Party Tonight

Right now I'm feeling very ambivilent about going to the Monthly 2nd Saturday Party. The superficial reasons - 1. The space is cold. 2. I usually feel somewhat uncomfortable around the male 1/2 of the couple that owns the space. The not so superficial reasons - 1. I want to spend some time with my husband that doesn't involve me having a deadline to get home & get ready for a party. 2. I'm tired. It's been a long several weeks & I just don't think having another late night is going to make me less tired. 3. I feel like I'm not really....necessary. Most of the people who will most likely attend this party have no interest in playing with me & I'm getting tired of feeling like a wall flower. 4. I'm feeling another one of these moods coming on http://www.livejournal.com/users/valiaderekin/111041.html and I don't think it would be fair or right to subject other people to my potential anger & disappointment. So, if 8PM rolls around & you don't see me.....I decided to stay home. :)