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Administrative Professionals Day

Yesterday I got a card signed by all 8 Upper Management people, stuffed with a bunch of $5 Starbucks cards & a sugar cookie bouquet. Today, the HR Manager gave me another card & 2 chocolate glazed cake donuts. THEN....the WHOLE Lending Department trooped to my desk with a vase of flowers & another card....all of them clapping & telling me how great I am. Right before I left, the VP of Lending came up with yet ANOTHER card....said she couldn't decide between them when she bought them, so gave me both. WOW....does this mean some of my co-workers actually like me? :) my ex-boss...pretty much ignored all the hoopla & didn't even say anything to me.

30 Questions

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1) Have you ever dated ? No
2) Where was born? Minnisota
3) Did break up with you? Not yet
4) Where did you first meet ? Probably a party
5) Has dyed their hair? yes
6) Does have a crush on ? I don't think they even know each other
7) Does know ? I'm not sure
8) Would and make a good couple? um.....no
9) What would give for his/her birthday? Something weird
10) What would you do if you found out has a crush on you? Be awfully surprised
11) Would you wrestle in jello? Sure!
12) Does go to your school? No
13) Is related to you? No
14) What animal should be combined with? Panther
15) What is 's favorite band/artist? I can't remember....
16) What flavor of jello would be? Black Cherry
17) Does drink? A little I think
18) If commanded an army, who would be his/her followers? A lot of lesbians
19) What color should dye their hair? I liked it purple
20) What word best describes ? Soft
21) 's eye color? Brown
22) Has been to your house/dorm? 1 time
23) What languages does speak? Besides english?
24) What is allergic to? Mean people
25) Do you think is hot? Yes!
26) Is friends with ? Um, don't think they've met
27) Are and going out? Nope
28) Which president would be likely to idolize? None
29) If and were siamese twins, where would they be joined? Hip
30) Does smoke? No

More talk about love

Taken from TOXIC PARENTS by Dr. Susan Forward Loving behavior doesn't grind you down, keep you off balance, or create feelings of self-hatred. Love doesn't hurt, it feels good. Loving behavior nourishes your emotional well-being. When someone is being loving to you, you feel accepted, cared for, valued, and respected. Genuine love creates feelings of warmth, pleasure, safety, stability, and inner peace.

Eat your Greens

You Are Teal Green

You are a one of a kind, original person. There's no one even close to being like you. Expressive and creative, you have a knack for making the impossible possible. While you are a bit offbeat, you don't scare people away with your quirks. Your warm personality nicely counteracts and strange habits you may have.

What Color Green Are You?

Paging Loren Q

When are you coming to the Wednesday munch again? I have something for you. :)

But I'm a Leo....

You Should Be A Capricorn

What's good about you: hard working and ambitious, you're practically a guaranteed success What's bad about you: you can be unforgiving toward people who fail you In love: you're very picky, but extremely devoted to the one you choose In friendship, you're: likely to be a good friend but expect a lot in return Your ideal job: rock climber, sculptor, or practitioner of black magic Your sense of fashion: preppy and put together You like to pig out on: meat and potatoes

What Sign Should You Be?

This post is brought to you by the letter W

For The Wench...hey I can use that... Wench - The woman I am totally nuts about. Wow - One of the words that describes our sex. Wicked - How she probably sees me when I've got a full toybag & her in my sights. Witch - My basic religious path. Wool - The type of sweaters that I find really warm....and way too itchy to wear. Weak - What I am when it comes to chocolate & shopping (and boobs I suppose). Willpower - That thing I use on a regular basis to keep dragging myself to the gym 3-4 days a week. Whimsical - How I feel during those few times when I truly believe life can be happily ever after. Wrestling (pro) - One of my guilty pleasures....been watching it nearly every week since 1984, and have almost every PPV from the early 90's to today on tape. Wonton - Preferably stuffed with crab & cream cheese....one of my favorite chinese food appetizers.

Hm, how does one respond?

A bisexual 20-year old woman in the LA area left me a note on collarme.com - you are so pretty I am willing to do anything for you Wow, I'm so used to getting this from guys (altho some girls, who always seem to be at least a continent away try to tell me what a great idea it is for them to relocate to MEET me). I'm not sure what to say when it's a girl.... The standard guy reply is to say something along the lines of 'as it clearly states in my profile, I'm not interested in guys' And my standard reply to the U-Haul girls is to firmly state that I would never expect someone to move just for me....what happens if we totally hate each other?

Such Accuracy

As seen on msn.com horoscopes for 4/21/06, LEOS Leo July 22 - August 22 People often see you as shy and reserved, dear Leo, but of course we know that you're really very friendly once you're relaxed. Today you will find it unusually easy to interact with others. In fact, you feel downright gregarious, and "bubble and chirp" along with the best of them. This new, sociable you does wonders for your image. You've needed to loosen up a bit!

This Coming Weekend

I have 3 goals from 7PM Friday - 10PM Sunday 1. Spend time with husband 2. Shop for some sexy dresses 3. Catch up on my pro-wrestling Unfortunately, I can rarely mix item 1 with items 2 or 3.....so I'm not sure if I'll be able to do either. I understand he hates wrestling....but shopping? If he goes with me, it guarantees I get stuff he finds appealing on me (or on the floor).....but for some reason, he hates shopping with me.....

Content, it's REALLY Content

February 2005, I had the opportunity to read a book by Jenny Ditzler called The Best Year Yet. This link will take you to the post that I made as a result of what I got out of that book. http://valiaderekin.livejournal.com/75771.html In August 2005, my company implemented the Best Year Yet program for all employees. Below is all of the ‘inner ramblings’ I went through to solidify my Plan. The questions were to focus on what happened for you during the 12 months before August 2005. 1. What did I accomplish? Bought a new house 8/12/04. We're currently 3/4 unpacked. Lost 25 pounds since February 2005. Attended a seminar on managing my emotions in March. Branched out socially. Took on a few more responsibilities at work. Celebrated 11th wedding anniversary 6/26/05. Celebrated 10th anniversary late, with a Mexican cruise (November 2004). 2. What were my biggest disappointments? Haven't found a woman that I want to share some of my life with. I haven't been able to change or advance my career path in the ways that I had hoped to. I'm still pretty bad with my personal financial management. I'm still too focused on how other people see me & whether or not they like me. I'm still no closer to going back to school for my 2nd BA, than I was 5 years ago when I 1st found out about the Human Sexuality program at SF State. I've got a rather large collection of books on psychology, human sexuality & the occult....things I've collected for over 10 year, but haven't read much of. Car accident in December that I was at fault for. 3. What did I learn? I have to work at having willpower. I have to work at not letting my emotions take control of my reactions. I have to learn to believe more that what I think of myself is more important that what others do. I have to stand up and ask for the things that I want. Guideline 1 - Be strong (willpower) Guideline 2 - You run your emotions, they don't run you Guideline 3 - Be true to myself 4. How do I limit myself and how can I stop? How do I limit myself? I don't stand up for myself. I'm afraid to try & fail (especially with regards to dating & relationships). I spend more money than I truly need to. I lack self-control in certain areas of my life. I'm afraid to be who I really think that I am. What do I say about myself to explain my limitations? If I let more of my true self show, I may lose my job & cause problems in my marriage. I think if I'm a pushover, that people will like me more. Limiting Paradigm - If I be my true self, I won't be accepted. New Paradigm - The real me will shine through. 5. What are my personal values? Honesty Originality Trust Independence Freedom Friendship Educate Emotional Health Integrity Love Person Growth Strengthen 6. What roles do I play in my life? Role 1: Wife Role 2: Employee Role 3: Self Role 4: Daughter Role 5: Friend 7. What is my major focus for next year? To try to be more of who I say I am. To reflect the roles that I identify with. Major Focus - Self 8. What are my goals for each role? Role 2: Employee Goal Learn more about the recruiting & interviewing process. Learn to think before reacting. Learn to reach for the things that I want. Learn to stop taking things personally. Role 3: Self Goal Lose a total of 75 pounds. Pursue my education. Learn to control myself in certain areas. Become more physically fit. Be real. Role 5: Friend Goal Learn to be honest with people, with regards to what I really think & feel. Learn to remove the negative things & people from my life. Learn to say no more often when people just want to use me & give nothing back in return. 9. What are my top ten goals for next year? Goal 1: Follow through on my interests. Goal 2: Lose weight & become more fit. Goal 3: Stop being a doormat. Goal 4: Learn how to say what I think. Goal 5: Learn to control my temper. Goal 6: Encourage the positive, lose the negative. Goal 7: Be who I say I am. Goal 8: Reach higher. Goal 9: Sing more. Goal 10: 10. How can I make sure I achieve them? Read 2 books that are in line with my educational pursuits at least once a month. Work out at least 3 times a week. At work - think about what I say before I say it. Speak up when I'm feeling stepped on. Ask for the things that matter. And THIS is the actual plan. TOP TEN GOALS 1. Follow through on interests. 2. Lose weight & become more fit. 3. Stop being a doormat. 4. Learn how to say what I think. 5. Learn to control my temper. 6. Encourage the positive, lose the negative. 7. Be who you say you are. 8. Reach higher. 9. Sing more often GUIDELINES Be Strong (willpower) Run your emotions, they don't run you. Be true to Myself. NEW PARADIGM or VISION The real me will shine through. MAJOR FOCUS Self Every month (or week if we want), we list mini-goals that will help us along the way to accomplishing our major goals, and last month we were asked to come up with one additional goal…something we intended, yet unexpected, to have happen to us during the month of March. Well, most people went for the obvious ‘I’d like ‘unexpected’ money to show up….random checks in the mail, finding money on the ground, winning a few bucks on a Scratcher or at the slots.’ A few people wanted unexpected appreciation from their boss. At first, I was thinking that I wanted to receive more sincere compliments….but that was striking me as too self-centered….so I opted for the whimsical….I wanted to see more purple flowers in my life. The next day at our Joint Staff Meeting, 1 of my co-workers gave me a purple peony that she picked on the way in. Judging by my commute though, I should have picked yellow flowers. :) Anyways, this month we were supposed to chose another intention to realize during the month of April…and I was wracking my brains to come with something a little more substantial than flowers, but still not the typical ‘unexpected money’ one that most others were hanging on to. So, I got to thinking about myself and my relationships with others….specifically in the level of trust & confidence that people place in me. During the last few weeks, I have been honored to be able to read the locked posts from 2 people who were discussing deeply painful and personal things that have occurred in their lives (current or past). I was surprised….I mean, while I like these people, and I know they like me….I had no idea that they thought well enough of me to include me in something so personal. Follow that up with another revelation today…a co-worker wanted to re-arrange her direct deposit & send some money to other accounts. She told me to call her so that she could explain everything. I did, and I told her that it was no problem…and all of the sudden she tells me that she is keeping a tighter rein on her money, because she might be getting divorced. I was floored, not by what she said….but that she chose me to say it to. She said she hadn’t told anyone else at work… So, that leads me to my intention….my intention is to receive things from people...things that show that they were thinking and how they were thinking of me. I'm not talking about gifts or necessarily tangible items. You're listening to the radio and a song came on that reminded you of me, or of something we had shared together...and you tell me about it. You're reading something & something brings me to mind.... and you tell me about it. You see something while out shopping.... whatever it is that brought me to your mind. What was it, and what did you end up thinking about me, or about us? Often, especially lately, I walk through my life, wondering what I mean to people...how do I fit into their world.... am I of any real importance to them...do I make some sort of positive difference to them? It’s the things that I discussed above that let me see that maybe I am important to people, and just don’t know it…. I suppose, one way or another, this intention will show me. And to end the post….during our group meetings, we all had to draw out cards. Mine was - Set your sights high, the higher the better. Expect the most wonderful things to happen, not in the future but right now. Realize that nothing is too good. Eileen Caddy

Yeah, I guess I'll admit that I'm a do-me-queen in bed

Leo Since you are such an attention craver, you are into wearing the sexiest clothes and going straight for the sexiest person in the room. You like secure people who are genuine and have a good fashion sense. In bed, you like to get all of the attention, so you need a partner who can worship you for the hottie that you are. You like to dance and strip for your partner and you enjoy buying the sexiest lingere for yourself. Sex matches: Aries, Sagittarius, Libra Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Because The Wench Asked

Q & A NEXT 1. Next person you'll kiss: Rik 2. Next movie you want to see: Mr & Mrs Smith 3. Next person you want to go out with: The person who asked me to do this 4. Next car you want to have: I'm happy with my flamin' Purple PT 5. Next time you're going out: Tomorrow morning at 7am, to go to work 6. Next time you're going to move: hopefully not soon 7. Next thing you're going to save money for: Baycon 8. Next time that you will drink alcohol: Don't know really, I don't drink much. 9. Next time you're going to call someone: I suppose if you get technical, I'll be call co-workers while at work 10. Next place you'll take vacation: I don't consider seeing my mother a vacation (July), in January, we're taking a Caribbean cruise 11. Next thing you are going to do after filling this survey out: Get clothes out for work tomorrow 12. Next thing you are going to eat: Milky Way Caramel 13. Next time you plan to be drunk: I don't plan it. Maybe Baycon? 14. Next thing you are going to do outside: Walk back & forth from house to car, car to work 15. Next person you'd like to see fill this out: mensia -------------------------------------------------------- LAST 1. Last kiss: When I got home from work 2. Last person you hugged: Rik 3. Last person you spoke to: Rik 4. Last alcoholic beverage: Kahlua, vodka & Creme de Cacao at a wedding on the 25th 5. Last sexual partner: Rik & The Wench (no NOT at the same time) 6. Last movie: Sky High I think 7. Last person you thought of: Well technically, The Wench 8. Last school you went to: University of California - Santa Cruz 9. Last person you said I love you to: Rik 10. Last run in with the Law: Sometime between 1998-2004....speeding ticket sometime when I lived in Fairfield 11. Last fight you were in: Sophomore year in high school, with a guy named Evan 12. Last bar/club/concert/party you went to: Saturday with a bunch of hot women 13. Last person you e-mailed: The Wench 14. Last thing you ate: Hamburger Helper chili-cheese 15. Last thing you saved up money for: Paying a $9K VISA bill ------------------------------------------------------- Firsts 1. First kiss: I don't remember...I was maybe....7 and it was at the playground 2. First Love: Jim, in the 9th grade 3. First heartbreak: Jim, the day after I lost my virginity with him 4. First car: black Mitsubishi pick-up, bought from Kshandra 5. First pet: I think it was a miniature Schnauzer 6. First word: I don't remember 7. First concert: Alabama & The Oakridge Boys 8. First alcoholic beverage: Champagne 9. First time you stayed out all night: A friends Sweet 16, we all went to Rocky Horror 10. First best friend: Heather White, when I lived in Ft. Wayne, IN 11. First job: Counselor at a Jewish Community Center summer camp 12. First school: Dewitt Elementary 13. First movie you watched in a theater: Maybe Star Wars 14. First thing you really saved up money for: A blue suede, fringed jacket (which I still have, but don't fit into)

Whoa!

Well I finally met The Wench's primary.....and I have to say, she is one hell of a woman. I totally look forward to getting to know her. I was a little scared last night....wondering if I was going to feel jealous or left out while the 2 of them had their scene. Instead I was mesmerized by the interaction between the 2. Hot doesn't even begin to describe it. :) For someone who I believe described herself as a mostly vanilla bridge & tunnel girl.....I'd say she definitely added some fudge ripple to her description last night. :) I won't divulge details of the scene, because it's not my place to....but I will say that the 3 of us could have fun breaking commandments 7 & 10.....over & over & over & over.......