In case you weren't paying attention

On 11/4/07, I posted my goals for my Best Year Yet Pt. 3. Goal # 6 was - Keep trying to speak my mind, even if it's going to hurt. On 11/11, I had my first good occasion to put Goal 6 to the test, and informed someone of just how amazingly irritating that I found them. In February, I had a really good opportunity to set a few people straight all in a 24 hour period with regards to some things they were doing to/with/around me that I didn't like. I still feel close to what I did when I made this post in March. http://valiaderekin.livejournal.com/216422.html But lately, sometimes, I don't really care about trying to be nice about it. I suppose it depends on my mood. If I'm tired/cranky already...I'm not really in the mood as it is to be all nicey-nice. When someone does something that gets under my skin...I've let them have it with both barrels. And you know what...I kind of like it. I kind of like the fact that I'm just saying 'fuck it' and letting my unvarnished thoughts/feelings out. Sometimes, I'm just sick & tired of always been the nice one. And in the general idea of speaking my mind, I did make this post http://valiaderekin.livejournal.com/235101.html No I haven't directed it AT anyone, but some of the women who can read it, are the women I've had (still have) crushes on, so I think it was brave of me to even have it in here at all. I think, (maybe) for a while though, when it comes to things in life that hurt me, irritate me, or make me just feel/think things in a negative way....I think, I might just continue the not so nice route. While I'm not really fond of being The Bitch...it does seem to get the point across so much better than trying to tip-toe around and spare people's feelings. I don't know, this still bears thinking upon. I know there's a solution between nicey-nice & Uber Bitch, and sooner or later, I'll find where that spot is for me. For now...(shrug) you get what you get...honesty. Maybe not pretty, maybe not nice, maybe not what you were expecting given your past interactions with me...but at least it's real I'm not the same person I was a year or 2 ago, and I think that's a good thing. I think the long & the short of it is, if you were able to get me to roll over, to get me to do what you wanted, or you just knew that I'd put up with crap again & again...don't take that as a given anymore.