OMG!!!11!~ Pt. 2

So, I went all by my lonesome to Dark Garden today. The store is very nicely laid out. Small, but they make good use of their space. Lots of lovely corsets & pretty jewelry. So...I thought all I was going to get was a standard ready-made corset. No frills or anything...just the basics. Nope. They only had ready-made 30's on hand in black...and I didn't want black. So...I was told to start looking at fabrics & they would make me a 30" sweetheart Victorian in any fabric(s) of my choice. I reminded them that I had only won the ready-made corset. The owner stated that ready-made included custom fabric, just not custom measurements. So...I went through the fabric swatches & some fabric bolts. What I decided on was something...unexpected (for me). I had started off picking out vibrant colors; an iridescent teal, burgundy w/ ivory chrysanthemums, black with small neon (pink, blue, green) flowers, electric blue... What I decided on was a golden ivory Chinese floral brocade trimmed in a rich russet silk. The trim will be on all the edges & also outlining the boning & the laces will match the trim. So....now I wait 2 months. Oh and for the curious....the corset was worth $420 by the time it was all said & done. I paid $10 for the 2 raffle tickets.

Happy Ho....Ho

In addition to an unsuccessful surgery & a nasty cold, I got this for a present. Pale green amethysts set in silver. Rik always does well at finding me pretties. :)

The surgery

Was a failure. They could find my fallopian tubes, but they couldn't get the catheters that would load the springs in to my fallopian tubes. And... I was honest enough to tell them that I'm getting a cold, so they refused to intubate me & put me fully under to do the regular surgery. I'm supposed to get in touch with them once I'm healthy & we'll re-schedule. Unfortunately, I have all the downsides of the surgery. My insides ache, I'm bleeding, nauseous & tired.

OMG!!!111!~

I just won a ready-made Dark Garden corset!! I entered 2 raffles at Dickens Fair (1 for ready-made, 1 for custom), and they drew the tickets tonight. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! I sent Dark Garden email asking if they would be open the day after Christmas.

Me? Afraid of the dark?

The power went out around 8:30, for about 5 minutes. I heard a lot of thunder before, during & after. Lucky me, I was in the bathroom. Luckier me, the big flashlight was right near my desk. I've got my computer up (duh), but not Rik's (who is in Chicago). The TV works, but I can't get the volume on the tuner to work. I've set the alarm on my cell phone for 6:30am (just in case), and I have the flashlight on the headboard. It's a good thing it's chilly here...don't have to worry about the food in the fridge & freezer if the power goes out again. I'm going to bed now...now where is my teddybare or is that bear?

Day 1

Is in the past (mostly). They are...on the surface anyway...disorganized. There's boxes & binders & piles of paper in every office that I've seen. I wonder if they have recently moved or do they just have no real storage system. They just threw me right into things. They are due to transmit payroll tomorrow. I'm supposed to attend a meeting tomorrow afternoon & explain to them all the pros & cons of upgrading their timekeeping & payroll systems. I'm still not clear if they are upgrading no matter what, or if they are still in the 'thinking & need convincing' stage. I'd be more comfortable with this if I had spent more than a few hours working on their current systems. By & large the people seem friendly & welcoming. I got introduced to too many people & shown too many places around the office today. I only remember 3 peoples names and that's only because I've talked to them quite a bit. I think my boss is the person I'm sharing an office with. Speaking of office, it's kind of like a fishbowl. 3 solid walls & 4th wall that's 2 windows & a sliding glass door, facing out into the main office area. The drive is quick, but there's construction going on about a mile from the office, so I had to blindly re-route myself this morning to get there. There's quite a bit of food options near by...but I intend to start bringing my lunch to work soon...once I remember where the lunch room is.

What is in a Name?

Get Your Sexy Name

Get Your Sexy Name

An Interesting Orgasm

Have you ever had your mind wander in the midst of masturbating (or enjoying the shower attachment in my case) and it latches on to a mental image that you didn't think would be something that would not only push you over the edge, but also make it a rather intense one? Yeah...interesting thoughts I apparently have...now I just have to figure out if it means anything.

Friday the 19th

I'm thinking that a nifty way to celebrate my 1st week on the new job would be to go to The Exiles Carnal Carnival & then over to SF Citadel for Queer Playground. Anyone else going?

apparently I'm Blue

Your result for The Kink Spectrum Analysis Test...

Blue (450 nm)

Wow! You have quite a big repertoire when it comes to kinky sex. And you're probably also willing to play on either side of the fence. You should look for another Blue, or an Ultraviolet if you want to broaden your horizon. Greens may be okay as well but will probably bore you after a while. Reds are too vanilla for you.

But I promised you a more detailed analysis, so here it is. Note that most scales are twofold: There are separate values for giving (active) and receiving (passive). If you scored high on one of them, you should look for a partner who scored high on the other. If you scored high on both of them, go for someone who is similar (or for multiple partners if you're into that). If you scored low on both, this probably is not your kind of kink.

You scored 40% giving and 62% receiving on oral.

You scored 33% giving and 20% receiving on anal.

You scored 69% giving and 64% receiving on bondage.

You scored 37% giving and 19% receiving on humiliation.

You scored 89% giving and 30% receiving on pain.

You scored 76% dominance and 33% submission.

You scored 46% voyeurism and 45% exhibitionism.

Besides that, you're 31% into fetishism and 76% polysexual (i.e. interested in sex with multiple partners, whether at the same time or not). You'll probably want a partner who is similar, whether you scored high or low in these categories.

Finally, you scored 28% on autoerotic - a scale that measures your ability and/or willingness to have kinky fun without a partner. It's not exactly a matching criterion, but it's good for you if your score is high. Keep it up!

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On Thursday, an Icon Passes

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/28185814/

Not Really a Voyeur But...

Your result for The Which Lolcat Are You? Test...

Ceiling Cat

49% Affectionate, 32% Excitable, 42% Hungry

You are a master of stealth. They never see you coming. But you always see them coming. HEY-O!

To see all possible results, checka dis.

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Dickens Was

So much fun that I've decided to go again. I have to drop Rik off at Oakland Airport next Sunday (the 14th), but I should be able to get to the fair by 1. I know of at least 4 people going...anyone want company? :)

Some Resolutions I Could Manage

In 2008, valiaderekin resolves to...

Take evening classes in women.
Volunteer to spend time with breasts.
Go to the unicorns every month.
Connect with my inner sadism.
Start a wccw fund.
Cut down to ten vampires a day.

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Insert Pitch Pipe Here

On the twelfth day of Christmas, valiaderekin sent to me...

Twelve singletails drumming

Eleven breasts piping

Ten canes a-leaping

Nine bagpipes flirting

Eight unicorns a-shopping

Seven books a-tickling

Six friends a-kissing

Five alte-e-e-ernative lifestyles

Four transgender studies

Three gay studies

Two horror novels

...and a witchcraft in a polyamory.

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SQUEEEEE!

After 8 months of searching... I have a new job. I start 12/15/08. It's a whopping 6 miles from my house. Payroll for a staff of 300. Making slightly more than I do now. It's for a 2 food companies rolled into 1. Discovery Foods in the banner they are under, but they are more well known as http://www.ling-ling.com/ The other company is http://www.vipfoods.com/

Dickens Fair

http://www.dickensfair.com/ Rik & I are going next Saturday, 12/6. Anyone else interested?

Things in the Sky

I like this portion from below - When someone wrongs you it better be something they never do again. You may forgive them once, but you will never forget and a second time can cut them totally out of your life. Slowly...it's beginning to be more & more true.

Okay, yes, I know the moon is not a planet.

The moon, is, however, the Earth’s only natural satellite and the fifth largest natural satellite in our solar system. For this reason alone it could be that it has life on it, right? Yes, there have been many explorations to prove otherwise, but for many years people on Earth believed that the moon was inhabited. It is also the only celestial body that man has stepped upon.

There are a dozen gods and goddesses associated with the moon. The word Lunar, which relates to the moon’s cycle, is from the Latin word Lunar. One of the reasons that people tend to associate a female deity with the moon might be related to the female menstrual cycle. With that said, it’s is definitely time to move along before I get myself in trouble.

What does this say about you?

You desire contact with the world around you. You have a loving and nurturing nature, but you can suffer from mood changes and go through cycles. You aren’t afraid to stand up for what you believe in or to even stand up for the little guy that tends to get beat up on or forgotten. You probably even tend to put other people before yourself.

As a child of the moon you have a cold and warm side. When someone wrongs you it better be something they never do again. You may forgive them once, but you will never forget and a second time can cut them totally out of your life. You can be the life of the party, but only if it suits you. You are just as happy finding a few people that you can talk to and more than likely there are very few people that you can’t talk to.

You probably usually have a smile on your face and make people feel comfortable with you. You are just one of those people that others open up to and then wonder why.

So, moon child, in a way you are just like the tide. You ebb and flow in life and you like it best when you are in control.

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Your rainbow is shaded indigo.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

What is says about you: You are a proud person. You appreciate cities, technology, and other great things people have created. People are loyal to you and see you as a natural leader.

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70/30 huh?

They are epic if I do say so myself

Your result for The How Nice Are Your Tits Test...

Baby got a rack!

Of all the tits in the world, yours are better than 87% of them. Wear them proud!

You've maxed out the chart with your sweet sweet ta-ta's. They are shaped, sized, and nippled to perfection. Please, take a picture of them and e-mail them to me -- better yet come on by some evening so I can play with them, I promise you I will be eternally greatful.

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Your result for The Long but Good Kinky Switch Test...

77 % Kinky, 47 % Switchy, 21 % Bottom, 55 % Top

So, there you have it... a realistic appraisal of how kinky and switchy you are.

Scoring low in both is a vanilla personality - nothing wrong with that, mind you.

High in kinky and high in top is is the "typical top" profile; seek out someone with similar levels of "kinky" but who scored high in "bottom".

Similarly, high in "kinky", high in "bottom", but low in "top" and "switchy" means you're a bottom. Find a top...

High in both kinky and switchy implies you ought to find another kinky switch; otherwise you'll end up being frustrated half the time!

Good luck and good hunting!

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Pretty Hats

I like pretty hats. I want more pretty hats for Dickens, but I don't want to pay the pretty hat prices at Dickens. I have 3 complete outfits. Dark purple/white/black, black/gray/silver/white and black/gold/burgundy/brown/ivory. Any thoughts on these 2 hats? http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&ssPageName=STRK:MEWAX:IT&item=370112290503 http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&ssPageName=STRK:MEWAX:IT&item=360108622204 EDIT The hats do look similar, biggest difference - 1 is accented with silver, the other with burgundy.

Dickens Faire

http://www.dickensfair.com/ Rik & I are wanting to go. Anyone else interested? Haven't picked a date yet...but several dates are out for us. No on 11/29-30, 12/14 & 12/20. Other than that...fairly flexible, but want to plan something out soon before the rest of my calendar gets tied up.

Color Me Amused

Hot Young Thing has been talking to me on IM & OKC for a few weeks. Hot Young Thing was a bit antagonistic in her initial contacts, asking if I had what it takes to control the likes of her. I didn't take the bait. Now when Hot Young Thing talks to me...it's as if she expects me to leap at what she's offering & be grateful for it. Um...yeah, thanks. I don't think so. You might be 23 & have a great body...but if this is an example of your personality, you ain't worth it. Not to mention her total disdain for bi women who are already attached to a male. Sheesh honey, I'm up-front about it. If you think women like me are good for nothing but an occasional fuck...please walk away and find someone else who will jump at the game that you are wanting to play.

Countdown

T minus 10 days I tried to think of another poker title to go with 'Upping the Ante', but nothing was coming, so now you get NASA. Anyways...I don't know if what I said made a difference, or if the Universe just finally came together and gave Vicki the exact combination of what she wanted. She had found a place with a mutual friend. The house is in the South Bay. They signed the paperwork & put money down yesterday & she has already started moving stuff in. She claims that she'll be completely out of my house & Rik's garage by 11/30/08.

The Movie Star

Your result for What Spice Are You Test...

You are Ginger!

0% Habanero, 20% Sage, 10% Thyme, 50% Ginger, 10% Garlic, 10% Curry, 0% Cinnamon and 0% Oregano!

You are versatile and yet rather erratic!

You can be hot or sweet, it just depends on your mood that day. Sometimes people overlook you and don't give you enough credit for who you are. They try to take advantage of you often, but you aren't one to just sit back and let it happen. When you've had enough you definitely let them know.

You can be a bit moody and have definitive up and down times. It makes being with you a challenge at times, but you have so much personality that being your friend is very much worth the challenge.

You can be very popular, and you don't mind being so. You are more a leader than a follower. You have a wide range of interests and abilities. In your opinion life is too short so you should do as much as you can during your lifetime.

You have your own flair and style, but you still look to see what it trendy.

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Humbly Serve huh?

www.tarot.com For the Week of Nov 17th, 2008 -- Big emotions and grand gestures may not have the dramatic effect you're looking for this weekend. Being more modest and down-to-earth may not sound sexy, but it's what can work to earn you affection. Your willingness to humbly serve others pays off in getting the love you desire.

Upping the Ante

On Wednesday I told Vicki that if we are forced to evict her - That will be the end of our relationship too. Unfortunately...if her current behaviour is any indication...it didn't make a difference.

You Know You're a Clothes Horse When

You are thinking of what to wear to a BDSM prom, and you think of over a dozen dresses (from traditional to kinky) that you have that would be appropriate.

Not looking for a lifetime

www.tarot.com For the Week of Nov 10th, 2008 -- Dreams of romance may be delightful late in the week, Leo, but be careful or your fantasies can lead you astray. The object of your affection may not be totally real. If you're able to dance lightly in your heart without trying to turn a moment of pleasure into a lifetime commitment, you should be able to avoid trouble.

Well, my license plate is a form of Valkyrie

Your result for The Mythological Goddess Test...

Freya

Freya, twin sister of Frey, is a member of the Vanir family, the Norse clan of Fertility Gods. Like her counterparts, Aphrodite, Isis, Venus, and Ishtar (Greek, Egyptian, Roman and Indian mythology), she concerned herself with sex and all that goes with it.

She was quite fond of cats, by the way. In fact, she was said to travel about in a magnificent chariot drawn by her two regal black cats named Bygul and Trjegul (Pronunciation? You're on your own...) that were rumoured to be possessed. After serving Freya for 7 years, the cats were rewarded by being turned into witches, disguised as black cats. Even many of her personal traits seem cat-like. For instance, she always wore a brilliant jewel studded collar symbolizing her authority over the fiery aspect of sexuality.

Besides being the Goddess of love, cats, the moon, magic, and of course sex, Freya was also skilled in a form of magic called "seithr" (meaning "sayer" or "seer") which consisted of putting oneself into a deep meditative trance so that the secrets of the future might be revealed. She also owned a feather coat which she could use to fly between the worlds.

The Fifteen Goddesses

These are the 15 categories of this test. If you score above average in …

…all or none of the four variables: Neit. … Erudite: Minerva. … Sensual: Aphrodite. … Martial: Artemis. … Saturnine: Persephone. … Erudite & Sensual: Isis. … Erudite & Martial: Sekhmet. … Erudite & Saturnine: Nemesis. … Sensual & Martial: Hera. … Sensual & Saturnine: Bast. … Martial & Saturnine: Ilamatecuhtli. … Erudite, Sensual & Martial: Maeve. … Erudite, Sensual & Saturnine: Freya. … Erudite, Martial & Saturnine: Sedna. … Sensual, Martial & Saturnine: Macha.

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Bursting Bubbles

Our first 'date' several weeks ago was a lovely one. The play at Edges was a combination of getting to know each other more mentally & physically. The evening later at the hotel was lovely too, but I'm not going to share the details on that. :) So...she asked if she could join me last night (a few days ago). I warned her that I was really interested in socializing (because there's people at SCCLA parties that I see so infrequently), and that I couldn't guarantee play, and/or sexual interaction between us. She said she understood. She also had read my last rant & was concerned if I was happy playing with her because she's not a heavy masochist. No, she's not...but she is a fun person to play with. Her reactions are delicious, and I told her that. Dinner was amusing...we both got lost getting to the place (and she was coming from Turlock). My dinner was supposed to be chicken, but it was fish....I sent it back, and they sent it back to me insisting it was chicken. She & I both ate it...it was fish, but tasty all the same. Towards the end of dinner she asked if I was going to be up for play. I was honest & said I didn't know. I had a stomachache earlier & was still feeling that a little. So, we got to Edges & I did what I said I was going to do, socialized. I made sure to introduce her to people. We watched a really fantastic performance/scene. I was close to her most of the night, always touching when we were together. Some sexual teasing, lots of stroking. I gave her a back massage near the end of the evening. Anyways...I think she was very disappointed with me. I warned her. She made the drive from Turlock, fully aware that I might not want to play. I think she had hopes that I would anyways. I wanted to, a little...but not enough to really do it...and I'm not going to go through the motions anymore. I hope she still wants to come around. But, I suppose I'll understand if she decides that I'm not worth the drive again.

I get the oddest presents

This is what I'll be doing with my Christmas Eve. http://www.essure.com/

This is Fucked-up

With 91% of the precincts counted... 52% yes 48% no 8 looks like it will pass. http://www.kcbs.com/Prop-8-Headed-to-Victory/3262087 http://vote.sos.ca.gov

Things I'm Sick & Tired Of

1. Male friends who think that being friends with me means that it's OK for them to constantly push my limits & give me a hard time about my life decisions. Let me put it as clear as I can...I don't find it funny. Get the fuck over yourself. If you can't have an interaction with me that does not involve stomping all over my limits...then I think it's time that we agree to disagree and shift our relationship to that of polite acquaintances. I'm tired of just being nice about it. I'm tired of just turning the other cheek & pretending that it's just all fun & games. It's not. I'm not having fun, and the decisions I make in my life are not a game to me. If you can't respect me and respect that I live the life that I want to and that I am basically happy with...then please do us both a favor and leave me alone. 2. People who think I am defective in some way because I am not playing with someone every time I go to a dungeon. Guess what? More often than not, I'm just not in the mood to play. I'm tired, I'm depressed, I'm so sick of my life sometimes and all I want to do is just be around people who will talk with me and be nice to me. Holy Fuck! I've been in the scene for 16 years. I spent a lot of that time playing when I didn't want to, because I thought it was what a "real" player did. I also spent a lot of time either playing with people I wasn't truly interested in...playing for the experience or for the sake of playing, or playing with people who I really wasn't that compatible with...and then I ended up feeling empty afterward. I spent years in the mode of give give give...and it was not terribly often that I got a whole lot in return. I am a sadist. I like to hurt people, a lot. Maybe not to the level of blood letting & bone breaking....but I do like it when they move and think of me 2 days later because something is still sore. I got tired a long time ago of having to always hold myself back....playing at a lower level than was satisfying FOR ME, just so I could have people to play with. I learned a while ago, I had 2 choices, I could either keep holding back, just so I could have some interactions....or I could just not play and instead just BE with people. I like talking, I like flirting, I like the barely contained sexual attraction I share with a few people. Do I want to beat the hell out of someone on a regular basis...sure...but I've gotten to the point where I want it on my level, not theirs. I spent a year (a few years ago) playing with a wonderful woman who could take everything I had to give (and sometimes wanted more). After having that...it was hard as hell to go back to "dialing it down" to suit the levels of others. Currently, there's just not a whole lot of people out there that I want to play with and who want to play with me. I'm picky. Other people are picky. Put the 2 levels of picky together, and you end up with a very small pool of people to play with. When it comes right down to it, after a long week of working in a place where I don't want to be, and having a problem at home that is being difficult to deal with....when I have the choice of either playing with someone where I know I won't get much from it, or just socializing....I'll be more than happy to pay my $20 to the dungeon just to do nothing more than talk to my friends. If people have a problem with that, then I'll make the suggestion to them that I made to the males in my life. If you disapprove of how I live my BDSM life, if you disagree with the decisions that I make for myself...then it is time that we too also become polite acquaintances.

I'm indecisive this AM.

What Your Cute Monster Says About You

You are both a realist and an idealist. You're able to see the world as it is - and how it could be. You dream big, and you never give up on your beliefs. You have big plans. Your inner demon is depression. Sometimes you build things up in your head. People think you're cute because you're determined. You're a fighter, and that's charming.

The Cute Monster Test

What Your Cute Monster Says About You

You're the type of person who stands out in a crowd, even when you're trying to blend in. You are honest in your character and appearance. You don't pretend to be someone else. Your inner demon is sorrow. You tend to get depressed easily. People think you're cute because you're rebellious. Your uniqueness is charming.

The Cute Monster Test

Blind Date

I think if my friends were the matchmaking type, this would have been talked about, if not accomplished by now. www.astrology.com Today ask a friend to set you up on a date. As scary as it might seem initially, this may be the best move to make. Your pals know you and your type best. Let them play matchmaker and see what happens next.

Halloween @ Scary Carys

We're not having a party this year. We've had them several years now & it's just been too much effort for too little return. It's funny...I've had people be upset with me because we're not having a party...and these same people have never came to 1 in the 1st place. Um....huh? Rik's theme for the yard is Evil Clown Circus (think Killer Clowns from Outer Space). If you want to stop over Halloween Night to see things in full swing, you are more than welcome to. We will be VERY involved in the whole trick or treat thing (over 400 people last year)...so don't expect an overwhelming amount of hospitality & social niceties...but we would be happy to see you all the same. :) If you want to stop over some other time during the week, let me know & I'll see what we can work out.

Dick-Sion-Airy

Go to www.urbandictionary.com and type in your answer to each question in the search box, then write the FIRST definition it gives you. (SIDE NOTE - I picked the most amusing definition, not the 1st) 1.Your name: Heather - Another of a popular name in the U.S. such as Ashley, Jessica or Amanda. Personality of a Heather: outgoing, happy, loud, fun, down to earth But: can be bitchy, rude, ignorant, and sometimes has the urge to please themselves with household items because they are sexually active. "Don't be such a Heather" (bad heather) "Heather is such a peaceful name" (Positive) 2. Your age: 38 - A gun ,muh-fucka. "Walking my dogs that shit on ya lawn, I fertilize a whole farm when it thunderstorms, I carry weight, .38's in the waist, Battling me is like .38's in Kuwait." -Redman(KING) 3. A friend: Bruce - He lives in your pants. He's very popular with ladies. He's two feet long. When he gets up you have to whack him off until he throws up. Bruce I know she's hot but not now wait until later. 4. What should you be doing? : Sleeping - To masturbate furiously in your room while praying that your grandma doesn't come in. GET OUT GRANDMA! I was sleeping. Those were sleeping noises grandma. 5. Favorite color: Purple - Extremely potent marijuana, specifically marijuana buds that have a purple hue to them. Also accompanied by a fragant, usually fruity smell and mad perma-grin. Yo, you gotta come over and smoke, boy! I got the purple! 6. Hometown: Lansing - The state capital of Michigan and its 6th largest city, with about 100,000 residents and declining. It is a typical Rust Belt Community. It was the home to Ransolm Olds (Oldsmobile) but the plants have skipped town or closed all together. Lansing is next door to Michigan State University in East Lansing. Due to the presence of the University and the state government, the Lansing area has a more diverse population and economy than the rest of Michigan. Lansing is a good area to live as far as the rest of Michigan is concerned. 7.Month of your birthday: July - Someone from Spanish ethnic calling a person a liar. You said you were gonna take me out for margaritas & tacos but you didn't show up. July to me Julyer! 8.Last person you talked to: Rik - (v) to get as close as possible to physically raping someone in plain clothing, preferably jokingly, and with little repercussions. Dude, i totally Rik'd that chick. Yeah, man, i saw, you were all over her and she was like "agh!" 10. Your nickname: Heat - Heat has several meanings as a word and one as an abbreviation. Heat as a slang term is commonly used to describe a weapon of some kind, usually a pistol. "You packing heat?" Heat as in heat generated by an exothermic reaction is an increase in energy of particles causing them to move/vibrate more rapidly, in some materials this can cause electricity to flow more easily, for materials to melt then evaporate. When an animal "goes into heat" they are at their most sexually active and reproductive time of the year, this would usually occur during the "mating season" of the particular animal. As a military abbreviation, HEAT means High Explosive Anti Tank. This is a rocket or other explosive missile/shell designed to penetrate through a tracked vehicles armour before detonating it's explosive charge to disable/destroy the target. (For those of you wondering, there is such a thing as "low explosive") "Hostile armour spotted, load up a HEAT round, let's take it out."

Thank you Freyaschild

*Use the 1st letter of your last name to answer each of the following with ONE word... They have to be real places, names, things...nothing made up! Try to use different answers if the person in front of you had the same 1st initial. 1. What is your last name? Cary - Derekin 2. 4 letter word Carp - Dike 3. Vehicle: Cadillac - Delorean 4. City / Neighborhood: Carmel - Detroit 5. Boy Name: Clark - Dean 6. Girl Name: Caroline - Darlene 7. Occupation: Chef - Driver 8. Something you wear: Corset - Denim 9. Food: Cheese - Dumplings 10. Found in a bathroom: Clippers - Dove 11. Reason for Being Late: Crash - Drunk 12. Something you shout: Crap! - Damn! 13. Animal: Crane - Donkey 14. Body part: Cranium - Derriere 15. Word to describe yourself: Caring - Delicious 16. Foreign Country: China - Denmark

All Together Now in the Key of C

Jingle Valia, Jingle Valia,
Jingle all the way.

Jingle Bells
from the Christmas Song Generator.

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How oft at Christmas-tide the sight
Of green Valia gives us delight.

O Christmas Tree
from the Christmas Song Generator.

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Peace on earth and mercy mild,
God and Valia reconciled.

Hark The Herald Angels Sing
from the Christmas Song Generator.

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There won't be snow in Africa this Christmas time,
The greatest gift they'll get this year is Valia.

Do They Know It's Christmas
from the Christmas Song Generator.

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Radical Honesty #2

Radical Honesty – How to Transform Your Life by Telling the Truth Brad Blanton PP. 92-94 Telling the truth means all of the worst things you might imagine it means. It means telling everything you have hidden that you have done in the past to the very people who you think would be most hurt or angry or surprised or embarrassed by the revelations. If, for example, you have been having sex with someone other than your spouse, you have to tell him/her all the details: who you did it with, how many times, who came first, how many times you came, where it happened, whom you told, what you said to each other, how much fun it was, and so on, and answer all the questions that arise from the telling. Telling the truth means telling all your secrets and your secret feelings to whomever you don’t want to tell. Worse yet, it means being expressive of feeling – mad when you express resentment and warm and moved when you express appreciation and silent when you don’t yet know what you feel. Telling the truth has to do with being expressive of feeling and using descriptive language regardless of ideas about tact or propriety. The first thing you have to get over to tell the truth is politeness – modification of your report of your experience out of "consideration" of the other person’s feelings. That is, unless your spouse gets a clear feeling from your report of how much fun it was when you fucked his best friend, you haven’t told the truth yet. Honest people speak simply, using language more to describe than to evaluate. Liars evaluate almost exclusively, only using enough description to make the story believable. Good liars use a little more description that bad liars, more subtle in its cast of value so the listener things she came up with the idea about whether what happened was good or bad. Hours and hours of practice and observation have helped us all in developing our ability to manipulate in this way. We all have a sales pitch about the nature of reality. When a person chooses to make the transition from habitual lying to telling the truth, the passage is scary and difficult. We have learned to assign value dishonestly and pitch our point of view with everything we say. We have been trained by scores of moralistic authorities, like Nurse Ratchet in Ken Kesey’s One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, to keep our mouths shut and behave as we should instead of speaking the truth. We have been blackmailed into a common interpretation of reality by hundreds of male and female Nurse Ratchets. Learning to describe, to speak what is simply true, requires an unlearning of hard-earned preconceptions and a relearning of how to perceive with as little preconception as possible. Knowing the difference between perception and conception and getting good, through practice, at distinguishing between the two can save your life. Both the quality and length of your life can be increased through learning to focus on making the distinction over and over again between value-laden words and descriptive words. Descriptive words make pictures happen in the minds of the speaker and the hearer, crate experiences like sexual excitement, anger, righteous indignation, embarrassment, sympathy, sadness, joyfulness, or laughter. An honest person is one who is creating vivid pictures, feelings, sounds, and smells in the singular attempt to portray what has occurred or is occurring within her or around her. An honest person is concerned foremost with accuracy. Being honest is not just for the sake of feeling good about being a virtuous person; it is a vital necessity. Learning how to be honest and being willing to do so is the cure for all non-environmental stress disorders. It is the key to managing the disease of moralism. It is the most worthwhile focus of our attention as humans of this time and the only thing with half a chance to save us from ourselves. This is vital to your life and to the survival of life for all of us. Our problems do not arise from not thinking enough before we speak. Just the opposite is true. The way we learn to think and modify what we have to say before we speak kills millions of us unnecessarily and lays waste most of the cripples left, injured but still alive.

Radical Honesty #1

Radical Honesty – How to Transform Your Life by Telling the Truth Brad Blanton PP.55-58 Manipulating and strategizing and having secret plans and conspiracies is one way to operate in the world to create the appearance of a successful life. But the appearance of a successful life is to a successful life as the menu is to a meal. The appearance of success is a performance in which you are cut off from contact with the audience except through your role. A successful life, in contrast, is one in which you can share with others openly, as your life happens, without all that rehearsal. The contrast is between performance and sharing. The alternative to telling the simple truth about your feelings and thoughts, as they occur, is a kind of pathetic bragging one is left with in later life even if one has made money – the usual measure of success – but remained an isolated manipulator. Manipulation never works to get the result desired, but it always seems like it’s just about to work. When you get what you said you wanted by manipulation, it is never enough. When you tell the truth and get what you want, getting what you want is like gravy – it feels like you are getting more than you ever hoped for, rather than just oaky but not quite good enough. We all get to make this choice between manipulation and communication over and over again in life. John Stevens, a Gestalt educator, wrote beautifully in his book, Awareness, about the dilemma of trying to win love through manipulation as opposed to communicating. A great deal has been written about trust and love, and that if you can build a strong trusting, loving relationship, then people can be honest with each other. I believe this idea is exactly backwards. It is very nice if I feel trusting and loving toward someone, but if I don’t feel this way, what can I do about it? Trust and love are my feeling responses toward another person, and these responses cannot be manufactured. Either I feel love or I don’t. All the emphasis on trust and love results in many people pretending to feel trust and love "because it is healthy, and will bring about closeness, honesty, etc." – adding a new area of phoniness and dishonesty in their behavior. Honest, however, is a behavior and is something I can choose or not choose. I cannot decide to love or trust, but I can decide to be personally honest or not. And when I choose to be really honest and say what I experience and what I feel, I am showing that I can be trusted. This is the only kind of behavior that can bring about a response of trust. Trust is my response to a person that I know I can believe. Even if I dislike a person, I can trust him if he is honest with me, and I can respect his willingness to be himself honestly. Likewise, honesty does not always bring a response of love, but it is absolutely essential to it. When I am honestly myself, and you respond warmly and with caring, then love exists. If I calculate and put on a phony behavior in order to please you, you may love my behavior, but you cannot love me, because I have hidden my real existence behind this artificial behavior. Even when you love in response to my phony behavior, I cannot really receive your love. It is poisoned by my knowledge that the love is for the image I have created, not for me. I also have to be continually on guard to be sure that I maintain my image so that your love does not disappear. Since I have shut myself off from your love in this way, I will feel more lonely and unloved, and try even more desperately to manipulate myself and you in order to get this love. In contrast, when I am honestly myself and you respond to be as I am in that moment, I can receive this fully and know the satisfaction of being really related with you. This honest relating is not always joyful or pleasant – it is sometimes sad, sometimes angry, etc. – but it is always solid and real and vitally alive.

Are you serious?

Maybe I'm just old. Or too strait laced. Or closed minded. Or....sane. I had been talking to H S, a woman from from CollarMe for a few days. And by talking I mean IMing, a little bit over the last few days. I'd say the sum total time would be....2 hours. Most of it inconsequential, insubstantial. Most of it her trying to represent herself as a much more significant person to me than she is, and me being blunt, honest, and well.... SANE. Holy fuck! I am not going to announce to the world that you are my collared slave. I am not going to be pleased at you calling yourself "my woman." And I sure as hell am NOT going to ask/tell you to move from New York to California and be my TPE slave. Really....do people honestly do that...move thousands (hell even hundreds) of miles away from their established life to be with a total stranger who they may or may not have a successful relationship with? Really???

Thinking

www.tarot.com Thursday, Oct 9th, 2008 -- Today it's your turn to step outside the box. It's easier now for you to entertain a relationship with less of a commitment, for you are feeling more emotionally secure. Exploring your passions can lead you in unexpected directions if you have the courage to remain open to change. Communication is the key that can open the door to love, but you cannot hold on to what you once thought was true. www.astology.com Thursday, Oct 9th, 2008 Be patient when it comes to love. Not all affairs start off perfectly. Relationships of all kind take work. If you want your next romance to last, be willing to lay down a stable foundation first.

I've met him. Repeatedly.

Just Like Me

Bought it tonight. Pay for it tomorrow morning. Receive within 2 weeks I hope. http://cgi.ebay.com/LEATHER-CORSET-SALE-Steel-Boned-Renn-Pirate-LARP-Wench_W0QQitemZ120313136610QQihZ002QQcategoryZ11522QQtcZphotoQQcmdZViewItemQQ_trksidZp1742.m153.l1262

Pointless Meandering

I've been wondering lately what's going on with the laws of attraction with regards to myself. It seems that of the 5 women (that I know of) who have been flirting with me for a while (or who actually have some real interest in me), 4 of them are under 30. Prior to my ex-wench, I hadn't dated people who were more than a year or 2 younger than me, and I only recall 1 person before her who was significantly (10+ years) younger than me who was interested in me (I was 27 she was 17...that went absolutely nowhere). Why & how did I become so interesting to people in their 20's within the last 2 years?

Um, yeah...

www.tarot.com Love Horoscope For the Week of Sep 29th, 2008 -- You could be in for an exciting ride this weekend as the Moon moves through your 5th House of Romance. Being bold is perfect since you are ready to stand up and be noticed. Don't be coy or worry about being subtle. This is a great time to open up your heart and show your stuff loudly and proudly.

Courtney, Dan, Etal

I think there's more pictures of me (and me w/ others) from the shoot...who do I have to sweet-talk to get them?

Oh Look - Pictures!

From a shoot on 9/21/08

Folsome Weekend Plans

I am not doing anything kink &/or Folsom related except the Fair itself. I've been running myself ragged for about a month & I need some down time before I get sick. So, Sunday, Vicki & I are BARTing in to SF & should get there by 10:30. We're grabbing breakfast at BK, and heading in after that. We're planning on going to India Garden (on Folsom between 7th & 8th) for lunch at 1:00. If you want to hook up, feel free to call. I probably won't hear the phone, but I will check it periodically for messages. 707-567-9510

Grab Hammer, Impact Cranium

Repeat as necessary to get the point. From November 07 If all you have to bring to the table is drama, games, jealousies & inappropriate demands... I'm not interested. I'm just happy being and accepting the good things that life puts in my path. If you are looking to come into my life, come in with something positive and happy. If your presence ends up putting a pall on my clear skies & making me feel apprehensive... Then either the negative aspects need to go, or you need to go. I'm done with drama. Just done. A Horoscope in February 08 It is time for you to refill the well of your soul, dear Leo. So much of your life is spent in service to others, it is only natural that you will feel drained from time to time. Rather than try to push past this feeling and go on as though nothing were the matter, you should instead consider it a sign that something is amiss in your life. If you are feeling unappreciated, admit it. You have spent too much of your life putting others' happiness before your own. It is time to change your priorities. June 2008 Try to avoid getting entangled with someone who has more baggage than I do...and who is more high maintenance than I am. I fully admit that being with me isn't easy...and I think I'd be OK with someone who has a similar amount of issues as I do...but I don't have the wherewithal to give a lot of support to someone with more issues than I have. I have to remember that in the long run, no matter how much I may care about someone...I need to care about myself more. Giving too much of myself isn't going to help either of us in the long run. In the past, I would sometimes slip into a state where I give & give...and it just seems to be expected that I keep on giving, no matter what,...and if I pipe up & let it be known that I'm running low & could stand to have some giving tossed my way...the other person seems to be less than thrilled. That just plain needs to be avoided...but as I well know, things like that are things I still need to work on. Another Horoscope June 08 Being generous doesn't mean letting people walk all over you. Learn to stand up for yourself and make more of an effort to be around those who appreciate you -- as is.

Only Names

1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. 7. 8. 9. 10. 11. N/A 12. 13. 14. 15. N/A 16. 17. 18. 19. 20. 21. 22. 23. N/A 24. 25. 26. Plead the 5th 27. 28. N/A 29. Plead the 5th 30. No requirements, if you want the questions, I'll post your's.

In case you weren't paying attention

On 11/4/07, I posted my goals for my Best Year Yet Pt. 3. Goal # 6 was - Keep trying to speak my mind, even if it's going to hurt. On 11/11, I had my first good occasion to put Goal 6 to the test, and informed someone of just how amazingly irritating that I found them. In February, I had a really good opportunity to set a few people straight all in a 24 hour period with regards to some things they were doing to/with/around me that I didn't like. I still feel close to what I did when I made this post in March. http://valiaderekin.livejournal.com/216422.html But lately, sometimes, I don't really care about trying to be nice about it. I suppose it depends on my mood. If I'm tired/cranky already...I'm not really in the mood as it is to be all nicey-nice. When someone does something that gets under my skin...I've let them have it with both barrels. And you know what...I kind of like it. I kind of like the fact that I'm just saying 'fuck it' and letting my unvarnished thoughts/feelings out. Sometimes, I'm just sick & tired of always been the nice one. And in the general idea of speaking my mind, I did make this post http://valiaderekin.livejournal.com/235101.html No I haven't directed it AT anyone, but some of the women who can read it, are the women I've had (still have) crushes on, so I think it was brave of me to even have it in here at all. I think, (maybe) for a while though, when it comes to things in life that hurt me, irritate me, or make me just feel/think things in a negative way....I think, I might just continue the not so nice route. While I'm not really fond of being The Bitch...it does seem to get the point across so much better than trying to tip-toe around and spare people's feelings. I don't know, this still bears thinking upon. I know there's a solution between nicey-nice & Uber Bitch, and sooner or later, I'll find where that spot is for me. For now...(shrug) you get what you get...honesty. Maybe not pretty, maybe not nice, maybe not what you were expecting given your past interactions with me...but at least it's real I'm not the same person I was a year or 2 ago, and I think that's a good thing. I think the long & the short of it is, if you were able to get me to roll over, to get me to do what you wanted, or you just knew that I'd put up with crap again & again...don't take that as a given anymore.

I really

Don't like going to things (munches, parties, classes, ect) alone. But, there are times when I really want to do something, and my options are to go it alone or to just not go. I went to Exiles tonight for the first time in several years (I'm trying to remember if I've gone at all since I moved to Hayward in 2004). I went because I thought the class would be interesting (it was an off-the-wall topic) and it was. I also went because I enjoy seeing the 2 people who were teaching. I suppose I could have asked Vicki to go with me...but I know if given the choice, she would much prefer going to a play party. I did have tentative plans to meet a friend there, but those fell through. So, I went alone...and read my book before class & during the break. Sometimes I wonder if that's why not many people have talked to me at Exiles, because I have my nose in a book (thereby making it seem like I'm unapproachable I guess). But for me...it's kind of a lifesaver. I can't just sit there like a bump on a log...and I can't just randomly go around the room & cruise people (or just plain talk to strangers for that matter). I do make a point of looking up every page or so, scanning the room & smiling at anyone who happens to be looking my way...but that's about all I do. During the break, Lady Hilary asked me why I wasn't working the room...I told her that I was too shy to. That's what it pretty much boils down to. If someone approaches me and starts a conversation, I'm all for doing my part. I just can't (hardly ever) take the initiative and walk up to someone, introduce myself & start a conversation. Part of me thinks I'm being an imposition, part of me is afraid of rejection, and part of me just doesn't want to be seen as someone who hits on every interesting girl that comes on my radar screen. I actually had 2 women introduce themselves to me tonight. 1 to ask if she could borrow a pen, and another who heard me talking to Lady Hilary about the fact that I didn't know anyone in the room besides her and The Marine. Neither of the women did anything but say 'hi', but it kinda put me out of my element, (not that I really know what my element is when I'm alone besides uncomfortable) because I was surprised that people were talking to me. Thinking back, in the 10 years that I've been a member of Exiles...I can probably count on 1 hand the number of times a random woman in the classes has introduced herself to me and started a conversation. Anyways...The Countess was asking me for suggestions about classes that would get people like me (who haven't attended in a while) to come back. I thought about it on the way home. Socializing & cruising for the Shy.

Teach? Me?

Would you go to a class if I was teaching? What do you think you could learn from me? Somehow, some people have come to the conclusion that I would be a good teacher & that I should start volunteering for classes. I'm not sure how they came to this conclusion. While I've been into BDSM since 1992, I've never really considered myself 'expert' enough in anything to justify my standing in front of a group of people & telling them how they should be doing something. But...other people seem to think I am/should. So...if I get the guts up to venture into this arena, do you have any thoughts about what I could do?

Names Please?

From Leo Weekly Love Horoscope on www.tarot.com For the Week of Sep 15th, 2008 -- Romance can flourish with a friend or with a person you meet through a pal this weekend.

Give Me Your Blood

Your result for Fantasy Seduction Quiz: What type of fantasy senario would you like to experience in bed? What type of creature would be most likely to seduce you?...

Vampire

You attracted a Vampire. You either have a hidden dark side that only comes out when inspired, or you yourself are very dark and seductive. Vampires have a tendancy to attract the innocent or dark and are attracted to these aspects themselves. With a vampire you could get a long lasting seduction or a one night fling. Either way you should expect wine, candles, romantic passion, and maybe a little nip here and there.

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Green Eyes

When we were together, my jealousy/possessiveness bothered you, but I think you liked it too, for the ego boost it gave you. Now...my lack of jealousy seems to bother you. I've changed in the last 16 months. It's a shame you haven't.

Getting my Arrrr On

Still going here on 9/13. http://www.norcalrenfaire.com/themeweekends.asp Anyone else going? For those of you that went to GGFaire, you'll remember the outfit. Well part of it anyway...might change out a skirt &/or blouse.

What Does

Someone who's pushing 40 wear to the NIN concert tomorrow night?

Pretty Please?

www.tarot.com Thursday, Sep 4th, 2008 -- A big job or a promotion may come your way now and it could bring a cash windfall along with it. Nevertheless, your work isn't done and you must be willing to continue to put in extra effort. Rest assured that nothing you do today will go to waste. Think big and then follow through with confidence and persistence.

Typo or Secret Message to Me

www.astrology.com This is cut & pasted exactly how I received it. Your intuitive side is out in force today and you might pick up signals you wish you hadn't! You'll still be able to put them to good use, though, so don't worry about tit all too much.

Ok then

www.astrology.com Your heart is precious, so why do you let everyone you're attracted to mishandle it. Treat love like the valuable treasure it is, and not like your worn out gym shoes and you might have a chance at a real romance without the heartache.

So, the latest meme going around is this - Fuck or Pass game. The rules are simple. If you want to fuck the person who posts this, send them a reply saying "I'd fuck you." But then, you have to post this in your journal, in exchange. I have refrained from posting it because sometimes things like this make me feel awkward. If no one responds...I get depressed. If someone responds who I 'don't feel that way about' then I feel weird because I don't know what to say to that person. Additionally, I have held back from replying to it on other people's journals for similar reasons. I know most of the people I'm interested in, don't return my interest & I don't want to make things awkward between us. And this all leads to something that's been swirling around in my head for a bit. Crushes I seem to have a habit of crushing on women who are either not into me personally, or me as a type. I also seem to crush on women who are fairly different from the women that I actually end up dating. I crush on dominant women and on butch/boi-ish/androgynous women. Neither of which I have much dating experience with. Dominant women...more than a few have told me that they won't submit to me. Told me without my even asking really. I don't always see things in a dom/sub (top/bottom) paradigm. I don't think every relationship I have has to involve a power exchange. However, I guess some other people don't see things the same way...they can't imagine a relationship without that element. Funny thing...some of the women I've crushed on, I would have bottomed (but probably not submitted) to. Butch ect. - This is always an odd thing for me. The more I think about it, the more I think that I purposely go for more obviously femme women because of my early experiences with 2 women...1 who was butch/boi-ish and 1 who was androgynous. The first woman I ever had sex with (Jay), spent 3 months pursuing me. We shared 1 night together & then she never spoke to me again. It was several weeks later when her roommate (girlfriend?) told me that I was nothing but a notch in Jay's bedpost & that she wanted nothing to do with me now that she'd had me. The first woman I ever had a serious relationship with (Kelly) was stone. I had no experience with that (technically have little since Kelly was the only one)...so it was weird for me to get used to having someone who wanted to be sexual, but didn't want me touching them. In the 6 months we were together, I never even saw her naked. Anyways...yeah, 6 months and then all of the sudden she dumped me. I didn't find out for another few months that she dumped me because I dyed my hair. Apparently I looked too much like her sister & Kelly had some real serious incest issues. Several years later (shortly before I got married), Kelly came back into my life. She made a big play for me & then had the nerve to tell me that if she & I were going to have sex again (huh, I don't recall saying I was interested), that I would always have to use condoms with Rik because Kelly didn't want to taste him on me. Um...yeah, um...unless I'm in some sort of group sex situation (which I haven't been in for nearly 20 years), I make a point of showering between partners. So...because of the experiences I had with Jay & Kelly, I've always been afraid of getting into a relationship with another butch/boi-ish/androgynous woman. So yeah...there's a little more insight into my mind. I have a habit of crushing on women who either don't want me, or who I'm a little scared of anyways.

Pretty Pictures

Your result for The Perception Personality Image Test...

NBPC - The Daydreamer

You perceive the world with particular attention to nature. You focus on the hidden treasures of life (the background) and how that fits into the larger picture. You are also particularly drawn towards the colors around you. Because of the value you place on nature, you tend to find comfort in more subdued settings and find energy in solitude. You like to ponder ideas and imagine the many possibilities of your life without worrying about the details or specifics. You are in tune with all that is around you and understand your life as part of a larger whole. You are a down-to-earth person who enjoys going with the flow.

The Perception Personality Types:

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Faire Thee Well

On the 16th, Vicki, myself & a friend or 2 are going here. http://www.ggfaire.com/ On 9/13, Rik, myself & some of his Halloween group are going here. http://www.norcalrenfaire.com/themeweekends.asp Anyone want to meet me at either??

Hey - Cuddlycthulhu

Have you seen this yet? http://www.hello-cthulhu.com/?date=2003-11-30

100 Things About Me

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT? Lower lip. Smashed my face into the corner of a counter when getting a plate down from the cupboard. 2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM? A painting of a witch, and a colored drawing of a raccoon barely holding onto a branch. 3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE? Gold Razor 4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LIKE TO LISTEN TO? Alternative, heavy metal, bagpipes, drums 5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN? I think around 3PM. 6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW? 2 Things, my debt to disappear & a new job that I'll be happy with. 7. WHAT DO YOU MISS? Nothing in particular right now 8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION? I'd say Rik, but he might not like being thought of as a possession. :) 9. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL? Hard to pick - lavender, vanilla, musk 10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC? Sometimes, in large crowds 11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK? Sometimes when I'm alone & hearing things. 13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOGNE / PERFUME? Opium, Obsession, vanilla-musk 14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE/ SAME SEX? Well kept 15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING AT? Already married. 16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS? caramel frappachino 17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING? pepperoni, extra cheese & pesto 18. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE? lobster, crab 19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD? A co-worker who made changes in their staffs time sheets & didn't bother to tell me & I couldn't get my reports to balance. 20. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE? Spanish at about a toddler level 21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX) EVER GAVE YOU? I can't remember 28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING? I suppose that depends on the length of time they'd be around. A few months or more, yes. Less, probably not. 29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU? to SHOW them daily... and never assume the KNOW it... (I agree with EMT, so I'll leave her words) 30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED. 13 31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES? Both & redheads too. 32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN? Home or Rik's cell 33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST? lying 34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE COUNTRY? Mexico, Caribbean 35. YOUR WEAKNESSES? I love too much, I spend too much, I trust too much 36. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? Roscommon, MI 37. FIRST JOB? Jewish Community Center in Belmont as a Summer Camp Counselor 38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL? Yes 39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS SURVEY? Talking to the neighbor 40.IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE? Just how much could be lipo'd from my ass, tummy & thighs? 41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY? Why not? Doesn't everyone want to know about me? 42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST? Physically - boobs & ass. Otherwise...intelligence, capability 43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL WAS OUTLAWED? I'd miss it, but it's no big deal to me. 44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY? Whatever you see that says "Valia should own this." 45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT? None 46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? I don't think so. 47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS? Sometimes 48. WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVORITE? Index 49. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY? I don't recall right now 50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? Not really, it's sloppy. It takes too much time/effort to write neatly. 51. Whats your favorite lunch meat? turkey 52. ANY BAD HABITS? Swearing, sometimes a short fuse, over-spending, over-eating 53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF ALBUM IN YOUR ITUNES? I just looked at all my cassettes & I have an MC Hammer tape that I don't remember ever owning.... 54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Probably 55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL? There's probably a time or 2, especially if it's something about someone who might do harm to themself or someone else. 56. DO LOOKS MATTER? Yes, but I have a very wide range of what I consider to be attractive 57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER? loud music, yelling 58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME? I don't know that I have one 59. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY? Too easily sometimes 60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD? lincoln logs, barbies 61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE? 20ish 63. DO YOU USE SARCASM? Yeah, annoying isn't it? 64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT? Not in the middle, just the edges. 65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL? Intelligence, stability, confidence, caring, passionate, honest, trustworthy 66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES? Heather sometimes gets shortened to Heat. Valia has been V. 1 used to call me succubus & cupcake. Plenty probably call me bitch when I'm out of hearing range. 68. DO YOU UN-TIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?' Yes 70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR? B&J One World. Cheesecake ice cream w/ chocolate covered cheesecake bites in it. 72. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE COLORS? Purple, dark green, dark blue, burgundy 73. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE? None 75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS? If they want to... 76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? American Gladiator 77. LAST THING YOU ATE? Chipotle roast & mashed taters 78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Patricia @ work 79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE/SAME SEX? general looks (physical, how they carry themself, what they're wearing) 82. FAVORITE DRINK? Root beer or cream soda 84. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT? To participate in...none. To watch, ice skating, MMA, pro-wrestling 85. HAIR COLOR? red-blonde. Trying to go bad to my natural color 86. EYE COLOR? Blue 87. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES? No, I had Lasik a few years ago 88. SIBLINGS? I'm adopted, so none that I know of 89. FAVORITE MONTH? July & October 90. YOU LIKE SUSHI? Some 91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED? Past tense - WWE Raw. Currently, American Gladiator 93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT? YES!! 94. SUMMER OR WINTER? Summer 95. KISSES OR HUGS? Embrace the power of AND 96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS? They both have their attractions, but over-all, I prefer relationships. 97. WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS? No one. :) 98. WHO IS THE LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS? No one. :) 99. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING? I just finished Bloodline by F. Paul Wilson. Starting on Toxic People by Lillian Glass later tonight. 100. WHERE DO YOU WORK? At a credit union in Concord

Yes or No

Only two rules: You must answer yes or no. You may not explain unless someone asks you to. Taken a picture naked? Yes Made money illegally? No Had a one night stand? Yes Been in a fist fight? Yes Slept with your best friend? Yes Had sex in a public place? Yes Ditched work to have sex? No Slept with a member of the same sex? Yes Seen someone die? No Ran from the police? No Woke up somewhere and not remember how you got there? No Worn your partners unmentionables? No Fallen asleep at work? Yes Used toys in the bedroom? Yes Ran a red light? Yes Been fired? Yes Been in a car accident? Yes Pole danced or done a striptease? Yes Loved someone you shouldn't? Yes Sang karaoke? Yes Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes Laughed so hard you peed your pants? No Caught someone having sex? Yes Kissed a perfect stranger? Yes Shaved your partner? No Given your private parts a nickname? No Ever gone in public without underwear? Yes Had sex on a roof top? No Played chicken? No Mooned/flashed someone? Yes Do you sleep naked? Yes Blacked out from drinking? No Felt like killing someone? Yes Had sex more than 5 times in one day? Yes Been with someone because they were in a band? No Taken 10 shots of liquor in a day? No Shot a gun? Yes Gone outside naked? Yes

For L & cb

You might remember this, I posted it in May of 07.

Funny

As I sit here in my long purple (subtly) tie-dyed dress & purple Dr. Martens, I'm not feeling like an Ugly Duckling. www.horoscope.com Lately you've been very sensitive about your looks. Recent comments from your friends might unintentionally make you paranoid, but there's no need to hide under a sack. Take pride in your appearance. You're more of a hottie than you realize.

He's Gone

http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendID=61471721&blogID=419251906

Oh Horrors!

Short Notice Birthday Stuff

I finally figured out something to do. Rik and I are going to this on Sunday. http://gilroygarlicfestival.com/ And for dinner we're going here. http://www.tassosoldhouse.com/ If anyone is interested in meeting us...let me know ASAP. :)

Only a bit kinky?

Your result for The Sexplorer In Bed Test...

The Porn King

Lovers of the world beware! You know what you want and are damn sure you are going to get it! Find yourself a nice little submissive type and have your way with them. Your ways are bit on the kinky side, so you better know a good dry-cleaner. When you are finished, the world finishes with you.

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Only a bit kinky?

Your result for The Sexplorer In Bed Test...

The Porn King

Lovers of the world beware! You know what you want and are damn sure you are going to get it! Find yourself a nice little submissive type and have your way with them. Your ways are bit on the kinky side, so you better know a good dry-cleaner. When you are finished, the world finishes with you.

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Three Words Again

Where is your cell phone? In my purse Your boyfriend/girlfriend husband/wife? I am poly Your hair? Slowly going gray Where is your father? Michigan and Florida Cheesecake? Yes, please, now! Your dream last night? None I think Your favorite drink? Hansens Vanilla Cherry Your dream car? Next to curb The room you're in? With the TV George Bush? Must I choose? Nipple rings? Used to have Who did you hang out with last night? Rik and Vicki What you're not good at? Asking for help Your best friend? My husband Rik Student loans? Paid off now Where did you grow up? All over country The last thing you did? I cooked dinner What are you wearing? Skirt, top, shoes Tattoo on the lower back? No, left shoulder Ketchup? Always with fries Your computer? Yay, it works Your life? Changing for better Your mood? Contemplative and quiet Missing? Only my sanity What are you thinking about right now? Is dinner burning? Your car? Needs a wash Your summer? Busy so far Your relationship status? Married, slave, lover Your favorite color? Why purple silly When is the last time you laughed? In training today Last time you cried? Sometime last week Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow? Remember, live, plan High school? I'm getting old

Psuedo-Birthday

Come sing to me this Wednesday. http://www.themunch.org/

Thank You

I appreciate the sympathy from the last post. It means a lot. Hopefully I'll cash in on those hugs soon. :)

I Didn't Know

That dogs could get cancer. http://www.petplace.com/dogs/osteosarcoma/page1.aspx We've had Cabal since 1997, and got him when he was 6 months old. He's a wolf-husky hybrid...100+ pounds & thinks he's a lapdog. According to our vet (and the info we've found on-line), dogs of his size & breed typically live 10-12 years. He's somewhere in year 11 now. Even if we did everything we could (amputate his leg & chemo), at best he would only have another year...a year filled with a lot of trials & most likely pain & confusion. I'm with Rik. http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendID=61471721&blogID=415537591 If you can't see that, go to http://www.myspace.com/perfessorevil and click on the top entry, Doggie.

Holding my breath until I turn

Your result for The Color Code Test...

Color Code: BLUE: The Social Butterfly

Here is the basics: For a more in depth analysis, I suggest you look up the Color Code, and take a more intensive test.

BLUE MOTIVE: Intimacy

BLUE NEEDS: To be good (morally), To be understood, To be appreciated, Acceptance.

BLUE WANTS: To reveal insecurities, Quality, Autonomy, Secuirity.

SUMMARY: Blues are motivated by altruism. They love to do nice things for others. they look for opportunites to give up something in order to bring another person happiness. selflessness rather than selfishness is their guiding philosophy. Blues seek intimacy. They want to be loved and to love. A true blue will sacrifice a successful career to improve an important relationship. Blues crave being understood. They are gratified when they are listened to, when they feel understood and appreciated. Blues may have thier hearts broken more than most people, but they also spend much more time in love. Blues are directed by a strong moral conscience. They have a moral code that guides them in their decision making, their value judgements, and their leisure time. A blue would rather lose than cheat. Ethically, blues are people who should be in positions of power, but seldom are.

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Baaah

How Should Your LJ Friends Comment in This Entry? LiveJournal Username How many comments have you left today? A secret must be told to you by: almus A compliment must be left by: mikeysmilinguy However, a complaint about you should be left by: zarabear Some song lyrics should be posted for you to guess, by: cuddlycthulhu Also, a memory of you should be posted by: yanijc Ten words that bring you to mind must be posted by: leggylady A haiku (5, 7, 5) should be written about you by: soulcookie An "anonymous" comment should be left by: sinicism This Fun Quiz created by Marzi at BlogQuiz.Net

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King Me! Oh wait, that's checkers.

Your result for Which Chess Piece are You Test?...

The Bishop's Clerk

The Bishops Clerk is both an idea and people person. Everyone and everything is part of a bizarre cosmic whole. They really do want to help and be liked and admired by others. By principle they are intrigued by new ideas but ultimately discard most for one reason or another. They are zany with charm which can allow them to warm up to even the stodgy types. They are outgoing, fun, and they genuinely like people. This Clerk is warm and affectionate and spontaneous.

This Clerk can have strong, if unconventional convictions which are usually tied into their cosmic view. They will often use their social skills and contacts to persuade others gently of the rightness behind their views. They may tie themselves with trying to save the world and end up forgetting the nearest and dearest to them (if only in a temporary sense.)

People will love working with the Bishop’s Clerk because they are easygoing, pleasant and great at brainstorming. They are wonderful in groups of people but need fresh projects to work on. They dislike bureaucracy in principle and practice; they will make a point of launching crusades against some aspect of the political agenda. It is honesty they are fighting for. The Bishop’s Clerk is a type of Pawn, but fret not, the Pawn is idealized because of its potential to do many great things and to think of the rest of humanity.

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According to them - How I tick

Your result for The Attachment Style Test...

The Cuddleslut

You're mostly secure, but sometimes you need a little extra reassurance to make it through the tough times. You are usually affectionate and sweet, and you find it easy to fall in love. An encouraging word from a crush or a loved one can motivate you for weeks.

Fictional character with whom you might identify: Kaylee (Firefly/Serenity), Hiro Nakamura (Heroes)

Other Attachment Types:
Secure:	The Unicorn	|	The Cuddleslut	|	The Free Agent
Preoccupied:	The Cling Wrap	|	The Squid	|	The Insect
Fearful:	The Doormat	|	The Leper	|	The Exile
Dismissing:	The Hermit	|	The Stone	|	The Player
Confused:	The Waffler

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