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Well, I only received 1 reply to the 'anonymous post a question to me' entry I made a few days ago. Frankly.....I don't even know how to answer it, reply to it, whatever.....so I'll just repost it here & let it stand. When will you ever realize that the only reason people put up with you is because of Vicki? No one understands what it is that she sees in you, hell, no one else even likes you. If you left the scene tomorrow, there would be a lot of happy people.

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More on that Work Thing I do

Boss Lady was practically kissing my feet today. I can't even count the # of times that she said she missed me & was glad that I was back. I tactfully (for me) queried her on the 'it seems like they don't get along' comment my friend relayed from her reference call with Planned Parenthood. Boss Lady said that she's not sure how Planned Parenthood got that impression, because she hardly said anything. She said that Planned Parenthood kept asking her for personal details about me, and right away asked her why I was leaving. She told them that she wasn't comfortable with that line of questioning, and wasn't going to answer. However, she did say that I was eligible for re-hire.....which is interesting, because #1 - she always refuses to answer that questions & #2 - we pretty much have a 'no re-hire' policy unless it's former employees who left to go back to school. Rik emailed me later in the day & told me that Planned Parenthood called & wants me to come in this week to talk to their Chief Operations Officer..... I called them back & politely informed them that I had been given reason to re-consider my decision, and that I was no longer interested in a position with them. They seemed very surprised. I mentioned that since I had not heard back from them after Wednesday, that I assumed they weren't interested. They said that 'we wanted to call you Friday, but we weren't sure where things were going.' So I fudged a bit & said that when I came in this morning, my boss, the CEO & I had a lengthy meeting regarding my future with the company....and that many of my reasons for wanting to move on had been addressed. (truth is more closer to, a series of talks that occurred directly after I let my boss know I was looking for a new job 3 weeks ago.....) Planned Parenthood said that if I changed my mind....they'd really like me to come in this week for the interview with the COO. I told Boss Lady about my final decision & she just had a huge smile on her face and said 'I'm so happy that you're staying, I could just hug you'. So.....my decision now is to just wait things out another few months....and around October/November re-evaluate things & see how I feel.

Work Stuff

So....part of me thinks I should just go in tomorrow & just work. Speak only when spoken to, and just stop rocking the boat for a while. The other part of me thinks I should #1 - ask my boss about her making out that she & I didn't get along when Planned Parenthood called her....and #2 - Ask whether or not I'll have a job after this week. If I was the horrible boss type (and I'm not saying my boss is, or that she would do this), then I would fire me Wednesday afternoon after payroll has been processed. Another thing I need to ponder too, is that more than 1 person has suggested to me that if my boss made it seem like I was hard to get along with....maybe she did it so that I would not leave METRO 1......

Call me Paranoid

So, Planned Parenthood called me Wednesday & said that I was high on their list of people they interviewed & that they wanted to call my boss to do a reference check. I told them that I hadn't told her about this interview & I asked them to give me 1/2 a hour to call her & let her know what was going on. They said they'd call her in the afternoon. So....I immediately called my boss & told her everything. I also told her that I was pretty ambivilent about the whole thing. I told her that the walk to the office was scary & that the job wouldn't be the step-up that I was hoping for. She made a comment to the extent of 'well if you're meant to stay with METRO 1, you will....maybe the scary walk was a sign'....all in all though, I think she was pretty bothered about the fact that I even went on the interview in the 1st place, even though I warned her that I would do an interview if Planned Parenthood called. So....late this afternoon, a former co-worker, who was on my list of professional references called me. She said that Planned Parenthood called her to talk about me. They thought she was one of my supervisors....and she quickly told them that we were equals there & not even in the same department. So, she told me that the guy she was talking to told her that his conversation with her about me was very different than his conversation with my boss. She asked what he meant....and he said that he got the impression from my boss, that she & I don't get along very well. My friend told this guy that it wasn't that we didn't get along necessarily, but that the company was difficult to work for....no real room for advancement or latitude to make decisions..... So....I haven't heard from Planned Parenthood since Wednesday......and now with what my friend tells me....I'm real paranoid & wondering if I'll even have a job at Metro 1 after Monday.....

Stupid Hurt Feelings Rant

So, I was at a munch Wednesday... Person X is having a party this weekend, about 60 miles from me. Person Y was asking Person X who was expected at the party, and then asked X if Vicki would be there. Person X turns and glares at me and said a bit loudly, 'Her mistress wants to go to The Citadel, so Vicki won't be there.' Now for some reason, this bothers me. #1 - Vicki is her own person, I may be her mistress, but that doesn't mean that I have total & absolute control over every aspect of her life. If she wanted to go to X's party, she was more than welcome to go....without me. #2 - During the last 2 weeks, I've already made 3 BDSM related trips that were over 50 miles from my house....and I just wasn't in the mood for yet another trek. #3 - I haven't been to The Citadel since May. I'd like to try to get there a few more times, since for all anyone knows at the moment, they could be completely out of business by the end of the year. #4 - When I was speaking to Vicki about this, she said it was for the best that she go to The Citadel. She has a lot of work to do in order to sell her house & move....and going to X's party would take up more of her weekend than she ought to be giving up. Going to the Citadel would mean that she'd be working Saturday day & maybe even Sunday. Anyways....like the title said...my feelings are hurt. I understand that Vicki is very well-liked & popular....but it really bothers me that I am the bad guy because she chooses 1 event over another.

Gee Wiz

I managed to get through most of my vacation before I got bored out my skull!

How to Make Women Happy

The Point System (Advice According to Women) In Relationships one single rule applies: Make the woman happy. Do something she like and you get points. Do something she dislikes and points are subtracted. You don't get any points for doing something she expects. Sorry, that's the way the game is played. Simple Duties: You make the bed (+1) You make the bed, but forget to add the decorative pillows (0) You throw the bedspread over rumpled sheets (-1) You leave the toilet seat up (-5) You replace the toilet paper roll when it is empty(0) When the toilet paper roll is barren you resort to Kleenex (-1) When the Kleenex runs out, you use the next bathroom (-2) You go out to buy her extra-light panty liners with wings (+5) In the snow (+8) But return with beer (-5) You check out a suspicious noise at night (0) You check out a suspicious noise and it's nothing (0) You check out a suspicious noise and it's something (+5) You pummel it was a six iron (+10) It's her pet (-10) Social Engagements at a Party: You stay by her side the entire party (0) You stay by her side for a while, then leave to chat with a college drinking buddy (-2) Named Tiffany (-4) Who is a dancer (-6) With implants (-8) Her Birthday: You take her out to dinner (0) You take her out to dinner and it's not a sports bar (+1) Okay, it's a sports bar (-2) And it's all-you-can-eat-night (-3) It's a sports bar, it's all-you-can-eat-night, and your face is painted in all the colors of your favorite sports team (-10) A Night Out With the Boys: Go with a pal (-5) The pal is happily married (-4) Or frighteningly single (-7) and he drive a sports car (-10)

So.....the interview

Honestly....my overall feeling right now is one of ambivalence. 1. While it would be nice to get a mile walk everyday, the area I have to walk through is scary, and this was in daylight. At one point, I was waiting at an intersection, for the WALK sign to go my way, and I heard someone shout Look that that high-priced whore on the corner! I quickly glanced around, only to realize that I was the only woman in the immediate area.... 2. The cube I'd work in is tiny....and the desktop is very lime green. A silly thing to not like, but I think the area you work in has some affect on your mood. 3. I just wasn't feeling "it" about the whole prospect of this job. I don't think I'd have any real chance to go forward with my career....I'd just be doing exactly what I do now, only on a larger scale. At 1 point during the interview, the VP of HR mentioned that he thought I might get bored with the job in 2-3 years, and want to move on from them too..... 4. The benefits are.....so-so. I'd have to pay part of my dental, medical, & visual....and right now I get all that for free. They have a retirement program, but there's no company match until you've been there for 3 years.....and it's only a 35 hour work-week....so I'd actually have the potential to be making less money, even if they were paying me slightly more $$ per hour. To make the $37,294 annual I make now, at 35 hours per week, they would have to pay me $20.49 per hour. So as things stand right now....my immediate thought is that taking this job (if it were offered to me), would not be a step up....at best, it would just be a lateral move. I don't think I'd have the potential to learn anything new or to gain skills that I don't already have.....and both of those things are important to me right now. I'm thinking, I might have a better opportunity to just stay where I'm at, IF they actually follow through and deliver what they say they will. I'm thinking.....that maybe it's just best to sit on this for a few more months......

INTERVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday 10:30 IN PERSON!!!

Where's the other 15%?

Master! You are 59% Dominant and 26% Submissive!

That below is your playroom. You know how to command attention... and another. You know all there is to know about 'teaching.' You got a Ph.D. in pain. If your score is high enough I bet you're a sadist! Anyway, I'd better get out of your way.... Master.

My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 45% on Dominant You scored higher than 54% on Submissive

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Um...Ok....Now what

It's been exactly 2 weeks since I last heard from Planned Parenthood about the HR job I applied for. To be honest, I had written them off late last week. So....what do I come home to see in my email today.... Planned Parenthood wants to do a 1/2 hour phone interview with me....FRIDAY...unless that's a bad time for me. The guy who's been talking to me, had been out of town....so that's why I hadn't heard anything.....I'd say it was odd for the Hiring Manager to be out of town when they are....hiring....but well, we're going the same thing at my current job right now. Trying to fill a few openings, and my boss has been gone all this week. So...Friday phone interview is bad for me. I go on vacation next week....and Friday, I'll be lucky to have time to do anything besides work & make sure nothing will be left hanging while I'm gone. I wrote back that I would very much like to do an interview....but that Monday would be much better for me. I was honest & explained that since I was going on vacation, I wanted to make sure Friday was spent tying up loose ends. So....hopefully he's willing to talk to me Monday..... Um....wow...I honestly wasn't expecting this at all.

Only a 2

HELL LEVEL 2 Raw score: 71%

You're just about as deep in sexual hellfire as a person can get. Virtually no urge, however demented, will go ungratified; practically no boundary will go uncrossed. You're probably proud of your adventurousness, and, honestly, you should be. Few people are confident enough to pursue pleasure on their own terms. Your morals could sink a bit further, sure, but it's mostly likely that you've got a pretty good idea of what you're into and what you would do...above you're honest with yourself with what you want. If more people told the truth, you'd have a lot more company down in the flames. AVOID: the lost souls in sexual heaven and (above all) the denizens of sexual purgatory. You don't need any prudes or wishy-washers in your life.

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 30% on hellish

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What do you buy for the hard to shop for woman? Nothing, you just cover her in caramel & chocolate & feed her to the lesbians. :)

Quickie

Long & sort....my boss is scared, the Exec. VP is scared....and the general result is holy shit let's do something NOW!!! Neither wants me to leave. EVP gets my point....that I just want more to do, I don't want to be a glorified receptionist for another 3 years. EVP is going to start giving me stuff from her desk to take care of on a permanent basis, and when I say start...I mean, tomorrow. My boss....still doesn't 'get' it. Is it about money, she asked for the 3rd time. NO!, we both agree that I can do more that I deserve better than what I have.....if you aren't going to make it happen, I'll make it happen someplace else. I told her that this was not a rash decision, that I had been thinking about it for a year. I kept saying to myself, just wait a few more months & see what happens....and now, I'm tired of waiting. I told her that I was happy after our conversation in March & that I was happy with the plans to upgrade our payroll system....and then to find it all getting shot down, just made me feel deflated & it bothered me that their idea of 'change' was to talk about changing, but NOT actually change..... Now, instead of we'll to XYZ sooner or later..... It's HOLY SHIT, gotta get a receptionist/clerk ASAP & get Heather happy.......so I guess I just take things day by day and see what happens. I am going to cancel the interview I have on Friday....it wasn't something I was terribly interested in anyways, but I am still going to keep my resumes active & my eyes open......just in case.

Open back, Insert spine

So....I finally told my boss (10 minutes before the end of the day) that I was looking for another job. Back fill - I posted my resume on Monster & CareerBuilder this weekend....and got a call on my cell from World Savings this afternoon. I have an interview with them Friday morning. I'm not terribly excited about it...but what the heck. And before you ask....no, nothing further from Planned Parenthood. So, after pondering my options - I could call in sick (I don't like lying), I could cancel the interview (what if nothing else comes up) or I could bite the bullet & just tell my boss what's going on. So.....I told her. The 1st thing she asks, is if it's about the money or commute. I said NO. She then asked what she could do to keep me....I said give me more to do. She asked if I was leaving because she was. It was all I could to to not say NO, I'm leaving because you won't! I told her that I was frustrated, that I felt like if I stayed there that I would be doing the same thing with no hope of a future. I said that I knew I wasn't management material at this time....but that I did not want to be doing the same thing 3 years from now. She asked what I did want to do.....I said more work, more administrative stuff, research, projects, reports, spreadsheets.... I told her that I wanted the office that she told me about in March & the payroll upgrade that we've been talking about since February. I told her that I was better than what I was being given, that I was capable of so much more. She agreed with me.....ok, so if she agrees, why doesn't she use me?? She also said that she didn't want to 'hold me back' or make me feel like I couldn't be honest with her about any of my plans. So....I guess we'll see how things really fall tomorrow, after she's had the evening to think about the ramifications of what I'm doing. To be honest though, I probably would stay if they'd just follow through on what they said they would do.....hire a clerk, get me off the front desk & into an office....and upgrade the damn payroll.

July 9 - Fusion party

The party starts at 8:00 PM & will be at Vicki's house in Boulder Creek. Who's still interested?

Thank You

For being derisive & uncaring when I was too scared to climb a ladder to our roof to watch fireworks.

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