Just Say No

For a bit over a week, my ex-girlfriend (who I broke up with a bit over a year ago) has been trying to get me to start things up with her again. Apparently she misses me, misses the power exchange & misses the sex. She's barely talked to me since we split, so...I wonder what else is missing in her life that all of the sudden makes her think it's a good idea to pursue me. The reasons I broke up are still valid. She is still lacking in morals & she still doesn't understand what she did that hurt me so much...so often. I asked her what would be different if we got back together. This is what she said - I don't think we could. I can't do anything more to let you know how much I value you and care for you, and you don't seem to think it's enough. We're too dissimilar to maintain a relationship. That's not what I was aiming for, though. I miss hanging out with you, I miss the power play, I miss the sex, I miss having you in my life. I'd be happy trying out any combo of those, but I'm not ready for an intense relationship with you, or with anyone at the moment. Especially since you don't think I put enough into a relationship with you, I want to be clear that I don't have the resources to do so. Side Note - Anyone who's read my LJ for the last 2 years knows exactly what the issues were and just how 'valued' I was. My reply - Thank you for the honesty. I appreciate it. I love you. I wish I could settle for just being 'fuck buddies'....strangely enough, if it was any other woman, I would probably be totally cool with it. You though....you are my kryptonite. You have power over me, power to make me ecstatic & power to devastate me. It took me quite a while to pick up the pieces after we parted ways. As you can tell, I'm still pretty tender when poked. Edited for clarity - the stuff below is my thought process...NOT what I sent to her. So...no, no, and no again. Until you learn to treat people with respect, to value them for who & what they are (instead of what they can do for you), when you can treat people as something more than just an interesting toy that you can pick up when you're bored & forget about when you're not.... Just no. I deserve better than that. And even though it took me too long to 'get it', I love me & I love me more than I love you. Loving me means that I have to do what's best for me...and that's not anything to do with you.