Anyone Know Who I Fancy?

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Percentage of your friends you've kissed	91.67%
Percentage of your friends you've sexed	8.33%
Percentage of your friends you fancy	58.33%
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Got Ink?

Rik's parents gave me $200 for a holiday present. So I decided to spent part of it on Tattoo #5. The link below will take you to the design I spent a few hours creating in Photoshop. I got it done today, started at about 5, done about 6. Left shoulder/bicep, about as large as the celtic 4-leaf clover on my right arm. http://profiles.yahoo.com/mstrs_valia It was done at Tatt Magiks Tattoo in Fairfield, by Adriel Leddy. http://www.geocities.com/tatt_magiks_tattoos/ if anyone wants to see other examples of his work.

I may *be* Drama, but I Hate having it in my Life

You are Drama. You are extroverted and like to show off, but can
be very subtle and intelligent when you want.
As an expert at story-telling, you love
attention and have developed the skill of
keeping it. You get along well with Literature and Film.

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Core Dump

Things have been swirling around in my head for days now. I was advised just to let it be, to not air my dirty laundry...so I'm compromising. Only select people are able to read this. I just need to get it all out, before it festers & creates more trouble than there already has been. She tells me that I must choose between her friendship or my relationship with my lover of 8 months. What friendship? You mean this thing we've had for the last 2 years? This thing where if you don't get your way, you'll try to bulldoze & intimidate me? This thing where you bitch, whine & moan about how horrible your work life is, your home life, your love life.....but heaven forbid if I should want a shoulder to lean on too. Then you rant at me and tell me that you're sick of listening to all my bitching. MY bitching? MY Bitching? Fuck that. I've been listening to you for months now. All I hear is how everything that is wrong...it's not your fault. Never your fault. You're innocent, pristine. How could the world not love you? I heard a saying a long time ago. I don't remember the correct words, but the general gist of it was that if you are the common denominator in all your failures....then maybe it is you that is the problem, not the rest of the world. Own your own shit. Take responsibility for your actions, your mistakes. Apologize once in a while, you expect it from everyone else....but I've never heard you utter the words "I'm sorry." No...what you do is condemn everyone. You spew venom about anyone you think has done you wrong. You claim to work Black Magic on them, hoping that their world will turn into something as miserable as yours. You do your best to ruin their reputation....when it's your own reputation that's actually suffering. You are not the darling of the community. You are not as well liked and respected by other people as you think you are. You're not E.F. Hutton. When you talk, people just let it go in 1 ear and out the other. For the last 8 months, you've been whispering in my ear, telling me all the bad things about my girl. She's needy, she's clingy, she whines, she's demanding, she lies, she'll be perfect for me, and then suddenly change. She'll try to get between me & my husband, and between me & my slave. Hell, I admit that my lover & I haven't had the easiest relationship, but you know...we're working on it. We love each other and we're doing what we can to make things better between us, for us. Couldn't you have just once been happy for me? Or is it that you are just so damned miserable with your own existence, that you can't handle other people being happy & so you have to try to ruin their happiness? My lover was never rude to you. She was polite, period. What the fuck did you expect? Because she was your submissive over a year ago...do you think that entitles you to her submission forever? Was she supposed to fall to her knees and kiss your boots when you walked into the room? Being submissive does not mean that she is submissive to everyone, or anyone for that matter. She submits to who she wants. It's her choice, it's always been her choice. I knew you had issues with her. I did what I could to smooth those over. I insisted that she talk to you and try to work things out. She seemed to think things were on an even keel with you....and up until recently, you acted like they were too. Then, because she doesn't fawn all over you and kiss your ass...she's someone you now have to threaten me about? It's her or me you say. I told you before, if I leave her, it will be because I don't like her, not because you don't. Ya know, this shouldn't even be between you & I, it should be between you & her. She is the one you claim to have a problem with. Yet somehow, I am the one who's getting dragged in. You say that her attitude reflects on me, and that it shows people what a lousy Master I am? Yes, I'm so lousy that my primary slave has had to suffer with me through 7 hellish years, chained to my side & unable to get out of this horrible mess she is in. She tells me that I must choose between her friendship or my relationship with my lover of 8 months. People who are truly close to me know that I do not like ultimatums. Only 1 person in my life has the right to tell me who I can or can not be close to, and that is my husband. You tell me to choose. Well honey, I believe you've already made my choice for me. I sincerely wish you a successful & happy life, but it is high time that my feet take me down a different road & away from you.

To the Pros

I've got 2 questions & I thought I'd put it 'out there' before trying to actually search for the answers. :) #1 - Where are the instructions on how to make locked posts? #2 - Is there a way to see *who* is reading your journal?

My Quiz Answers

So, who got which answers wrong? Question: What is my real name? Correct answer: Heather (10 points) Question: How long have I been married? Correct answer: almost 10 years (10 points) Question: What is my degree in? Correct answer: Psychology (10 points) Question: What is my current career? Correct answer: Human Resources (10 points) Question: What is my future career? Correct answer: Owning a bookstore (10 points) Question: Where did I grow up? Correct answer: All over the US (10 points) Question: When is my birthday? Correct answer: July 27 (10 points) Question: What is my natural hair color? Correct answer: brown (10 points) Question: How many tattoos do I have? Correct answer: 4 (10 points) Question: Where are the tattoos? Correct answer: Chest, back, Arm (10 points)

Limp Bizkit

These are a few of my current faves....don't read anything into my choice, I'm just blathering to be blathering. Although, I do have to admit that they can be insightful sometimes. My Way Special, you think your special. You do, I can see it in your eyes. I can see it when you laugh at me. Look down on me and, you walk around on me. Just one more fight about your leadership. And I will straight up leave your shit. Cause i`ve had enough of this. And now i'm pissed (yeah) This time i'm a let it all come out. This time i'm a stand up and shout. I'm a do things my way, it's my way, My way or the highway. This time i'm a let it all come out. This time i'm a stand up and shout. I'm a do things my way, it's my way, My way or the highway. Just one more fight about a lotta things. And I will give up everything. To be on my own again, Free again. This time i'm a let it all come out. This time i'm a stand up and shout. I'm a do things my way, it's my way, My way or the highway. This time i'm a let it all come out. This time i'm a stand up and shout. I'm a do things my way, it's my way, My way or the highway. Someday you'll see things my way. Cause you never know, no ya never know. When your gonna go. Someday you'll see things my way. Cause you never know, no ya never know. When your gonna go. Just one more fight and i'll be history. Yes I will straight up leave your shit. And you'll be the one who's left. Missing me (yeah). This time i'm a let it all come out. This time i'm a stand up and shout. I'm a do things my way, it's my way, My way or the highway. This time i'm a let it all come out. This time i'm a stand up and shout. I'm a do things my way, it's my way, My way or the highway. Someday you'll see things my way. Cause you never know, when ya never know. When your gonna go. Someday you'll see things my way. Cause you never know, when ya never know. Rearranged Lately I've been skeptical. Silent when I would used to speak. Distance from all around me. Who witness me fail and become weak. Life is overwhelming. Heavy is the head that wears the crown. I'd love to be the one to disappoint you when I don't fall down. But you don't understand when I'm attempting to explain. Because you know it all and I guess things will never change. But you might need my hand when falling in your hole. Your disposition I'll remember when I'm letting go. You and me we're through. And rearranged. It seems that you're not satisfied. There's too much on your mind. So you leave and I can't believe all the bullshit that I find. Life is overwhelming. Heavy is the head that wears the crown. I'd love to be the one to disappoint you when I don't fall down. But you don't understand when I'm attempting to explain. Because you know it all and I guess things will never change. But you might need my hand when falling in your hole. Your disposition I'll remember when I'm letting go. You and me we're through. And rearranged. You're no good. For me. Thank God its over. You make believe. That nothing is wrong until you're cryin'. You make believe. That life is so long until you're dyin'. You make believe. That nothing is wrong until you're cryin'. Cryin' on me. You make believe. That life is so long until you're dyin'. Dyin' on me! You think everybody's the same. You think that everybody's the same. I don't think that anybody's like you (You ruin everything and you kept fuckin' with me until its over and I won't) You think that everybody's the same. I don't think that anybody's like you. Be the same. Just think about it. You'll get it. Almost Over Learned how to rap as a little boy. Took alot of crap as a little boy. Always had to fight back as a little boy. Always under attack as a little boy. Never got good grades as a little boy. I was locked in a cage as a little boy. Still i never was afraid as a little boy. I was feedin' my rage as a little boy. It's time to blow they minds. Learned how to lose as an older man. Sang alot of blues as an older man. But i saw it all through as an older man. Put together my crew as an older man. Felt alot of pain as an older man. I established my name as an older man. People piss on my game as an older man. Ain't nothin' gonna change as an older man. It's time to blow they minds now, baby. It's time to blow they minds now, baby. Come on and cry now, baby. Ya'll know it's my time now, baby. Come on! Who that is? what it say? Who that is? what it say? Who that is? what it say? What it look like? What it look like, baby? Who that is? what it say? Who that is? what it say? Who that is? what it say? What it look like? What it look like, baby? Got treated like a clown as a little boy. Kept my feet on the ground as a little boy. When you're living in a dream as a little boy. Ain't nothing like it seems as a little boy. I was hatin' on the world as a little boy I was lovin' all the girls as a little boy. I was into punk rock as a little boy. I was breakin' non-stop as a little boy. It's time to blow they minds. Got treated like a chump as an older man. Mixin' rock with the funk as an older man. Learned what a girl was as an older man. Now i know how to love as an older man. But i'm still a big kid as an older man. And i'de much rather give as an older man. Still i'm singin' in the rain as an older man. Ain't nothin' gonna change as an older man. It's time to blow they minds now, baby. It's time to blow they minds now, baby. Come on and cry now, baby. Ya'll know it's my time now, baby. Come on! Who that is? what it say? Who that is? what it say? Who that is? what it say? What it look like? What it look like, baby? Who that is? what it say? Who that is? what it say? Who that is? what it say? What it look like? What it look like, baby? My life is one big dream. I'm lost in what it means. Don't wake me up 'cause it's almost over. These voices in my mind. Keep telling me it's time. To wake me up 'cause it's almost over. It's time to blow they minds now, baby. It's time to blow they minds now, baby. Come on and cry now, baby. Ya'll know it's my time now, baby. It's time to blow they minds now, baby. It's time to blow they minds now, baby. Come on and cry now, baby. Ya'll know it's my time now, baby. Come on! Who that is? what it say? Who that is? what it say? Who that is? what it say? What it look like? What it look like, baby? My life is one big dream. I'm lost in what it means. Don't wake me up 'cause it's almost over. These voices in my mind. Keep telling me it's time. To wake me up 'cause it's almost over. Who that is? what it say? Who that is? what it say? Who that is? what it say? What it look like? What it look like, baby? The One I'm dead from all the loneliness. And this is how I feel. Understanding everything. Has never been my deal. Maybe you have crossed my path. To live inside of me. Or maybe you're the reason. Why i'm losing all my decency. But I believe that you and me. We could be so happy and free. Inside a world of misery. And I believe that you and me we could be so... Inside of you inside of me cuz. This could be the one. This could be the one. This could be the one. This could be the one. I've been lookin' lookin, lookin'. I've been lookin' for my Mrs. Right. But she don't exist. Chemistry is everything. And we're anything but this. Maybe I have crossed your path. To sweep you off your feet. Or maybe i'm the reason. Why you cry at night before you sleep. But I believe that you and me. Could be so happy and free. Inside a world of misery. And I believe that you and me we could be so... Inside of you inside of me cuz. This could be the one. This could be the one. This could be the one. This could be the one. What do you think? We could give it a try. 'Cause you never know. Maybe we could be soul mates. But maybe not or maybe so. If you never try then you'll never know. The grass could be greener (could be). And it'll always be greener on the other side. But you just never know. This could be the one. I do believe that you and me. We could be so happy and free. Inside a world of misery. And I believe that you and me, we could be so... Inside of you inside of me `cause. This could be the one. This could be the one. This could be the one. This could be the one. Maybe so. Maybe not. Who knows?

Do you even know me?

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Tis The Season

So, I leave my home around 6PM to go to a BDSM party. What do I find when I get home at 4AM?? A real Xmas tree, with lights & 1 present under it. We've been in this house for 5.5 years and have never had a real tree. 2 years ago, I got one of the 2' tall ones with the fiber optics, and that sits on our entertainment center year-round. Come to think of it, I'm not sure if we've ever had a real tree. This will be the first time since we've been together (July 1993) that we have been in our own home for Xmas. Usually we're in Chico at Rik's brothers' house, or in San Jose at his parents'.....and a few random winter trips to ski cabins with the whole dang family, and 1 trip to Rik's sisters' place in Michigan (snow snow snow, lots of snow). No family....no travelling....no hassle. I think we need to make this a new tradition.

Stolen From MsLuLu

Here's the deal: 1. Copy this whole list into your journal. 2. Bold the things that you have in common with me. 3. Whatever you don't bold, replace with things about you. 01. When I was younger, the person I am now was buried deep inside. 02. I believe people can change in large & small ways if they really want to. 03. I tend to remember the dumbest things - like TV episodes, lyrics to 80's songs and such. 04. I love to dance, but I'm not very good at it. 05. Home is security and stability to me. 06. Sometimes I wonder if anyone understands. 07. I hate when people type in all caps online. 08. I loathe short-hand computer speak with the passion of a billion supernovas. (a/s/l?, UR cumming? UR4me) 09. I mind people who don't speak/write in proper English if it's their native language. 10. I wish I were bilingual....especially spanish, I could get paid more. 11. I tend to lose interest in things that I'm not naturally good at. 12. I am excited about my job and the future it could lead me to. 13. Sometimes it's hard for me to deal with personalities substantially different than mine. 14. I prefer to share my past with people I care about. 15. I am generally at peace with who I am. 16. I sometimes wonder how my life might be different if my parents hadn't divorced. 17. I tend to wake once during the night to go to the bathroom. 18. I have a lot to learn. 19. It sometimes doesn't take a lot to cause tears. 20. I check my email several times a day to see if I got new email. 21. I write well, but I don't like writing unless it's something I'm passionate about. 22. Sometimes I just need to be by myself. 23. I think too many people make excuses for their behavior instead of taking responsibility for being a bitch/asshole. 24. I have never really felt like I fit in. 25. I hate having to worry about money. 26. I think this society could do more to enable people to find jobs, instead of being on welfare. 27. I recognize that I can be a bit bitchy at times. 28. I'm a weird person. 29. I wonder when Nice became a bad thing to be. 30. I'm somewhat apathetic about the state of the nation and its population. 31. I'd like to make a positive different in at least 1 persons' life. 32. I collect Barbies. 33. I fill out memes and quizzes primarily because I'm bored, but sometimes because I secretly hope you care. 34. Bratty kids irritate me, but their parents usually irritate me more. 35. I enjoy disturbing movies more than most people I know. 36. I have very few superstitions. 37. I'm a night person. 38. There's a limit to how long I'm willing to listen to someone's problems if they never seem to make an effort to fix them. 39. I have tattoos. 40. I believe that, subconsciously, most people fall into the pack mentality. 41. I like to be flattered, admired, and stroked. But it embarrasses me, too. 42. I like people who are a bit out of the ordinary. 43. I like giving other people a lift, with compliments or affection. 44. I hate to see children suffer. 45. I hate when good ideas get warped beyond recognition into extremism. 46. I hate doing chores. 47. I don't care if I'm fashionable or trendy. 48. I'm aware that some of my answers probably contradict each other, because I feel differently at different times. 49. I wonder if anyone will read this list through. 50. I want to instantly and effortlessly have enough money to make the concept of money meaningless to me. 51. I have old-fashioned ideas of what it really means to be a friend. 52. I dislike holiday commercialism. 53. The best part about the holidays is spending time loved ones. 54. I try to avoid unpleasant confrontations. 55. I like being alone sometimes. 56. I not as picky about what I eat as I used to be. 57. I don't like being alone at social functions. 58. I need to exercise. 59. I like when my friends write me letters and emails, it makes me feel special. 60. I'm pessimistic and cynical sometimes. 61. I am too trusting. 62. I can't understand what the big deal is sometimes. 63. Some people think I have a tendency to overreact about things. 64. I love to look at nature. 65. I'm trying to let go of old scars and grudges. 66. I believe that talking about problems can help to resolve them. 67. I believe everyone can cure their own problems if they really work at it, rather than saying "This is how I am / this is how life is." 68. I like some porn. 69. I think GW Bush is pretty damn bad, but not the worst possible President the US could have at this time. 70. There is more about me than I could ever fit on a list like this. 71. I dislike rainy weather. 72. Mild drunkenness is ok, but people who get completely wasted can really annoy me. 73. I'm online a fair amount. 74. I know a lot of stuff that I never intended to learn. 75. I have moved many times in my life. 76. I have to remind myself sometimes that if a friend makes a choice I don't agree with or approve of, that's not their problem. 77. I *need* to read. 78. I can read a book multiple times. It's like an old friend. 79. I'm think I've been getting enough sleep these days. 80. I tend be easy to irritate. 81. I try to be easy to deal with. I think I fail. 82. I've had my heart broken. 83. I'm almost making enough money that I can get by without a problem. 84. I'm not very close my family. 85. I'm stubborn about a few specific things, but otherwise fairly malleable. 86. I'm happy with where my life is right now, but I'm not sure which direction my future is going in. 87. I don't understand why anyone in their right mind would oppose gay civil marriage. 88. I'm rarely jealous of my friends - I want to see them do well and succeed. 89. I am extremely skeptical of the efficacy of our democracy, but I vote anyway. 90. I hate having the feeling that I'm not going to go anywhere in life. 91. I love the smell of wood smoke. 92. I believe that opportunities are always available to those who look for them. 93. I try to believe that everything will work out for the best, even if it doesn't seem that way. 94. I never expect to fully understand my place in this world. 95. I wish people would actually take joy in learning. 96. I wish people would be more polite, more gentle, more careful with their words. 97. I can't stand rude people. 98. I am always striving to be my truest self. 99. I wish America wasn't so enamored of stupidity. 100. I am done with this survey now.

Bow Your Heads in Prayer

You may now address me as Reverend Cary. http://www.ulc.org/index.php?destination=main&numina=921060829

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you are mediumvioletred #C71585

Your dominant hues are red and blue. You're confident and like showing people new ideas. You play well with others and can be very influential if you want to be. Your saturation level is very high - you are all about getting things done. The world may think you work too hard but you have a lot to show for it, and it keeps you going. You shouldn't be afraid to lead people, because if you're doing it, it'll be done right. Your outlook on life is brighter than most people's. You like the idea of influencing things for the better and find hope in situations where others might give up. You're not exactly a bouncy sunshine but things in your world generally look up.

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I'm a Kinky Cartoon.

You are: CATWOMAN!

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Veddy Eenterestingk

http://www.mindmedia.com/brainworks/profiler Your Brain Usage Profile Auditory : 25% Visual : 75% Left : 50% Right : 50% Valia, you exhibit an even balance between left- and right- hemisphere dominance and a slight preference for visual over auditory processing. With a score this balanced, it is likely that you would have slightly different results each time you complete this self-assessment quiz. You are a well-rounded person, distinctly individualistic and artistic, an active and multidimensional learner. At the same time, you are logical and disciplined, can operate well within an organization, and are sensitive towards others without losing objectivity. You are organized and goal-directed. Although a "thinking" individual, you "take in" entire situations readily and can act on intuition. You sometimes tend to vacillate in your learning styles. Learning might take you longer than someone of equal intellect, but you will tend to be more thorough and retain the material longer than those other individuals. You will alternate between logic and impulse. This vacillation will not normally be intentional or deliberate, so you may experience anxiety in situations where you are not certain which aspect of yourself will be called on. With a slight preference for visual processing, you tend to be encompassing in your perceptions, process along multidimensional paths and be active in your attacking of situations or learning. Overall, you should feel content with your life and yourself. You are, perhaps, a little too critical of yourself -- and of others -- while maintaining an "openness" which tempers that tendency. Indecisiveness is a problem and your creativity may not be in keeping with your potential. Being a pragmatist, you downplay this aspect of yourself and focus on the more immediate, obvious and the more functional.

One of my Favorites

I was listening to KSJO last night, on my way to The Scenery (www.thescenery.org) and I heard this song come on. It's something I've always liked listening to & singing....and still remember the lyrics after all these years. For many years, music was a big part of my life. I was in choir from K-12, and took a few singing classes at De Anza. I'm a good singer, but I have the sense to know that I couldn't make a career out of it. I *love* rock music, but my voice is classically trained....hardly a compatible mix, unless I want to get into pop, country or love songs. I miss being part of a choir. I miss letting my voice rise above the others & having the appreciation of those listening to me. Every now & then I toss around the idea of joining a choir, but it seems that most of them are religious/church based...which is just a direction I'm incapable of going in. I sometimes think 1 of the reasons I stayed with RHPS so long was that it was a guaranteed opportunity to sing once a week in front of a crowd. November Rain by Guns N' Roses When I look into you eyes I can see a love restrained But darlin' when I hold you Don't you know I feel the same 'Cause nothin' lasts forever And we both know hearts can change And it's hard to hold a candle In the cold November rain We've been through this such a long long time Just tryin' to kill the pain But lovers always come and lovers always go And no one's really sure who's lettin' go today Walking away If we could take the time to lay it on the line I could rest my head Just knowin' that you were mine All mine So if you want to love me then darlin' don't refrain Or I'll just end up walkin' In the cold November rain Do you need some time ...on your own Do you need some time ...all alone Everybody needs some time ... on their own Don't you know you need some time ...all alone I know it's hard to keep an open heart When even friends seem out to harm you But if you could heal a broken heart Wouldn't time be out to charm you Sometimes I need some time ...on my own Sometimes I need some time ...all alone Everybody needs some time ... on their own Don't you know you need some time ...all alone And when your fears subside And shadows still remain I know that you can love me When there's no one left to blame So never mind the darkness We still can find a way 'Cause nothin' lasts forever Even cold November rain Don't ya think that you need somebody Don't ya think that you need someone Everybody needs somebody You're not the only one You're not the only one

Me me me me me

http://www.paulsadowski.com/birthday.asp You entered: 7/27/1970 You were born on a Monday under the astrological sign Leo. Your Life path number is 6. The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2440794.5. The golden number for 1970 is 14. The epact number for 1970 is 22. The year 1970 was not a leap year. As of 11/20/2003 11:43:12 PM CST You are 33 years old. You are 400 months old. You are 1,738 weeks old. You are 12,169 days old. You are 292,079 hours old. You are 17,524,783 minutes old. You are 1,051,486,992 seconds old. There are 250 days till your next birthday and 35 days till Christmas! The moon's phase on the day you were born was waning crescent. Moon's age (days): 23 Distance (Earth radii): 60.99 Percent Illumination 35.16% Ecliptic latitude (degrees): 4.97 Ecliptic longitude (degrees): 58.35 6 The Life Path 6 indicates that very prominent in your nature is a strong sense of responsibility. You are idealistic and must feel useful to be happy. The main contribution you make is that of advice, service and ever present support. This is the Life Path related to leadership by example and assumption of responsibility, thus, it is your obligation to pick up the burden and always be ready to help. The Life Path 6 is one who is compelled to function with strength and compassion, a sympathetic and kind person, generous with personal and material resources. Wisdom, balance, and understanding are the cornerstones of this Life Path. Your extraordinary wisdom and the ability to understand the problems of others is apt to commence from an early age allowing you to easily span the generation gap and assume an important role in life early on. While the 6 may assume huge responsibilities in the community, the life revolves around the immediate home and family, for this is the most domestic of numbers. Most with Life Path 6 are the positive types who willingly carry far more than their fair share of the load and are always there when needed. You are very human and realistic about life, and you feel that the most important thing in your life is the home, family and friends. The number 6 Life Path actually produces few negative examples, but there are some pitfalls peculiar to the path. Avoid a tendency to become overwhelmed by responsibilities and a slave to others. Also, avoid being too critical (of yourself or of others). The misuse of this Life Path produces tendencies towards exaggeration, over-expansiveness, and self-righteousness. Imposing one's views in an interfering or meddling way must be an issue of concern. The natural burdens of this number are heavy, and on rare occasions, responsibility is abdicated by persons with this Life Path 6. This rejection of responsibility will make you feel very guilty and uneasy, and it will have very damaging effects upon your relationships with others.

Be Afraid, Very Afraid

YOU are the danger. Dragon, big bad wolf, spider, snake. whatever form
suits you best. you ARE the scary. 'nough said.

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The quote below is from a friend of mine, http://www.livejournal.com/userinfo.bml?user=courtneydisney, and really summed up something I've been trying to express for months. Being submissive doesn't mean you can't have an opinion - by all means have them, and express them, though it may be overridden. Whenever I ask for opinions, preferences, thoughts, or whatnot....I'm not asking to hear myself talk, and I'm definitely not asking so that I can hear someone parrot back to me what they think I want to hear. If you think that your going to end up disagreeing with me, or expressing something unpleasant that I might not want to hear, that's OK! Just say what you want to say in a respectful manner, and I'll more than likely be totally ok with it. Having a difference of opinion is acceptable & expected. Arguing with me, in a disrespectful manner is not. There's a difference between debating & arguing. One is rational, the other is emotional. The emotional form usually accomplishes nothing but making all parties concerned hurt & upset.

My Month is ME

If you wish to participate, go to this link http://www.livejournal.com/users/mindlesswh0re/4070.html and fetch the paragraph for the month of your birth. Post it to your journal and strike out any text that doesn't apply to you. Since I don't know how the "strike-out" works, I'll just add comments where needed. JULY: Fun to be with. I think so at times, my friends would be a better judge of this. Secretive. In general, yes. With people I trust, I'll tell them anything about me that they want to know. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. I often feel this way. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Um, no. Takes pride in oneself. I try to, but with low self esteem, it's not easy. Has reputation. Yes, and a rather bad one if certain people are to be believed. Easily consoled. Depends on the method of consolation. Honest. To a fault Concerned about people's feelings. Many times to the detriment of my own. Tactful. I try to be Friendly. Generally, unless someone gets on my bad side. Approachable. I don't know. Some people say I'm not. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Yes, yes & yes Moody and easily hurt. See last comment. Witty and sparkly. I am? Not revengeful. I think of & plot revenge, but rarely do anything. Forgiving but never forgets. YES! Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. If you mean Monty Python, yes. Unicorns & Fairies, no. Guides others physically and mentally. I am a Top/Dom. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Quite. Caring and loving. To a fault. Treats others equally. I try to, in the mundane world. Strong sense of sympathy. Yes, sometimes to a fault. Wary and sharp. Wary, yes. Sharp....If that's a synonym for intelligent, yes. Judges people through observations. YES! I don't believe in just listening to rumors, I try to find out what a person is from my own dealings with them. Hardworking. Is there any other way? I don't give less than 100%. No difficulties in studying. Actually, I'm a total procrastinator. Loves to be alone. HATE IT!!!! Always broods about the past and the old friends. I wouldn't say always. Likes to be quiet. Occasionally. Homely person. If this means unattractive....no, not really. Waits for friends. Of course. Never looks for friends. Change never to always. Not aggressive unless provoked. Not really, I'm aggressive whenever the situation calls for it. Have to get my way somehow. :) Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Unfortunately, this is true. Loves to be loved. NEEDS to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover. Very true.

Silly Quiz for you all to do. :)

1. What time is it? 7:09 pm 2. Name? Valia Derekin 3. Name on Birth Certificate? Heather Colleen O'Brien 4. Nickname? Valia, Mistress, Ma'am 5. Number of candles on your last birthday cake? 33 6. Pets? Cabal-Wolf/Husky hybrid, Tye-Calico cat 7. Natural Hair Color? light brown 8. What friend will have the most entertaining answers? Kiri 9. Eye Color? blue, sometimes green or grey depending on mood, weather, clothing 10. How much do you love your job? I wouldn't say I love it, but it *is* something I do well & enjoy doing 11. Birth Place? Roscommon, Michigan 12. Residence? Fairfield, California 13. Favorite food? Chinese, Seafood 14. Ever been to Africa? Nope 15. Love someone so much it made you cry? Yes 16. Been in a car accident? 2 major, several minor 17. Croutons or Bacon Bits? bacon bits, preferably real ones, not Bac-O's 18. Favorite day of the week? Saturday 19. Favorite word or phrase? Oh really? 20. Favorite Restaurant? Red Lobster or Johnny Carino's 21. Favorite Flower? Sterling Silver Roses, lilacs 22. Favorite sport to play? None 23. Favorite drink? Cream Soda 24. Favorite Fast food restaurant? Burger King or Kentucky Fried Chicken 25. Favorite Ice cream? Hagen Daz Midnight Cookies & Cream 26. What color is your bedroom carpet? greyish 27. Besides this one, who sent you your last e-mail? My husbands' ex-girlfriend from 15 years ago. 28. In which store would you choose to max out your credit card? Hot Topic, Torrid 29. What do you do most often when you are bored? Read 30. Most annoying thing people ask/tell me? Mistress, may I serve you? (coming from males) 31. Bedtime? 11:00 PM 32. Who will respond to this e-mail the quickest? Couldn't say 33. Who is the person you sent this to that is least likely to respond? Didn't send it, copied it from CJ's LJ. 34. Favorite TV Show? WWE RAW, Smackdown, Whose Line is it, Drew Carey, I'm with Her 35. Favorite Movie? Gone With the Wind 36. Last person you went out to dinner with? My husband 37. Ford or Chevy? Neither. Chrysler PT Cruiser 38. What's your favorite family ritual? None, I'm not really a 'family' person. 39. Who is your favorite music group? Metallica, Limp Bizkit, Staind, Linkin Park 40. How high are your highest heels? 4" but I can't wear them now. 41. What's under your bed? Storage containers 42. If your family was snowed in, what would you do? My husband would ski, I would either read or play in the snow. 43. If you could get rid of one weekly item on your schedule, what would it be? Nothing. 44. If you could add one weekly item to your schedule,what would it be? More time to see my friends 45. Time you finished this e-mail? 7:30 PM

Where's Valia?

I'm trying to get all my Livejournal friends' locations plotted on a map - please add your location starting with this form. Username: (Then get your friends to!)

I'm in Good Company (Kiri)

You are the 1939 Dusenberg Simone Coupe.
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Lick me, Eat me, Suck on me

You are glucose. People feed off of you. You are
sweet, caring, and a source of energy for
everyone around you. You can inspire others
with your creativity and depth, and you can
keep people alive when in times of famine.
People love you...or at least the way you
taste.

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Gimme Candy!

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
ValiaDerekin goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Renaissance Wench.
dafydd gives you 7 light yellow pineapple-flavoured gumdrops.
dr_moni gives you 9 purple watermelon-flavoured gummy fruits.
emeraldas tricks you! You lose 1 pieces of candy!
hamonryeguy gives you 7 dark green root beer-flavoured gumdrops.
kshandra gives you 5 light blue root beer-flavoured gumdrops.
leggylady tricks you! You lose 18 pieces of candy!
mslulu gives you 8 light green raspberry-flavoured gummy fruits.
mzmtnlion gives you 11 light yellow root beer-flavoured gummies.
ponyspirit tricks you! You get a used tissue.
velvetnsatin gives you 12 mauve grapefruit-flavoured nuggets.
ValiaDerekin ends up with 40 pieces of candy, and a used tissue.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
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Offer up your Prayers Unto Me

You're the nun chick.

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Tribe Net

Anyone else on Tribe Net? Come fine me. :) http://cluster.tribe.net/tribe/servlet/template/pub%2Cpcard%2CPeopleCard.vm?personid=9a0fafaf-1d99-4326-903e-17c8eb08d7b6

It's all about me baby!

You will notice that some of these tests are the same. It's funny how the same *type* of questions, worded slightly different will get slightly different resposes, and therefore have slightly different overall results.

ENTJ - "Field Marshall". The basic driving force and need is to lead. Tend to seek a position of responsibility and enjoys being an executive. 1.8% of total population.

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http://alabe.com/freechart/ Rising Sign is in 26 Degrees Scorpio You tend to be quiet, reserved, secretive and, at times, quite difficult to understand. Others notice your deep emotions and feelings and wonder how to draw you out. Stubborn and tough, you fight for any position you believe in. You are very resourceful and formidable when you become angered or upset about something. You enjoy living life at the cutting edge -- for you life must be experienced intensely and totally. Quite courageous, you are willing to take calculated risks. Easily hurt by others, you often strike back with bitter sarcasm. Sensitive and curious, you are concerned with the deeper mysteries of human psychology. Once you have become interested in any subject, you pursue it with total fanaticism. Sun is in 04 Degrees Leo. More than a bit of a showoff, you love to be the center of attention! But others do not usually mind because they tend to enjoy your genuine warmth and affection. Very spirited and willful, proud and self-important at times, you demand your own way. You are quite honest, however, and the respect of others is very important to you. You never compromise yourself and you pursue your goals with persistence and dedication. Your regal presence and demeanor draws you to positions of leadership and authority. But beware of being overly hardheaded, domineering, ostentatious or patronizing or you will lose the goodwill and admiration that you enjoy. Very theatrical, you live life on a grand scale wherever and whenever possible. Your strength and energy vitalizes those who come in contact with you. Moon is in 03 Degrees Gemini. Restless in the extreme, you are easily bored because of your short attention span. Your emotions change rapidly and you love to talk about your feelings. Generally, you have good judgment -- your intellect controls your emotions and you do not overreact emotionally to things. A good jack-of-all-trades, you have many- sided interests and enjoy reasoning things through. With your mental agility and need for physical mobility, you are attracted to traveling and learning about other peoples and cultures. You have vivid powers of emotional self-expression - - you can be a nonstop talker. You love to share your ideas with anyone who will listen. Mercury is in 24 Degrees Leo. You are usually quite convinced that your own ideas are correct and you enjoy persuading others that they are. At times, you are very stubborn and proud of your beliefs and principles, and you get very defensive when they are challenged. You appreciate truth and honesty -- you practice it yourself and expect it in others. You have good talent for organizing, directing and planning. You delight in being asked for your advice and counsel. Venus is in 17 Degrees Virgo. You express your love and affection through selfless service to people or causes. You have a tendency to underestimate yourself and doubt your self-worth. This is very demeaning and should be avoided -- learn to love yourself as well as you do others. Your standards of perfection are very high -- you are attracted to relationships based on duty and responsibility. You are supercritical of yourself and others and, at times, prefer to be alone rather than deal with any imperfections in yourself or in those with whom you might relate. Mars is in 06 Degrees Leo. You are a very proud person. Strong, bold, courageous and self-possessed, you love to be the one to initiate significant actions. When people expect a lot of you, you respond positively and will work hard in order to maintain their respect. But when your dignity or pride is threatened, you tend to become sarcastic, arrogant and domineering. Try not to take any challenge or resistance that you meet as a personal affront. You are very stubborn about your right to live your life according to your own principles. Jupiter is in 27 Degrees Libra. You are generally good at balancing opinions and judging issues, but you tend to be indecisive when it comes to making up your own mind. You are objective and quite concerned with fair play and justice. But, when it comes to yourself, you are so aware that whatever you do might upset the apple cart that you often choose to compromise rather than do anything that might make you lonely or vulnerable. Relationships are very important to you -- you learn about yourself and grow through observing yourself interacting with others. Your aesthetic tastes are refined, but expansive and expensive. Saturn is in 21 Degrees Taurus. Complete freedom of choice makes you ill at ease. You must have a firm, ordered, secure foundation in your life in order to feel comfortable. You do not adapt easily and tend to fear the new and untried. You constantly fear that you do not have enough (love, property, material things, etc.) and this makes you tend toward being selfish, withdrawn and stingy. If you try to surround yourself with supportive people in your environment, you will become more emotionally self-supporting. Uranus is in 05 Degrees Libra. You, as well as your entire peer group, have a very free, unstable and unconventional approach to relationships and emotional commitments. You will be attracted to experiments in marriage and shared lifestyles. Personal freedom is more important to you than entangling emotional bonds. In the realm of art and aesthetics, you are attracted to the bizarre, shocking and unusual. Neptune is in 28 Degrees Scorpio. You, and your entire generation, are extremely interested in anything deep and mysterious. You will explore and idealize the benefits that can accrue from the study of the occult, healing and psychology. You are willing to experiment with substances like drugs in order to push your understanding of your inner being to the extreme. Pluto is in 25 Degrees Virgo. For your entire generation, this will be a time when profound changes in society's attitude toward work, duty and responsibility will be initiated. Radical changes in attitudes toward personal health and general nutrition will be promulgated and gain wide acceptance and practice. N. Node is in 03 Degrees Pisces. You're attracted to others who need your assistance. You seem to go out of your way to form relationships with those who are weak, sick, injured, addicted or troubled in some way or other. At your best you can indeed provide the relief that others need. But at times you can be victimized by those who would prey on your good nature and take advantage of you. This can lead to all sorts of negative situations -- make sure that those you assist are truly worthy of your time, energy and commitment. A little enlightened self-protectiveness on your part can make your life work much, much smoother!

From the Guy Up Top

Hey all, due to time constraints and general lack of interest, the Halloween party is canceled. Thanks, Rik

I'm normal?

Disorder | Rating Paranoid: Low Schizoid: Low Schizotypal: Low Antisocial: Low Borderline: Low Histrionic: Moderate Narcissistic: Low Avoidant: Low Dependent: Moderate Obsessive-Compulsive: Low URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv URL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/disorder_information2.html And my MBTI results: Your personality type is ISFJ. Introverted (I) 57% Extraverted (E) 43% Sensing (S) 55% Intuitive (N) 45% Feeling (F) 65% Thinking (T) 35% Judging (J) 82% Perceiving (P) 18%

Silent No's and the like

So, I just got done reading a bunch of responses to a friends' LJ, regarding a blanket invitation she made. Several of the comments she received were something to the extent of 'if someone doesn't respond, at all, that means NO.' So here's my question, due to the overwhelming *lack* of response we've gotten to our Halloween Party invitation, should we just cancel the dang thing & save ourselves the hassle?

CJ PLEASE READ

Hun, I like reading what you have to say, especially now watching you re-invent yourself. However.....your posts are taking up most of my screen, and they keep bumping everything else off of my friends page, and I end up missing stuff from other people. *this* might be useful for you. http://www.livejournal.com/support/faqbrowse.bml?faqid=75

I think more than my girlfriend should see this

The quoted material is something she wrote in reply to the lyrics I posted. "I feel that way now, writing this. I feel like the people in my life end up listening to my whining way too much. Its like the lyrics you posted...why don't I just save myself and shut the fuck up." That's not what I was trying to say at all. In my opinion, the lyrics are more about telling someone to *stop* looking for a lover/friend/whatever who is going to be a knight in shining armor and make all their bad things go away.....and in turn, to also not be that knight for someone else. Friends & lovers can go a long ways toward lessening the pain, and making things better, but they can't do *everything*. There has to be a point where the person takes their life into their own hands and plays an active part in fixing whatever is wrong. For me, the long & the short of it....if *I* -need- a lover/friend to feel "complete", "happy", ect....then I'm never going to find what I'm looking for. Those feelings are only going to come from within. You are not unworthy. Your thoughts & feelings are not unworthy. However, no one can make you believe that. You have to discover the validity of those facts on your own.

Fitting Sometimes

Stabbing Westward - Save Yourself I know your life is empty And you hate to face this world alone So you're searching for an angel Someone who can make you whole I can not save you I can't even save myself So just save yourself I know that you've been damaged Your soul has suffered such abuse But I am not your savior I am just as fucked as you I am just as fucked as you I can not save you I can't even save myself So just save yourself Please don't take pity on me Please don't take pity on me Please don't take pity on me Please don't take pity on me My life has been a nightmare My soul is fractured to the bone And if I must be lonely, I think I'd rather be alone I think I'd rather be alone You can not save me You can't even save yourself I can not save you I can't even save myself Save yourself So just save yourself

This bears repeating

This is something I've had in all of my personal ads, and it is something that is really important to me. Communication, communication, communication. Talking honestly and openly about our thoughts, feelings, dreams, likes, dislikes, our successes, and our problems and ourselves is extremely vital to me. It's really simple. While I am highly empathic, it only works when I am around people. I can't sense things from a distance. To put it in a more understandable way, I'm not a mind reader....not often anyways. The people that I'm emotionally close to, I can't see as often as I like. So for me, the best way to maintain that closeness to to chat, talk, IM, email ect. on a regular basis. If someone is really busy & doesn't have the time for all the chatting, that's fine, I can totally understand that. A heads up is always appreciated. If someone is feeling blue, upset, angry, lonely or whatever.....I won't know until you mention it, and I can't do anything unless I know. If people don't keep in contact with me, it's rare that I will keep trying to contact them. I know when I'm not wanted. I always figure that when they've got nothing else going on, I might pop up on their radar screen again. Or not. I've been trying real hard to *not* be chasing after people & forcing my attention on those that don't want it, or can't reciprocate for whatever reasons. It's *hard* for me, knowing that I'm not interesting to someone....it's a real battering to my self-esteem....which isn't that great in the 1st place. For me to keep waiting around, checking in, making contact....only to never connect with the person, or to be brushed off....that just plain hurts. Friendships & relationships are 2-way streets, hopefully with both people meeting in the middle and doing equal shares of giving & taking. If I feel like I'm spending more time meeting someone on their side of the street, and if I feel like I'm the one giving more than taking......then I tend to be upset, hurt, and usually I'll withdraw. Selfish as it is....I gotta put me 1st. My ego can only take so much bruising before I wash my hands of it and walk away.

QUIZZES

I am 45% Goth

Goth ny night, normal by day. Deep in my heart I know I am evil, but not on the company's time. I do need to eat.

Take the Goth Test at fuali.com I am 58% Evil Genius

Evil courses through my blood. Lies and deceit motivate my evil deeds. Crushing the weaklings and idiots that do nothing but interfere in my doings.

Take the Evil Genius Test at fuali.com Wow. Satan envys your style of crime. Your ideal
vaction is to go to an island full of people
and torture them one by one. You love to watch
your victims writhe in pain. Have fun. (just
hope the cops dont catch you.

What Type of Evil are You?
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Personal Insight

http://www.colorquiz.com/ Your Existing Situation Acts in an orderly, methodical, and self-contained manner. Needs the sympathetic understanding of someone who will give her recognition and approval. Your Stress Sources The existing situation is disagreeable. Has an unsatisfied need to ally herself with others whose standards are as high as her own, and to stand out from the rank and file. Her control of her sensual instincts restricts her ability to give herself, but the resulting isolation leads to the urge to surrender and allow herself to merge with another. This disturbs her. as such instincts are regarded as weaknesses to be overcome; she feels that only by continued self-restraint can she hope to maintain her attitude of individual superiority. Wants to be loved or admired for herself alone; needs attention, recognition, and the esteem of others. Your Restrained Characteristics Wants to broaden her fields of activity and insists that her hopes and ideas are realistic. Distressed by the fear that she may be prevented from doing what she wants; needs both peaceful conditions and quiet reassurance to restore her confidence. Circumstances are such that she feels forced to compromise for the time being if she is to avoid being cut off from affection or from full participation. Your Desired Objective Longs for a tender and sympathetic bond and for a situation of idealized harmony. Has an imperative need for tenderness and affection. Susceptible to anything esthetic. Your Actual Problem Greatly impressed by the unique, by originality, and by individuals of outstanding characteristics. Tries to emulate the characteristics she admires and to display originality in her own personality. Your Actual Problem #2 Has a fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants. This leads her to employ great personal charm in her dealings with others, hoping that this will make it easier for her to reach her objectives.

Stolen from Rock

"Sum up your opinion or impression of me in one word, leave it as a comment in this posting, and then post this sentence in your own journal."

What's in a Name?

If I use my real name

What is Your Destiny? by Valcion
Name
Color
Birthday
Destiny	Savior of the human race
Date when you fufill your destiny	April 28, 2019
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If I use my preferred name

What is Your Destiny? by Valcion
Name
Color
Birthday
Destiny	Reluctant Hero
Date when you fufill your destiny	June 6, 2018
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Journal Name

What is Your Destiny? by Valcion
Name
Color
Birthday
Destiny	Die in the middle of war
Date when you fufill your destiny	October 10, 2015
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Vanilla Halloween Party

Since I don't have some peoples' email addresses.....I'm posting this here. :) ***This will be a vanilla party - co-workers, family & children may be present. Please keep costumes to a PG level, and BDSM behaviour subtle.*** Greetings Boys and Ghouls, Rik and Heather are morbidly pleased to announce their first ever Hallows-day party! "What?” you say, "What's a Hallows-day party?" Glad you asked. It's just like a Halloween party, but it's on Saturday, November 1st. 7:00 PM until we kick you out. Costumes are encouraged, but if you come without, we won't serve your liver with fava beans and a nice Chianti. We'll be supplying some potent potions and ghoulish horrors-dourves, but you are welcome to bring the poison of your choice or a scary snack. The kiddies are welcome, but be warned... it can get pretty scary at the Nevada St. Nightmare. For a peek at past decorations, go to http://perfessorevil.com For directions, please email me at Mstrs_Valia@yahoo.com Please RIP... I mean RSVP by October 20th, so we know how many brain-mold Jell-O shooters we need to make.

UGH!

Where in any of my bios or personal ads does it indicate that I'd have even the slightest interest in an 'encounter' with some guy, his girlfriend, and her daughter?? Man oh man........

I'll be at

www.folsomfringe.com Friday night - Sunday morning, and then at Folsom Street Fair the rest of Sunday. If any of you all go, hunt me up at The Odyssey booth, that's where I'll be basing myself out of.

Feed me

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A piece of my mind

http://www.bbc.co.uk/science/leonardo/thinker_quiz/ Interpersonal thinkers: Like to think about other people, and try to understand them. Recognise differences between individuals and appreciate that different people have different perspectives. Make an effort to cultivate effective relationships with family, friends and colleagues. Like interpersonal thinkers, Leonardo had lots of friends and contacts, and was a popular figure at the Italian court. Other Interpersonal thinkers include Winston Churchill, Mother Teresa, William Shakespeare Careers which suit Interpersonal thinkers include Politician, Psychologist, Nurse, Counsellor, Teacher. Intrapersonal thinkers: Spend a lot of time thinking about and trying to understand themselves. Reflect on their thoughts and moods, and work to improve them. You understand how your behaviour affects your relationships with others. Like intrapersonal thinkers, Leonardo worked hard to improve all aspects of himself. Other Intrapersonal thinkers include Sigmund Freud, Gandhi, Grahame Greene. Careers which suit Intrapersonal Thinkers include Psychologist, Teacher, Pilot, Child care worker, Explorer, Drama therapist. Musical thinkers: Tend to think in sounds, and may also think in rhythms and melodies. Are sensitive to the sounds and rhythms of words as well as their meanings. Feel a strong connection between music and emotions. Like many musical thinkers, Leonardo loved to sing, and had a fine voice. Other Musical Thinkers include Mozart, John Lennon, Jimi Hendrix. Careers which suit Musical Thinkers include Musician, Music teacher, Sound engineer, Recording technician Existential thinkers: Like to spend time thinking about philosophical issues such as "What is the meaning of life?" Try to see beyond the 'here and now', and understand deeper meanings consider moral and ethical implications of problems as well as practical solutions. Like existential thinkers, Leonardo questioned man's role in the universe. Many of his paintings explored the relationship between man and God. Other Existential Thinkers include The Buddha, Gandhi, Plato, Socrates, Martin Luther King. Careers which suit Existential Thinkers include Philosopher, Religious leader, Head of state, Artist, Writer.

Buy me?

Your soul is worth £6189. For your peace of mind, 91% of people have a purer soul than you. To find out the current monetary value of your soul click http://www.wewantyoursoul.com/

OTH, if I change a few 50/50 answers

You represent... kindness. You're a very gentle, kind, and caring individual.
You truely care about people and are generally
well-liked. Though sometimes you may be
perceived as weak, you truely have a strong
heart and a good desire to help others.

What feeling do you represent?
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Strangely Enough....I think it fits.

You represent... anger. Mad at the world, eh? You have a tendency to...
freak out easily. Overly emotional about
everything, you're most prone to bouts of
cruelty and moodiness. Other people may be
afraid of the fact that you explode so easily,
but at least you're honest... even if you're
honest about not liking anything.

What feeling do you represent?
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Um.....ok

Bettie Boop

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I like the last line

You are "Kiss in the Dreamhouse". You are
intelligent, introspective, and imaginative.
You really like sex too.

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Variety is...

YOU ARE BASIL

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The New Me

Ok, I cut my hair about 2 weeks ago, and finally got around to getting a picture taken.

I just *had* to put this in

-Bad- You're the exact opposite of what any guy
wants or needs, unless he happens to need a
quick lay. You're cruel. You toy with people.
You're probably a bitch, and i don't think i'd
like you if i met you. Oh go screw a random
male already.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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Tell Me Something I Don't Know

Lipstick Lesbian: You like to wear make-up and take your time getting
dressed up. You're very femme and so are most
of your friends. You probably like to shop a
lot and paint your nails with your girlfriends
while watching chick flicks.

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Your Heart is Purple

What Color is Your Heart?
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You have a dominant kiss- you take charge and make
sure your partner can feel it! Done artfully,
it can be very satisfactory if he/she is into
you playing the dominant role MEORW!

What kind of kiss are you?
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Forward

What's your sexual appeal?
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You are "Welcome to the Caribbean, love."
You're more than a little world-weary, but also
intelligent and you keep your head when things
get dodgy. You're everybody's favorite
drinking buddy, but your stubbornness does get
in the way sometimes.

Which one of Captain Jack Sparrow's bizarre sayings from Pirates of the Caribbean are you?
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Fight Club!

What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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Riyo - "Logical Change"

What would your Japanese name be? (female)
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"Sweet Dreams" (by Eurythmics) Sweet dreams are made of this Who am I to disagree? Travel the world and the seven seas Everybody's looking for something Some of them want to use you Some of them want to get used by you Some of them want to abuse you Some of them want to be abused

Which 80's Song Fits You?
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This Works Too.

What Is Your Battle Cry?

Yea, verily: Who is that, skulking along the steppes! It is Mstrs_Valia, hands clutching a reflective halberd! And with a bloodthirsty cry, her voice cometh: "Brace yourself, oh human speck of dust! I carve into flesh like a sentient bulldozer!!"

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(THUMP) Me Barbarian!

What Is Your Battle Cry?

Hark! Who is that, prowling over the cliffs! It is ValiaDerekin, hands clutching buzzsaw hand extensions! And with a low scream, her voice cometh: "I'm going to smack you like a wrecking ball!!"

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New Sig Line For Me

I found this on MSN of all places. "The end is the beginning of all things, Suppressed and hidden, Awaiting to be released through the rhythm Of pain and pleasure." Jiddu Krishnamurti

Who Me?

Protector

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One Word

A wartenberg can be erotic & sensual.....this wasn't one of those times. Poke, ow that really hurts, damn, that just sucks, pokepokepoke Prod, rollrollroll, ow ow ow, mother fucker.... Just say one word and this all stops...one simple word...pokepokepoke, 1 square inch on your thigh, that's getting my total attention, pokepokerollrollprodprod ow ow ow STOP STOP PLEASE That's not the word. Pokepokepoke....you're bleeding...one word, that's all it takes, one simple little word and I'll stop. rollrollprodprod...you're bleeding even more...pokepoke I can keep this up for a long time...ow ow ow fucking .... Tears, pain, shriek, blood, anger, please stop, no....that's not the word. Everyone here knows the word, it's such a simple word, just say it and this will end...pokepokepoke more blood, 1 square inch perforated, bleeding, throbbing in pain.... quietly, red

10 Years of Collecting....GONE

I'm hoping any of you can help me out. My 40 GB hard drive died on me today. This hard drive contained over 15 thousand images.....most of them from either Pro-Wrestling sites or adult sites from the Internet....a collection I've spent 10 years amassing. Recovery is....impractical. I did a lot of mass downloads from the Internet, thousands at a time...and then I'd go through and delete the unwanted stuff....well amongst the drek is *sure* to be illegal kiddie porn (Russian/European) that randomly ends up in the groups I get pictures from. Since I'd rather *not* get arrested for having illegal images (that I didn't want in the 1st place).... data recovery by a professional isn't an option. That's not really the worst of it.... The bad part is that I've lost all my personal photos. Any photos I've had of myself, of my friends, of Folsom, Gay Pride, Baycon, private parties......they are *gone*. I'm hoping that over the years, I've sent you all copies of these personal pictures.....and if you'd be willing to send me copies of them.....or if it's more than say...15 pics, maybe you'd consider putting them on a disk for me?? If you can do either, that would be great!! You'd have my eternal appreciation. :) If you send me pictures, please send them to heathrc@pacbell.net I can get more images via email to that address. Yahoo only lets you get 3 at a time.

Your Decision, My Decision

My actions go deeper than you may see. If I do not want you to interact with someone, or I do not want someone to do something to you....believe me, I will make that quite clear. Sometimes though, I want to see what you will do, if left to your own devices. Do you want strangers testing out their new toys on you? Do you like it when people you know, but I don't...come up and swat you, or ask if they can play with you? Do you wonder, what you should do....what would please me.....or do you just do as you want with no thought at all? Even Vicki still asks for permission...and I generally treat her the same as I treat you. If I have no real preference, I tell her to do whatever she is comfortable with. If I don't like the person, or get a bad vibe from them, I will say 'no' to whatever the request is. Free will is an interesting thing. Sometimes you have none at all, and others you may have more than you really want. ***Several times, people wanted to interact with me...to try a flogger out, or to ask if I could do something (in the case of Melissa). Before they acted, they checked with You. I wonder how that feels for You. For me, being connected to You is wonderful! I like that they know I am not free (entirely) to do as I wish. I know You might say that I am...Your response to them is almost always..."it is up to her". Still, there is a synergy that connects us in these transactions that makes me feel good.***

Like *this* is a Surprise

Your soul came from the Bowels of HELL! You're a
demon preying on the mortals of Earth. BACK TO
HELL WITH YOU!

Where Did Your Soul Originate?
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(snerk)

You must like to spank or be spanked, because your
romance is remeniscent of Secretary. A truly
modern love story, it shows that you don't need
to be conventional to be normal. You're
probably the type that owns a whole lot more
leather than what's upholstering your car or
sofa. Yeah, you know what I mean.

What Romance Movie Best Represents Your Love Life?
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Interesting

You are Professor X! You are a very effective teacher, and you are very
committed to those who learn from you. You put
your all into everything you do, to some extent
because you fear failure more than anything
else. You are always seeking self-improvement,
even in areas where there is nothing you can do
to improve.

Which X-Men character are you most like?
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Miss Abernathy's Concise Slave Training Manual

Part I: The Training Program In which we examine the specifics of training an erotic slave Ok, apparently the 1st run of this was too long. At the request of RJ... ATTITUDE While the actual training of a slave encompasses the total person, the sine qua non of a service-oriented submissive is the correct attitude. Different roles may dictate different training techniques, but all slaves-and dominants too for that matter-should cultivate an attitude of mindfulness. For our purposes, mindfulness may be defined as an over-arching awareness of one's person, surroundings, and circumstances. It is a gentle attention, focused but not forced. Many spiritual traditions recommend sitting, chanting, or other forms of meditation to awaken a mindful state. For the slave, it is dharma yoga, the pursuit of one's true vocation, that is the path to mindfulness. A slave's mindfulness should encompass her physical body, her mental awareness, her emotional state and, insofar as it is possible, the physical, mental, and emotional state of the dominant and any other person in the environment. This is not to say that a slave must be clairvoyant or an empath; she must first cultivate self-awareness, and under tutelage, awareness of the dominant's needs and wishes. Experienced slaves do often develop a sort of sixth sense, the ability to anticipate the dominant's needs before she verbalizes them. THE SLAVE JOURNAL Slaves-in-training should be encouraged to keep a written record of their thoughts, fantasies, and experiences. The journal is usually the property of the submissive but is meant to be read by the dominant. Thus, the dominant may requite that the slave address the journal directly to her and that special written forms be followed. For example, it is common for slaves to use the lower case when referring to themselves and to capitalize all references to the dominant: "Mistress, i am writing this journals as You requested. i hope it meets with Your approval." Or, they may be required to omit the first person pronoun all together: "this slave is writing a journal as You requested." Some dominants find the use of the possessive in reference to themselves highly offensive, as the Mistress does not belong to the slave. The feel it is more appropriate for the slave to speak of "the Mistress" than of "my Mistress." Holding on to this pattern can result in some interesting linguistic difficulties, but greatly encourages mindfulness. It is to me used at the dominant's discretion. Entries should me made in the journal on a regular basis (anywhere from once a day to once a week has proved useful). The dominant may wish to respond, verbally or in written form, to the entries. PUNISHMENT It is inevitable that at some point in her training, even the most accomplished slave will make a mistake. The dominant should set clear guidelines for correction of errors. If the point of the punishments is correction, then the rule is, "Let the punishment fit the crime." In general, errors that indicate lack of consideration of the dominant or behavior that runs counter to the agreed-upon code of ethics for the slave should be punished more severely than simple physical mistakes. Errors of the former sort include the following: neglecting proper forms of address, disobeying direct commands, gossiping, arrogance, tardiness, failure to complete a training assignment, disrespect in any form. Punishments should also suit the slave. A slave who is very attached to a token may have that token taken away for a period of time. A slave who consistently forgets honorifics may be put under a discipline of total silence; this technique is also useful for gossips. Arrogant slave may be denied use of furniture or eating utensils. A slave who is unduly proud of her appearance may be dressed in unfashionable or ill-fitting clothes or denied access to the bath. In extreme cases, the dominant may choose to send the slave away for a period of time. In more simple cases, repetition is the key. If a slave cannot remember how to fold the dominant's socks, it may be time for her to empty the entire sock drawer and refold every pair correctly. If a slave forgets to use the lover-case "i" in written assignments, she may be required to write "i must be humble,' one hundred times. Slaves who lose keys, or bus passes may be made to wear them around their necks on a string, like schoolchildren do. Never underestimate the power of humiliation. Physical discipline may prove useful for slaves who are physically and psychically able to withstand it. Often the mere threat of a beating is enough to whip the slave into shape. A petulant, whining slave should be taken over the dominant's knee and spanked like the child she is. A slave who is negligent in the use of her honorifics can be required to count each stroke, thanking the dominant in the appropriate respectful form. Lazy slaves who are caught sitting around may be paddled so that when the next sit down, their bruises will remind them of their obligations. Dominants sometimes find themselves at a loss about how to punish masochistic slaves, for whom physical beatings are the purest pleasure. One method is to deny the slave a beating or administer one with a tool that the slave does not enjoy. Another tactic is to use some other form of punishment, such as memorizing a humiliatingly silly poem, or performing some seemingly endless task, like scrubbing the bathroom grout with bleach and a toothbrush. The slave might also be asked to perform a particularly challenging task, as a chance to turn the punishment into an occasion for reward.