I'm not good at this

Asking for things.... But they say if you put things out to the Universe, you might get what you ask for. OK...here goes.... While I REALLY enjoy all the play I've been honoured to participate in during the last 18 months or so.... I really miss being able to truly let go and just hurt someone. Honestly, on a 1-10 scale, I am most definately a 6-10 player....and while I really like doing the 'fluffy bunny' stuff, I'm at the point now where I really wish I could find someone that I didn't have to hold back with....someone who's idea of a 7 isn't my idea of a 3 or 4....and to put it bluntly, those people have been few & far between for me. Sigh....honestly, this is one of the things I miss about Dana. We played very well together.....but alas, there were other compatibility issues that made it difficult for us to continue being together....and being in a casual relationship with her...after being as connected as we were for a year....just wasn't something that was possible.