Saturday, July 24, 2004

What do you really know?

It's a reoccurring thought that I've had often over the last 8 or so years. I'm recognized by dozens of people....call them acquaintances I guess. Some of these people have known me less than a year, many more than 5 years. Many times, I just get into this personal rant with myself...and occasionally Vicki when I need to vent. Why is it that most of my 'relationships' with people are superficial? These are people I've known for years, and I don't know anything real about them.....and they don't know anything real about me. In many cases, it's not for lack of trying. I genuinely want to get to know certain people, to be friends with them, and be a part of their lives. However, while it seems that a lot of people seem thrilled to see me at parties, they really don't have an interest in having anything to with me outside of that context. I officiated at a wedding in March....and that was the 1st time quite a few people met Rik. We've been married 10 years, I've been in the BDSM scene for 8 years, and some of the people at the wedding, I've known the whole 8 years......so what does that show me.....it shows me that quite a few people that I see monthly, if not weekly....don't know me. Part of the reason I started this journal.....was to let people in. To let people see me outside of the fetish & floggers, to see the brain, heart & soul behind the boobs. So....where am I going with this.....? I would like it if you commented on something you know about me. Something that's not a part of my profile, something that may not be obvious. I'll even give you all a start. I love to sing, and I'm pretty damn good at it. I spent 15 years in school choirs. I started as a second soprano, and then when my voice shifted at about 15, I dropped down to a tenor. There were very few males who would condescend to sing tenor.....so I ended up with a lot of solos during performances. One of the things I loved the most about being in Rocky, was that it gave me a chance to sing every weekend. Karaoke on the other hand...I'm not too good with. The 1 time I tried it, I was quaking inside. I sing with the radio all the time. I sing without it too if there's a song in my head that I'm familiar with, like Scarborough Faire.....At Baycon, I apparently surprised a few people by belting out Bohemian Rhapsody and hitting the high note. So....it's your turn. What do you know about me?

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