. (a/s/l?, UR cumming? UR4me) 09. I mind people who don't speak/write in proper English if it's their native language. 10. I wish I were bilingual....especially spanish, I could get paid more. 11. I tend to lose interest in things that I'm not naturally good at. 12. I am excited about my job and the future it could lead me to. 13. Sometimes it's hard for me to deal with personalities substantially different than mine. 14. I prefer to share my past with people I care about. 15. I am generally at peace with who I am. 16. I sometimes wonder how my life might be different if my parents hadn't divorced. 17. I tend to wake once during the night to go to the bathroom. 18. I have a lot to learn. 19. It sometimes doesn't take a lot to cause tears. 20. I check my email several times a day to see if I got new email. 21. I write well, but I don't like writing unless it's something I'm passionate about. 22. Sometimes I just need to be by myself. 23. I think too many people make excuses for their behavior instead of taking responsibility for being a bitch/asshole. 24. I have never really felt like I fit in. 25. I hate having to worry about money. 26. I think this society could do more to enable people to find jobs, instead of being on welfare. 27. I recognize that I can be a bit bitchy at times. 28. I'm a weird person. 29. I wonder when Nice became a bad thing to be. 30. I'm somewhat apathetic about the state of the nation and its population. 31. I'd like to make a positive different in at least 1 persons' life. 32. I collect Barbies. 33. I fill out memes and quizzes primarily because I'm bored, but sometimes because I secretly hope you care. 34. Bratty kids irritate me, but their parents usually irritate me more. 35. I enjoy disturbing movies more than most people I know. 36. I have very few superstitions. 37. I'm a night person. 38. There's a limit to how long I'm willing to listen to someone's problems if they never seem to make an effort to fix them. 39. I have tattoos. 40. I believe that, subconsciously, most people fall into the pack mentality. 41. I like to be flattered, admired, and stroked. But it embarrasses me, too. 42. I like people who are a bit out of the ordinary. 43. I like giving other people a lift, with compliments or affection. 44. I hate to see children suffer. 45. I hate when good ideas get warped beyond recognition into extremism. 46. I hate doing chores. 47. I don't care if I'm fashionable or trendy. 48. I'm aware that some of my answers probably contradict each other, because I feel differently at different times. 49. I wonder if anyone will read this list through. 50. I want to instantly and effortlessly have enough money to make the concept of money meaningless to me. 51. I have old-fashioned ideas of what it really means to be a friend. 52. I dislike holiday commercialism. 53. The best part about the holidays is spending time loved ones. 54. I try to avoid unpleasant confrontations. 55. I like being alone sometimes. 56. I not as picky about what I eat as I used to be. 57. I don't like being alone at social functions. 58. I need to exercise. 59. I like when my friends write me letters and emails, it makes me feel special. 60. I'm pessimistic and cynical sometimes. 61. I am too trusting. 62. I can't understand what the big deal is sometimes. 63. Some people think I have a tendency to overreact about things. 64. I love to look at nature. 65. I'm trying to let go of old scars and grudges. 66. I believe that talking about problems can help to resolve them. 67. I believe everyone can cure their own problems if they really work at it, rather than saying "This is how I am / this is how life is." 68. I like some porn. 69. I think GW Bush is pretty damn bad, but not the worst possible President the US could have at this time. 70. There is more about me than I could ever fit on a list like this. 71. I dislike rainy weather. 72. Mild drunkenness is ok, but people who get completely wasted can really annoy me. 73. I'm online a fair amount. 74. I know a lot of stuff that I never intended to learn. 75. I have moved many times in my life. 76. I have to remind myself sometimes that if a friend makes a choice I don't agree with or approve of, that's not their problem. 77. I *need* to read. 78. I can read a book multiple times. It's like an old friend. 79. I'm think I've been getting enough sleep these days. 80. I tend be easy to irritate. 81. I try to be easy to deal with. I think I fail. 82. I've had my heart broken. 83. I'm almost making enough money that I can get by without a problem. 84. I'm not very close my family. 85. I'm stubborn about a few specific things, but otherwise fairly malleable. 86. I'm happy with where my life is right now, but I'm not sure which direction my future is going in. 87. I don't understand why anyone in their right mind would oppose gay civil marriage. 88. I'm rarely jealous of my friends - I want to see them do well and succeed. 89. I am extremely skeptical of the efficacy of our democracy, but I vote anyway. 90. I hate having the feeling that I'm not going to go anywhere in life. 91. I love the smell of wood smoke. 92. I believe that opportunities are always available to those who look for them. 93. I try to believe that everything will work out for the best, even if it doesn't seem that way. 94. I never expect to fully understand my place in this world. 95. I wish people would actually take joy in learning. 96. I wish people would be more polite, more gentle, more careful with their words. 97. I can't stand rude people. 98. I am always striving to be my truest self. 99. I wish America wasn't so enamored of stupidity. 100. I am done with this survey now.

Bow Your Heads in Prayer

You may now address me as Reverend Cary. http://www.ulc.org/index.php?destination=main&numina=921060829

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