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Rik found this on EBAY. It's worth clicking on. http://cgi6.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewSellersOtherItems&userid=bishop287911

Where's Valia?

As most of you know....I'm moving on August 12. I sent my new address & phone # to everyone I had an email address for. If I missed you, and you want the info.....drop me a line at mstrs_valia@yahoo.com

Paint!

So, in case anyone is curious, I've got 'virtual' pictures of the paint we're doing for the interiour of the house. These are templates from www.benjaminmoore.com, not of my actual house. http://f1.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/mstrs_valia/album?.dir=/688a&.src=ph&store=&prodid=&.done=http%3a//photos.yahoo.com/ph//my_photos

To Clarify

Just to set something straight.... My last post wasn't about me trying to fish for comments about how wonderful I may or may not be. I totally appreciate what has been said....but it wasn't quite the direction I was trying to head in. My general thought patterns when I was writing was 'how well do people know me?' Is the superficial level of my relationships my fault? Do I not trust people enough to share my genuine self with them? What are my interests? Dreams? Goals? What was my past? What do I bitch about on a regular basis? What do I hate? Like? What am I afraid of?

What do you really know?

It's a reoccurring thought that I've had often over the last 8 or so years. I'm recognized by dozens of people....call them acquaintances I guess. Some of these people have known me less than a year, many more than 5 years. Many times, I just get into this personal rant with myself...and occasionally Vicki when I need to vent. Why is it that most of my 'relationships' with people are superficial? These are people I've known for years, and I don't know anything real about them.....and they don't know anything real about me. In many cases, it's not for lack of trying. I genuinely want to get to know certain people, to be friends with them, and be a part of their lives. However, while it seems that a lot of people seem thrilled to see me at parties, they really don't have an interest in having anything to with me outside of that context. I officiated at a wedding in March....and that was the 1st time quite a few people met Rik. We've been married 10 years, I've been in the BDSM scene for 8 years, and some of the people at the wedding, I've known the whole 8 years......so what does that show me.....it shows me that quite a few people that I see monthly, if not weekly....don't know me. Part of the reason I started this journal.....was to let people in. To let people see me outside of the fetish & floggers, to see the brain, heart & soul behind the boobs. So....where am I going with this.....? I would like it if you commented on something you know about me. Something that's not a part of my profile, something that may not be obvious. I'll even give you all a start. I love to sing, and I'm pretty damn good at it. I spent 15 years in school choirs. I started as a second soprano, and then when my voice shifted at about 15, I dropped down to a tenor. There were very few males who would condescend to sing tenor.....so I ended up with a lot of solos during performances. One of the things I loved the most about being in Rocky, was that it gave me a chance to sing every weekend. Karaoke on the other hand...I'm not too good with. The 1 time I tried it, I was quaking inside. I sing with the radio all the time. I sing without it too if there's a song in my head that I'm familiar with, like Scarborough Faire.....At Baycon, I apparently surprised a few people by belting out Bohemian Rhapsody and hitting the high note. So....it's your turn. What do you know about me?

End Part I

We signed the final papers this evening. Our current residence has officially been sold, and the proceeds are being sent to their respective places. Hopefully next week, we'll sign the final papers on the new house. The moving company will be at our place in Fairfield at 9 AM on Thursday August 12. I'm still going to the renaissance faire in Marin on Saturday the 31st. Hopefully I'll see people I know there. :)

So who wants to be my prey?

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You're making me blush

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Your name is...
Your kiss is...	delicious
Your hugs are...	to die for
Your eyes...	light up a day
Your touch is...	heart warming
Your smell is...	refreshing
Your smile is...	entrancing
Your love is...	eternal
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Your True Nature by llScorpiusll
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The quality that most appeals to you:	Empathy
In a survival situation, you:	Outsmart your attacker
Your hidden talent is:	Courage
Your gift is:	Artistic talent
In groups, you:	Feel uncomfortable
Your best quality is:	Your insightfulness
Your weakness is:	Your jealous nature
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The quality that most appeals to you:	Beauty
In a survival situation, you:	Run like hell
Your hidden talent is:	A beautiful mind
Your gift is:	Physical beauty
In groups, you:	Are the entertainment
Your best quality is:	Your industriousness
Your weakness is:	Your lack of sensitivity
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Essex Hemphill

I was cleaning out a little used filing cabinet, and I came across several poems I copied years ago in college. The original author is Essex Hemphill, a renowned poet and activist who passed away on November 4, 1995 of AIDS-related complications. I heard him speak 2 times while at college. Below are 3 of his poems, from Tongues Untied, that have stayed with me all these years. Anger unvented becomes pain, unspoken becomes rage, released becomes violence Now we think as we fuck, this nut, might kill us. Silence is my shield It Crushes Silence is my cloak It smothers Silence is my sword It cuts both ways.

Sometimes it's cigar, sometimes it's a nice purple dick. :)

Freudian Inventory Results

Genital (53%) you appear to be stuck between destructive and constructive outlooks. Latency (53%) you appear to have a good balance of knowledge seeking and practicality. Phallic (66%) you appear to have issues with controlling your sexual desires and possibly fidelity. Anal (46%) you appear to have a good balance of self control and spontaneity. Oral (56%) you appear to have a good balance of independence and interdependence.

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The "you appear to have issue with controlling your sexual desire" part cracks me up. I mean, if I wasn't controlling it.....I'd be in bed with a lot more women.....at least....I think I would....if I knew of willing women that I wanted to be with. :)

JULY 31-BIRTHDAY STUFF

Well with the way things are going with the move.....it looks like I will be able to follow through with my original birthday plans. So.....Saturday July 31, 2004, NOON at the ticket gate http://www.forestfaire.com/marin/main-mc.html Any takers??

How can you tell?

Take the quiz: "What Is Your Kink?"

Domination
You are most comfortable when in control. Having someone at your beck and call makes you hot. You can be very demanding, and expect perfection! In the bedroom, you take charge. Your motto is It's My way or the highway!

Come on, don't be shy

If you and I were alone in a room together, what would we be doing?

Tap, Tap...Is This Thing On?

WE BOUGHT A HOUSE!!!!! It's 3 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, 1800 sqft in Hayward, near 880 between Industrial & Tennyson. We're signing the papers in a few moments, and should be closing in 30 days or less. That's all, you may go back to your regularly scheduled programming.

Guesses?

Instructions: Write ten statements, intended to DIFFERENT people (LJ friends). Never tell which one is to who. I'm cheating, some of these statements can be for more than 1 person. 1. You've shown strength through adversity. 2. Reading your journal gives me an insight into something I'll probably never really understand. 3. I want to know more than just what's on the surface. You're beautiful, but I want to get beyond the looks and to the person inside. 4. Take me & have your way with me....just don't hurt me. 5. You are stronger than you give yourself credit for. 6. Learn to be. Just you, without all the drama & BS that passes for a life. 7. I miss you, but since you aren't talking to me, you'll probably never know. 8. Your always striving for your dream, and I admire that. I can't wait to say "I knew you when." Damn....can only come up with 8 statements.

My Boobs

Look good decorated in chocolate sauce. Thank you to the artist & her oh so helpful assistant.....I enjoyed being dessert. :)

Details

Ok so here goes the thought process behind our move. :) We moved to Fairfield exactly 6 years ago.....and while in many ways it was a good thing for us....socially speaking, I was about ruined. Most BDSM events are in San Francisco or San Jose.....which are a good hour or more drive for me. My 'friends' were thrilled to see me at parties, but very few people wanted to make the trek up here to spend time with me. So I pretty much limited my self to going to parties a few times a month. Munches & classes were just not practical for me to get to. Rik & I have been talking about getting back to the Bay Area for a long time now. So....forward to Feburary....his company makes it official....everyone goes to Reno, or they get laid off. So we opted for the lay-off, which was on July 2. Around May, we started to seriously talk about relocating before 2005.....agreeing that we'd wait until Rik found another job. After thinking about it, I figured...fuck, why wait? We've got stellar credit, a good income history, and with Rik not working, we'd actually be able to do a move now, since he'd be home to do a lot of the work. Plus, moving closer to San Jose & san Francisco gives Rik a much larger area to look for work in. So....about 3 weeks ago, we decided to go for it, and we rented a storage unit & started packing. Since then, we've been working our butts off, we've got about 1/2 of our possessions packed & in storage and with Vicki's help last weekend, we got quite a bit of the cleaning & some minor repair work done. Last week, we got pre-approved for a $450,000.00 loan, and today the prospective buyer came over & checked the place out. He's taking it 'as-is'(meaning we don't have to worry about new carpet or paint) for $310,000.00....and considering we paid $102,000.00 for it 6 years ago....that's a damn good profit. The guy buying it is a real estate appraiser & broker (I met him at work), so now he is helping us to find a new home to buy. Side note - My birthday is July 27. At the moment, Rik & I are planning on going to the Renaissance Faire at Lake Stafford Park on the 31st to celebrate.....but depending on how this moving business goes, that might not happen. So, I'm celebrating early, this weekend at KK (those in the know, know). This is the last weekend that I can guarantee I'm free for. Everything else, until we move, is just going to be played by ear. OK....done!

GENERAL ANNOUNCEMENT

We sold our house!!! Now we start looking for a new place to buy, in the Hayward/Castro Valley area. More details to come as I get them.

Anonymous

So.....is there a way to see who the anonymous comments are really coming from? I already know about 2 who post regularly to my journal (Vicki & Rik), but this 3rd one that showed up last night.....has me a bit.....worried.

Instant Update, just add Water

Today was really tiring. I got out of bed really late because my alarm clock has broken and I cannot afford a new one at the moment. I feel good because today I getting my lip pierced! Finally! Mom said I could and she's signed the forms and EVERYTHING! I'm so happy. I just found out that I have been accepted into Harvard. And Yale. I don't know which to choose... oh, why is life so hard sometimes? Last night I had to masturbate twenty times. I'm so horny. Click here to see my website. I want to tell the world that I'm gay. I am sharpening my knives before I go to work today, because I'm going to cut out Robert's heart and feed it to him for losing my mail. Today, I got a digital camera! Yes! Here's some photos of my girlfriend in the nude (but don't tell her that I've posted them here - she'll kill me! Har har.) I want to say thanks to the world for absolutely fucking nothing! You all suck. I feel so alone, no one ever reads this journal, or even comments to let me know that I'm not suffering alone. It's cold here, and I want to die, but I cannot figure out how many of you to take with me when I go. I went to the doctor yesterday, and he said I have bipolar disorder, and a healthy imagination. You should all do this quiz! It's amazingly accurate. You just put in your name and birthday, and it will tell you next week's lottery numbers. That's enough for now. But I'll leave you with this thought - sharing your life with strangers on the internet is the cheapest form of therapy available. Leave a comment and tell me I'm beautiful. Created with the Gregor's Semi-Automatic LiveJournal Updater™. Update your journal today!
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http://hokev.brinkster.net/quiz/default.asp?quiz=Better+Personality&page=1 Wackiness: 24/100 Rationality: 38/100 Constructiveness: 50/100 Leadership: 24/100 You are an SEDF--Sober Emotional Destructive Follower. This makes you an evil genius. You are extremely focused and difficult to distract from your tasks. With luck, you have learned to channel your energies into improving your intellect, rather than destroying the weak and unsuspecting. Your friends may find you remote and a hard nut to crack. Few of your peers know you very well--even those you have known a long time--because you have expert control of the face you put forth to the world. You prefer to observe, calculate, discern and decide. Your decisions are final, and your desire to be right is impenetrable. You are not to be messed with. You may explode.