I'm too....

Loud - My boss complains all the time that I speak too loudly & I sound like I'm upset....she's always shushing me or making hand motions to get me to tone it down. I notice sometimes too at parties, DM's have had to come warn me that I'm talking too loudly in the 'quiet/play' areas. When I was in choir....I had (still have) a fairly overwhelming singing voice. I would drown out anyone (2, 3, 4) singing near me....when I finally started singing tenor...this was actually a good thing, because I made it sound like more than 1 person was singing tenor. I'm too... forward/brash.....I come on too strong, flirt too heavy, push too hard...and most likely, that is driving away the very people that I want to keep close. I'm too... needy....wanting to be the focus, the center of attention, but without saying HEY LOOK AT ME!!! I need reassurance....I need too much for peopleto validate me & tell me I'm worthy. I should look for that validation within myself....but somehow, it always means more when it comes from someone else.... Getting back to singing....if I ever did kareoke.... T’pau heart and soul Something in the moonlight catches my eye The shadow of a lover goes dancing by Looking for a little bit of love to grow so Give me love give me heart and soul You never let me cross to the other side now I’m tied to the hope that you will somehow Hard on the heels of something good When I lost your love heart and soul The tear in my heart as you walked on by I feel so low when your head is high Everything you do convinces more of this Give me love give me heart and soul Looking to the day when I saw your face I wasn’t in the running I wasn’t in the race You move in a way I’ve known before Now I want your love heart and soul Tired eyes tears that dried On the bed on the pillow where the love has died A turn of the key through the door you go Don’t look back to hurt me more Everything you said was to the point Walking on water walking on air That was the heart of the love we share Do you keep secrets left untold? Can’t give love heart and soul Used to have a lover with a Midas touch I turned to gold he turned to dust Left me for another I turned to stone Now give me love heart and soul Tired eyes tears that dried On the bed on the pillow where you told lies A turn of a key my blood goes cold Don’t come back to hurt me more Everything you did just said it all Can’t you try to won’t you even try to More than an ocean Keeps us apart I feel the tearing of upon my heart Leaving you ain't easy now But loving you's the harder part You never want me for myself and I've needed you right from the very start Oh, won't you even and try to Give a little bit of heart and soul Give a little bit of love to grow Give a little bit of heart and soul and don't you make me beg for love Give a sign cos I need to know Little bit of heart and soul Walk on the water More than I need But miracles are not happening Living in a fantasy There’s never any room to breath Hoping every waking hour You’ll turn around and say that we can stay Oh won’t you even try to Give a little bit of heart and soul Give a little bit of love to grow Give a little bit of heart and soul And don't you make me beg for love Give a sign cos I need to know A little bit of heart and soul Somehow I lost my way looking to see something in your eyes But love will never compromise Now this is the politics of life yeah-yeah Give a little bit of heart and soul Give a little bit of love to grow Give a little bit of heart and soul And don't you make me beg for love Give a sign cos I need to know A little bit of heart and soul Give a little bit of heart and soul Give a little bit of love to grow Give a little bit of heart and soul And don't you make me beg for love Give a sign cos I need to know A little bit of heart and soul TOTAL ECLIPSE OF THE HEART (Bonnie Tyler) Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you're never coming around Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit restless and I dream of something wild Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit helpless and I'm lying like a child in your arms Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit angry and I know I've got to get out and cry Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit terrified but then I see the look in your eyes Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart And I need you now tonight And I need you more than ever And if you'll only hold me tight We'll be holding on forever And we'll only be making it right Cause we'll never be wrong together We can take it to the end of the line Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks I really need you tonight Forever's gonna start tonight Forever's gonna start tonight Once upon a time I was falling in love But now I'm only falling apart There's nothing I can do A total eclipse of the heart Once upon a time there was light in my life But now there's only love in the dark Nothing I can say A total eclipse of the heart Turnaround bright eyes Turnaround bright eyes Turnaround, every now and then I know you'll never be the boy you always you wanted to be Turnaround, every now and then I know you'll always be the only boy who wanted me the way that I am Turnaround, every now and then I know there's no one in the universe as magical and wonderous as you Turnaround, every now and then I know there's nothing any better and there's nothing I just wouldn't do Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart And I need you now tonight And I need you more than ever And if you'll only hold me tight We'll be holding on forever And we'll only be making it right Cause we'll never be wrong together We can take it to the end of the line Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks I really need you tonight Forever's gonna start tonight Forever's gonna start tonight Once upon a time I was falling in love But now I'm only falling apart There's nothing I can do A total eclipse of the heart Once upon a time there was light in my life But now there's only love in the dark Nothing I can say A total eclipse of the heart I Will Survive by Gloria Gaynor First I was afraid I was petrified Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side But I spent so many nights thinking how you did me wrong I grew strong I learned how to carry on and so you're back from outer space I just walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face I should have changed my stupid lock I should have made you leave your key If I had known for just one second you'd be back to bother me Go on now go walk out the door just turn around now 'cause you're not welcome anymore weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye you think I'd crumble you think I'd lay down and die Oh no, not I I will survive as long as i know how to love I know I will stay alive I've got all my life to live I've got all my love to give and I'll survive I will survive It took all the strength I had not to fall apart kept trying hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart and I spent oh so many nights just feeling sorry for myself I used to cry Now I hold my head up high and you see me somebody new I'm not that chained up little person still in love with you and so you felt like dropping in and just expect me to be free now I'm saving all my loving for someone who's loving me Bohemian Rhapsody - Queen Is this the real life- Is this just fantasy- Caught in a landslide- No escape from reality- Open your eyes Look up to the skies and see- I’m just a poor boy,i need no sympathy- Because I’m easy come,easy go, A little high,little low, Anyway the wind blows,doesn’t really matter to me, To me Mama,just killed a man, Put a gun against his head, Pulled my trigger,now he’s dead, Mama,life had just begun, But now I’ve gone and thrown it all away- Mama ooo, Didn’t mean to make you cry- If I’m not back again this time tomorrow- Carry on,carry on,as if nothing really matters- Too late,my time has come, Sends shivers down my spine- Body’s aching all the time, Goodbye everybody-I’ve got to go- Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth- Mama ooo- (any way the wind blows) I don’t want to die, I sometimes wish I’d never been born at all- I see a little silhouetto of a man, Scaramouche,scaramouche will you do the fandango- Thunderbolt and lightning-very very frightening me- Galileo,galileo, Galileo galileo Galileo figaro-magnifico- But I’m just a poor boy and nobody loves me- He’s just a poor boy from a poor family- Spare him his life from this monstrosity- Easy come easy go-,will you let me go- Bismillah! no-,we will not let you go-let him go- Bismillah! we will not let you go-let him go Bismillah! we will not let you go-let me go Will not let you go-let me go Will not let you go let me go No,no,no,no,no,no,no- Mama mia,mama mia,mama mia let me go- Beelzebub has a devil put aside for me,for me,for me- So you think you can stone me and spit in my eye- So you think you can love me and leave me to die- Oh baby-can’t do this to me baby- Just gotta get out-just gotta get right outta here- Nothing really matters, Anyone can see, Nothing really matters-,nothing really matters to me, Any way the wind blows....