Embarrassed? Annoyed? I'm not sure....

Something that's been running around my head since Saturday night. Everyone knows I seem to have a certain fascination with the female breasts. (no really?) Somehow though, it seems to be what I am now known for more than anything else. My last 10 years in the Community seem to add up to nothing. I like to think there's a bit more substance to me than that....but I guess I just don't manage to come across that deep after all. Anyways....at a party, 2 partially clothed ladies were standing next to me. 1 I consider a friend, 1 I don't even know. A comment was (loudly) made to the unknown woman, something to the effect of 'Valia likes boobs a lot!' The girl kind of looked worried, but also kind of expectant. I on the other hand was somewhat embarrassed. About 5 minutes later, another woman I know, let me know that anytime I wanted to fondle her boobs....I was more than welcome to. I guess I've just never really explained this to many people.... While most breasts are indeed great things to look at.....I am not fascinated by, nor do I want to fondle all the breasts that come into my range. Surprisingly enough....I am rather picky about who I pay attention to. I'll look admiringly, at almost anyone that I do not already know. But it's the knowing that makes the difference. Actually, to be more accurate....it's the caring. Someone I know could have a lovely pair of breasts.....but if I do not even like that person....I barely take notice of them....let alone want to fondle or otherwise get close to them. The lady mentioned above, with her offer for fondling at anytime....you couldn't pay me enough to want to fondle & flirt with her.....while I can be nice to her, to be honest, I don't really like her, she started off on a bad foot with me several years ago....and it hasn't gotten much better since. People also accuse me of being a size queen....since some of the women who I am lucky enough to fondle....have been graced with an abundance of cleavage. However, what people do not seem to notice, is that more of the women I like and am lucky enough to fondle are a nice,lovely handful..... Honestly, size to me, is irrelevant....it's all about the person that the breasts happen to be attached to. My caring for, respecting & admiring someone play more of a role in my interest in them than the size of their breasts do. Another thing....it's not necessarily about sex either. Sure, I like to fondle, lick, kiss breasts as much as the next person....but a lot of times, it's a comfort thing for me. It's nice to just rest my head on someone's chest and listen to their heart. It's nice to just have my hand laying on a breast, having that slightly more intimate contact with someone. It's just nice to be with a woman that I like.