Yes or No

Only two rules: You must answer yes or no. You may not explain unless someone asks you to. Taken a picture naked? Yes Made money illegally? No Had a one night stand? Yes Been in a fist fight? Yes Slept with your best friend? Yes Had sex in a public place? Yes Ditched work to have sex? No Slept with a member of the same sex? Yes Seen someone die? No Ran from the police? No Woke up somewhere and not remember how you got there? No Worn your partners unmentionables? No Fallen asleep at work? Yes Used toys in the bedroom? Yes Ran a red light? Yes Been fired? Yes Been in a car accident? Yes Pole danced or done a striptease? Yes Loved someone you shouldn't? Yes Sang karaoke? Yes Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes Laughed so hard you peed your pants? No Caught someone having sex? Yes Kissed a perfect stranger? Yes Shaved your partner? No Given your private parts a nickname? No Ever gone in public without underwear? Yes Had sex on a roof top? No Played chicken? No Mooned/flashed someone? Yes Do you sleep naked? Yes Blacked out from drinking? No Felt like killing someone? Yes Had sex more than 5 times in one day? Yes Been with someone because they were in a band? No Taken 10 shots of liquor in a day? No Shot a gun? Yes Gone outside naked? Yes

For L & cb

You might remember this, I posted it in May of 07.

Funny

As I sit here in my long purple (subtly) tie-dyed dress & purple Dr. Martens, I'm not feeling like an Ugly Duckling. www.horoscope.com Lately you've been very sensitive about your looks. Recent comments from your friends might unintentionally make you paranoid, but there's no need to hide under a sack. Take pride in your appearance. You're more of a hottie than you realize.

He's Gone

http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendID=61471721&blogID=419251906

Oh Horrors!

Short Notice Birthday Stuff

I finally figured out something to do. Rik and I are going to this on Sunday. http://gilroygarlicfestival.com/ And for dinner we're going here. http://www.tassosoldhouse.com/ If anyone is interested in meeting us...let me know ASAP. :)

Only a bit kinky?

Your result for The Sexplorer In Bed Test...

The Porn King

Lovers of the world beware! You know what you want and are damn sure you are going to get it! Find yourself a nice little submissive type and have your way with them. Your ways are bit on the kinky side, so you better know a good dry-cleaner. When you are finished, the world finishes with you.

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Only a bit kinky?

Your result for The Sexplorer In Bed Test...

The Porn King

Lovers of the world beware! You know what you want and are damn sure you are going to get it! Find yourself a nice little submissive type and have your way with them. Your ways are bit on the kinky side, so you better know a good dry-cleaner. When you are finished, the world finishes with you.

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Three Words Again

Where is your cell phone? In my purse Your boyfriend/girlfriend husband/wife? I am poly Your hair? Slowly going gray Where is your father? Michigan and Florida Cheesecake? Yes, please, now! Your dream last night? None I think Your favorite drink? Hansens Vanilla Cherry Your dream car? Next to curb The room you're in? With the TV George Bush? Must I choose? Nipple rings? Used to have Who did you hang out with last night? Rik and Vicki What you're not good at? Asking for help Your best friend? My husband Rik Student loans? Paid off now Where did you grow up? All over country The last thing you did? I cooked dinner What are you wearing? Skirt, top, shoes Tattoo on the lower back? No, left shoulder Ketchup? Always with fries Your computer? Yay, it works Your life? Changing for better Your mood? Contemplative and quiet Missing? Only my sanity What are you thinking about right now? Is dinner burning? Your car? Needs a wash Your summer? Busy so far Your relationship status? Married, slave, lover Your favorite color? Why purple silly When is the last time you laughed? In training today Last time you cried? Sometime last week Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow? Remember, live, plan High school? I'm getting old

Psuedo-Birthday

Come sing to me this Wednesday. http://www.themunch.org/

Thank You

I appreciate the sympathy from the last post. It means a lot. Hopefully I'll cash in on those hugs soon. :)

I Didn't Know

That dogs could get cancer. http://www.petplace.com/dogs/osteosarcoma/page1.aspx We've had Cabal since 1997, and got him when he was 6 months old. He's a wolf-husky hybrid...100+ pounds & thinks he's a lapdog. According to our vet (and the info we've found on-line), dogs of his size & breed typically live 10-12 years. He's somewhere in year 11 now. Even if we did everything we could (amputate his leg & chemo), at best he would only have another year...a year filled with a lot of trials & most likely pain & confusion. I'm with Rik. http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendID=61471721&blogID=415537591 If you can't see that, go to http://www.myspace.com/perfessorevil and click on the top entry, Doggie.

Holding my breath until I turn

Your result for The Color Code Test...

Color Code: BLUE: The Social Butterfly

Here is the basics: For a more in depth analysis, I suggest you look up the Color Code, and take a more intensive test.

BLUE MOTIVE: Intimacy

BLUE NEEDS: To be good (morally), To be understood, To be appreciated, Acceptance.

BLUE WANTS: To reveal insecurities, Quality, Autonomy, Secuirity.

SUMMARY: Blues are motivated by altruism. They love to do nice things for others. they look for opportunites to give up something in order to bring another person happiness. selflessness rather than selfishness is their guiding philosophy. Blues seek intimacy. They want to be loved and to love. A true blue will sacrifice a successful career to improve an important relationship. Blues crave being understood. They are gratified when they are listened to, when they feel understood and appreciated. Blues may have thier hearts broken more than most people, but they also spend much more time in love. Blues are directed by a strong moral conscience. They have a moral code that guides them in their decision making, their value judgements, and their leisure time. A blue would rather lose than cheat. Ethically, blues are people who should be in positions of power, but seldom are.

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Baaah

How Should Your LJ Friends Comment in This Entry? LiveJournal Username How many comments have you left today? A secret must be told to you by: almus A compliment must be left by: mikeysmilinguy However, a complaint about you should be left by: zarabear Some song lyrics should be posted for you to guess, by: cuddlycthulhu Also, a memory of you should be posted by: yanijc Ten words that bring you to mind must be posted by: leggylady A haiku (5, 7, 5) should be written about you by: soulcookie An "anonymous" comment should be left by: sinicism This Fun Quiz created by Marzi at BlogQuiz.Net

Cancer Horoscope at DailyHoroscopes.Biz

King Me! Oh wait, that's checkers.

Your result for Which Chess Piece are You Test?...

The Bishop's Clerk

The Bishops Clerk is both an idea and people person. Everyone and everything is part of a bizarre cosmic whole. They really do want to help and be liked and admired by others. By principle they are intrigued by new ideas but ultimately discard most for one reason or another. They are zany with charm which can allow them to warm up to even the stodgy types. They are outgoing, fun, and they genuinely like people. This Clerk is warm and affectionate and spontaneous.

This Clerk can have strong, if unconventional convictions which are usually tied into their cosmic view. They will often use their social skills and contacts to persuade others gently of the rightness behind their views. They may tie themselves with trying to save the world and end up forgetting the nearest and dearest to them (if only in a temporary sense.)

People will love working with the Bishop’s Clerk because they are easygoing, pleasant and great at brainstorming. They are wonderful in groups of people but need fresh projects to work on. They dislike bureaucracy in principle and practice; they will make a point of launching crusades against some aspect of the political agenda. It is honesty they are fighting for. The Bishop’s Clerk is a type of Pawn, but fret not, the Pawn is idealized because of its potential to do many great things and to think of the rest of humanity.

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According to them - How I tick

Your result for The Attachment Style Test...

The Cuddleslut

You're mostly secure, but sometimes you need a little extra reassurance to make it through the tough times. You are usually affectionate and sweet, and you find it easy to fall in love. An encouraging word from a crush or a loved one can motivate you for weeks.

Fictional character with whom you might identify: Kaylee (Firefly/Serenity), Hiro Nakamura (Heroes)

Other Attachment Types:
Secure:	The Unicorn	|	The Cuddleslut	|	The Free Agent
Preoccupied:	The Cling Wrap	|	The Squid	|	The Insect
Fearful:	The Doormat	|	The Leper	|	The Exile
Dismissing:	The Hermit	|	The Stone	|	The Player
Confused:	The Waffler

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In 20 Days

I'll be 38. That gives those closest to me 2 years to plan my 40th Bash. :) In the meantime...what should I do for 38?

How Fucking Appropriate

www.tarot.com Leo Weekly Love Horoscope For the Week of Jul 7th, 2008 -- You are getting ready to rock, Leo, as magnetic Venus enters your sign on Saturday, priming the pump for romance. You may be tempted to dig up some old issues, but avoid wasting your time going over the past when the present is so full of promise. Don't make things complicated now; just have fun.

Because You Asked

More than a few people wanted the details of what happened with me & the ex. Behind the cut are all the texts & emails. It began on Live Journal 6/25/08 Vivi 11:52pm I've been thinking about it recently, actually... I want to engage in unbridled carnality with you, for hours, until we're both exhausted and dehydrated. I want to make you scream. I want to bear the bruises from your fists, the marks from your nails and teeth. I want to be taken over and spun every which way until I can hardly think through the adrenalin and serotonin. I want to scandalize my neighbors. I want to give you pleasure you will think about for days and days, and that I will be inspired to write about. For old times' sake. Or something like that. 6/26/08 Me 6:26am Or something. Unfortunately, I'm still tender enough to know that it's best to leave the past in the past for the time being. Not that the thought doesn't cross my mind now & then. And Switching to Texting Me 7:10am You sure know how to distract a girl. Vivi 7:26am Given ½ the chance, I often do! Ah, fantasy... Me 7:30am As I said earlier, it's best to leave it at just that. Vivi 7:39am I’ll defer to your better judgment, since it seems I haven’t any. Enjoy your day. Me 8:05am For what it's worth, I still love you & think about you. Vivi 8:11am Oh sweetie. That matters. We had good times together, you know. I suppose it’s easier for me to remember those than to face reality. I miss you. Me 8:15am Sometimes reality sucks. But I know how this would end. 1 or both of us would end up hurt and/or regretting everything. Vivi 8:22am Forget about reality for a little while. With me. Moving to Email Me 9:32am Rik taught me how to access this from online. Speaking of reality bites....I just got off the phone w/ my mom. She has skin cancer, near her nose. Don't know how bad....and so far they can't schedule her for surgery until 9/4 (if they're waiting that long, is that a good sign?). Vivi 9:37am Aw, jeez. Sorry to hear that! And just when your dad got good news, too. Cancer seems to be everywhere nowadays. And I don't mean to cause you any discomfort, if I did earlier. I'm feeling all nostalgic, and took the LJ opportunity when you presented it. I think you're probably right about the eventual outcome. You seem to be better at that long view than I am. But it's nice to fantasize... ::sigh:: Me 10:02am Tell me about it. 2 women at work were diagnosed w/ Breast Cancer a few months ago. No discomfort. I love you. I miss you. I wish things could be different, but right now, I know I'm not ready for that. Sunday we ran into each other at Pride, twice. She looked like she was trying to paste a smile on her face. And back to texting Me 4:12pm Do you know why I won’t say yes? Not why I left in the 1st place. Something besides. Vivi 5:04pm Tell me. I’m interested. Me 5:20pm 5 words you said to me at the end. “Heather, I have no morals.” Vivi 5:25pm I never made a secret of that. I have values and principles, not morals. Me 5:29pm Yeah but it still hurt like a slap. Plus, those words are synonymous with me, not separate concepts. Vivi 5:32pm I’m sorry it hurt you. I had no idea you didn’t know already. They’re discrete concepts for me – morals are dictated by your community. Values are chosen by me. Me 5:36pm At the time, what it said to me was that nothing mattered to you that didn’t benefit you and to hell about the rest of us. Vivi 5:47pm But that’s not how I work. At the time, it was that my choice was more important to me than your opinion about it. I understand that it hurt, but that wasn’t why. Me 6:01pm I guess it just felt more like not only did what I thought not matter, neither did I anymore. Vivi 6:14pm I don’t remember the specifics of a conversation more than a year ago, but if you still want to discuss it, we can. I’m not trying to jump back into your life – at least not all at once. I just miss being with you, and I wouldn’t mind a date. Wouldn’t say no to a scene either, but of course all that’s up to you. Hugs! Me 6:42pm I want love, passion, friendship, and to know that I’m important and that I matter. I was never totally sure of the last 2, that often with you. And back to email on 6/30/08 Me 11:15am What would we do differently...to make a 2nd go around more successful? Vivi 12:12pm I don't think we could. I can't do anything more to let you know how much I value you and care for you, and you don't seem to think it's enough. We're too dissimilar to maintain a relationship. That's not what I was aiming for, though. I miss hanging out with you, I miss the power play, I miss the sex, and I miss having you in my life. I'd be happy trying out any combo of those, but I'm not ready for an intense relationship with you, or with anyone at the moment. Especially since you don't think I put enough into a relationship with you, I want to be clear that I don't have the resources to do so. Me 7:14pm Thank you for the honesty. I appreciate it. I love you. I wish I could settle for just being 'fuck buddies'....strangely enough, if it was any other woman, I would probably be totally cool with it. You though....you are my kryptonite. You have power over me, power to make me ecstatic & power to devastate me. It took me quite a while to pick up the pieces after we parted ways. As you can tell, I'm still pretty tender when poked. You all saw yesterday's melancholy LJ post from her. Below is the exchanges springing from that. Me 7:05am Thank you for including me in the fairy tales. Vivi 7:02pm How could I not? I’m missing you and what we had, too. Just working thought the catalyst for that piece. Fond memories, though bittersweet.

She Writes

of her failed relationships. I recognized many of her past loves & lovers in her sentences. I think these parts are about me. Once upon a time, I had the confidence and the skills and the determination to make you climb the furniture. And I had the vulnerability and the courage to kneel at your feet and finally begin to understand intimacy. Once upon a time, with the look on your face seared into my mind as I lowered my mouth to feed, at last free of restriction, I felt no fear for the consequences. Once upon a time, you worn dress greens, and I went weak in the knees as soon as I laid eyes on you. Once upon a time, my hand on your upper chest, fingers spread wide and eyes locked with yours, feeling you gasp and shudder just from the nearness of me, and swelling with pride and passion, I felt in control. And then the tragic ending... So many fairytales, populated with wolves and frogs and witches and princes and princesses too charming for my own good, chosen not wisely, but often -- despite myself -- well. At least once upon a time. None of them stuck around for a happily ever after. All I have to say is if you treated any of them with even 1/2 the disregard that you gave me...it's no wonder that it all was only "once upon a time."

Honest as the Day is Long

Your result for The Best Thing About You Test...

Honesty

Honesty is the human quality of communicating and acting truthfully. This includes listening, and any action in the human repertoire — as well as speaking. And you? You cannot tell a lie. Both loved ones and strangers should trust you, because you won't (1) lie, (2) lie via omission, or (3) sit there and let lies be told. (Can you even let a sleeping dog lie?) All 7 virtues are a part of you, but your honesty runs deepest.

Your biggest risk is hurting the feelings of your most sensitive friends. However, most appreciate you for your candor.

Honest famous person: George Washington, if you believe the propaganda.

Your raw relative scores follow. 0% is low, and 100% is perfect, nearly impossible. Note that I pitted the virtues against each other, so in some way these are relative scores. It's impossible to score high on all of them, and a low score on one is just relatively low compared to the other virtues.

YOUR VIRTUES

78% Honesty

44% Intelligence

43% Courage

42% Passion

38% Humility

30% Compassion

13% Discipline

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Just Say No

For a bit over a week, my ex-girlfriend (who I broke up with a bit over a year ago) has been trying to get me to start things up with her again. Apparently she misses me, misses the power exchange & misses the sex. She's barely talked to me since we split, so...I wonder what else is missing in her life that all of the sudden makes her think it's a good idea to pursue me. The reasons I broke up are still valid. She is still lacking in morals & she still doesn't understand what she did that hurt me so much...so often. I asked her what would be different if we got back together. This is what she said - I don't think we could. I can't do anything more to let you know how much I value you and care for you, and you don't seem to think it's enough. We're too dissimilar to maintain a relationship. That's not what I was aiming for, though. I miss hanging out with you, I miss the power play, I miss the sex, I miss having you in my life. I'd be happy trying out any combo of those, but I'm not ready for an intense relationship with you, or with anyone at the moment. Especially since you don't think I put enough into a relationship with you, I want to be clear that I don't have the resources to do so. Side Note - Anyone who's read my LJ for the last 2 years knows exactly what the issues were and just how 'valued' I was. My reply - Thank you for the honesty. I appreciate it. I love you. I wish I could settle for just being 'fuck buddies'....strangely enough, if it was any other woman, I would probably be totally cool with it. You though....you are my kryptonite. You have power over me, power to make me ecstatic & power to devastate me. It took me quite a while to pick up the pieces after we parted ways. As you can tell, I'm still pretty tender when poked. Edited for clarity - the stuff below is my thought process...NOT what I sent to her. So...no, no, and no again. Until you learn to treat people with respect, to value them for who & what they are (instead of what they can do for you), when you can treat people as something more than just an interesting toy that you can pick up when you're bored & forget about when you're not.... Just no. I deserve better than that. And even though it took me too long to 'get it', I love me & I love me more than I love you. Loving me means that I have to do what's best for me...and that's not anything to do with you.